Should We Get Married?

Friendship is ruined

"Oh Allah Ayu, wait!" Bianca blocked my arm. Trying to hold back so I don't go.

"If you don't want to be said like that, you shouldn't have done all that. Prove it dong, Yu!" challenge Mita again.

"I don't have to prove anything to anyone. This is a life choice I have made and I take full responsibility for it. Just like you decided to trust Bagas more than me!" I said.

"Lho, if you do not accept what Bagas yo said. Let us know if you don't play with Juan at High School. Easy tho, Yu. Instead of getting angry, then leave without giving any explanation even though everything here has tried hard for you. Don't be selfish, Yu. The name of the bad as well as anything in store later will also be found out also belangnya!" Firm Mita.

"All right, then we'll just wait. Who is wrong and who is right. As I have said before, this friendship should end because I do not want the friends that I love more damaged just because of wrong prejudice. I'm sorry." I let go of Bianca's hand, ignoring their call, while running away leaving the three of them with tears in my eyes.

I don't know what Bagas said until finally their brains washed. Accusing me in such a way. I was really disappointed but couldn't do anything but surrender. As Mita said, whatever vices are hidden will be discovered later.

***

Crackling. I closed the door to the hotel room, just a few steps, Juan was already in front of me. Apparently he's back. His face was confused to see me coming home crying.

"Why?" Ask.

"What's up. It was just a house miss, so decided to go out, it turned out that the kangen was not treated even added-add." I deliberately made up the story because I did not want to continue to bring the past to Juan. We have agreed to bury the past and step forward to a better future. That's why I don't want to keep talking about it. Besides, I know, if I told you all about it, it would only make Juan feel more and more unwell. He will be uncomfortable when I know he has been trying to improve all this time.

"I know you met your twman-friends." Juan embraces me. Whispering in my ear. "I'm sorry, baby. It must be because of the past."

"No need to apologize, we've forgotten the past." I said.

"Darling, I really owe you."

"Then let's go back to Jakarta as soon as possible."

"alright. When do you want to go home?"

"Tomorrow in the morning!"

"All right."

Tonight, I decided to get dressed. We'll cancel tomorrow's sightseeing plan. I don't want to linger in this land of birth. I don't want to meet people I've known in the past and bring back what I've buried.

***

"May you be comfortable working here." Whisper Juan, while driving me in front of the hospital yard. The building where we work side by side, so we can go back and forth together, even the lunch plan will be together.

It's my first day working at this hospital, a government hospital that's actually of quality under the hospital I was in before. But due to distance, we agreed that I was the one who moved.

"Doctor Ayu Andara Nesa?" asked a middle-aged woman, welcoming me in front.

"Yes. I Ayu. With Miss Utami?" My toot. He's the one who helped me with the administration. While showing the hospital, showing my room and explaining my work, we had a casual conversation.

"If there's anything, don't hesitate to call me Mom!" Said Bu Utami, after he finished explaining everything. Then he left me alone in the doctor's room.

I stared at the white paper containing the job records that would be my responsibility while praying good luck in this place because this is where I will start a new life as Juan's wife.

"Dye?" someone said. "I mean doctor Ayu, right? I am Sita, a friend of Juan and Bagas. Coincidentally our time on campus was once an organization. When I knew you were going to move here, I was really happy, I finally got to know Bagas' wife, uh I mean Juan." He smiles. A smile that makes me uncomfortable.

God, I just wanted to start. Can't get to know people who are just going to make my life uncomfortable. But I forgot one thing. Here, although Bagas and Juan were not health people, but this was the hospital where the alma mater roamed. I should be prepared to face people who certainly know Juan and Bagas.

I didn't respond too much to Doctor Sita's pleasantries. Choosing to pass to the examination room where I first practiced.

***

Physical fatigue can rest. But not with tired hearts. Just the first day it felt like running away, yelling to remove the burden on this shoulder. I feel very uncomfortable because there is always a subtle innuendo that makes me want to just disappear.

Apparently Juan was quite famous while still a student. Plus at this time his career can be said to be very brilliant. She became the idol of many women, one of whom is a medical student who has now become a young doctor. But Juan's heart was anchored to me so they were disappointed, especially after knowing that I had previously been married to Bagas mas. I don't know who spread that information. But many know and many also want to know what the real story is. They were trying to fish, but I didn't respond in the least. Letting the story just hang.

"Darling!" juan was by my side. He smiles. A smile that a few years ago could have made my heart calm but not now. "Have you waited so long? Howwasyourday?" ask again.

"It's normal" I replied, just so. "I want to go home." I said, because accidentally seeing with the ends of the eyes of the group of young doctors who had been caught by me was making me and Juan as their gossip material.

"Looks like the first day of work wasn't fun, huh?" juan asked carefully.

"I don't want to talk about." I said. Immediately walk to the parking lot.

Along the way I chose to lock my mouth. Even though Juan tried to talk. He offered me dinner outside, but I refused because my mood was not okay.