Should We Get Married?

Kerok

Working week. In the end I accidentally met Mas Bagas. Of course, without Juan's knowledge, because I'm sure if he asks permission he won't give permission. I decided to meet him to stop all his work. I can't stand the young doctors who keep making me their gossip.

By mutual agreement, we met in a pretty hidden place. In the corner of the field that is right behind the hospital building where I work. I went there, a little while after Juan left me in the hospital yard, while he was heading to his office.

"Stop influencing them and spread untrue gossip about me and my husband" I said to Bagas.

"His husband? Cis, so you asked to meet just to tell me that Juan is your husband." Bagas smiled cynically.

"What happened in the past, let's just say it never happened. Forget everything. Let's start a new life better." My love. "I'm with my new life, and you please start a new life as well. We better not know each other anymore."

"Hahaha, do you think I can start a new life after Juan takes everything back from me?"

"My husband didn't take anything away from me."

"Who said? He took my wife. You guys are cheating behind my back!"

"Astagfirullah. You know how traumatized I was with Juan at the time. How could you possibly accuse me of having an affair with her."

"Trauma? Ahh is right? But the ending, you're together. Disgusting. Perp-premier--with his victim, check the chuck!"

"Me and Juan ...."

"What's? You want to say you fell in love with her? Since when is Ayu? Since he abused you? Oh means you ...."

Plaque. A slap landed on Bagas's cheek. Body vibrates. My tears are flowing. Misconduct. Is it wrong for me to fall in love with a man who once cursed me? If that's wrong, why did God unite us?

"Aghhh, how dare you hit me just because of that breng---man!" Mas Bagas was angry, he blocked the arm firmly. "What did you see of her that you fell in love with her? Say it!" Bentak Mas Bagas's.

Right now I'm really sorry, why give Mas Bagas a chance to meet. I should have kept all my agreements with Juan, that when we signed together there was no past.

"Let go, sick!" I thrashed, trying to let go of his grip.

"Deliver? Until whenever I won't let you go Ayu Andara Nesa. I've entrusted my heart to you but you're messing around!" quickly Mas Bagas tried to touch me, repeating the same mistake that Juan had made.

I was very surprised by his treatment. For a moment I froze. Can't digest what's going on.

"Hey, what's wrong? Did you enjoy it too?" ask Mas Bagas.

"I really hate you, Bagas. Until whenever I don't want to see you again!" I said.

"Based on pela---, you're really cheap!" the Ejek Mas Bagas. "His mood has always been a mask, but you're a bad girl who thirsts for men!" he added.

Of course the mockery makes me angry. I really feel humbled to the lowest.

"Nice are you evil!" Like a fidelity, I hit him with all my might. But my strength is nothing compared to Mas Bagas. With ease he can beat me until now the situation turned around. I was in his arms. We were so close that I could smell her breath.

"Juan took you from me. He harassed you, and then suddenly you were together. Now I will do the same so that you can come back in my arms!" mas Bagas grinned. He dragged me into his car. He managed to keep me from picking. Meanwhile, because this place is quiet, no one and far from the crowd so no one can hear my screams.

***

I hope the world does end. Or my life is over. It felt like everything was really over when Bagas took away my honor by force. Now, we were both in his car in disheveled clothes. He laughed a little after being satisfied to get what he wanted. While I regret everything.

Why should I ask her to meet? Why meet in a quiet place. I'm really so stupid!

My emotions are still so high. With the rest of my strength I had, I clawed at it with all my might. But again I lost.

"What else? Just enjoy. Didn't you also enjoy it with the breng-Juan. Hahaha." Bagas laughed. "Oh yes, now come down.but remember, never tell anyone or you yourself who will resist embarrassment. One more thing, wait for my next call." Bagas opened the car door, pushed me out while throwing my bag. Then he gasped leaving me feeling devastated.

You fool Ayu, you fool! You seek your own disease. Now how should it be? You betrayed Juan!

I cried, hugged my body firmly, and occasionally beat him with great annoyance. Why did it have to happen a second time?

***

I don't know how many times the call from Juan went into my phone. But I ignored. I'm still so devastated, I don't know what to do. I also don't think I have the face to meet Juan. I'm really devastated, so embarrassed. While the sky is getting darker. The tears that had dried up flowed back. The same incident while still in High School, now repeated again. Was I so despicable that I had to experience it twice?

My body still hurts. Even just to move it feels very difficult, plus mentally messy. I'm totally ruined.

Just about to close my eyes, suddenly the sound of sirens followed by a beam of lights directed at me. After a few seconds, Juan called me. Yeah, it's really Juan. He ran towards me. The look on his face was so worried, as soon as we faced him he hugged me tightly.

"Where then? What was? I looked everywhere for you, called repeatedly but nothing was picked up. I had to report to the police out of concern. Luckily they searched through the GPS on your phone so I could find you here. Why, baby, what's wrong?" juan asked, he let go of his embrace, looking at me fixedly. "Darling .. you?" he looked back at me. "Ka ... You? Si ... Who is that bastard? Say baby, who's that bastard?" Juan was so panicked, he yelled, shook my body. But I was not strong enough to answer his question, I felt so weak that I was unconscious. I fainted in my husband's arms.