Should We Get Married?

Introgated

It's probably been almost an hour since I locked myself in the hospital bathroom. Sitting under the flowing shower, the water soaked this whole body, even though I still felt dirty. It felt, the man's breath still felt to this day, like a nightmare that destroyed my life.

I'm dirty. No longer have a future. Everything is broken, there is no hope for me.

"Yu ... Ayus. Unlock door. You've been in the bathroom too long. Let's quickly open the door." pinta mbak Tika, while banging softly on the bathroom door.

Instead of answering, let alone opening the door, I could only close my eyes while closing both ears with my hands so that there were no more voices I heard. I don't know what demon is possessed, right now I just want to end it all. I just want to die, come with me, so I don't have to face all these trials.

Earlier, I accidentally saw a television broadcast where news of my rape case was covered by the media. Everybody's talking about it. A teacher's daughter becomes a sacrilegious victim. The girl who is preparing to continue her education in college.

Everyone knows I'm dirty. I am no longer holy. Not just my family, but everyone.

After I got out of the hospital, I didn't know if I could handle it all. I don't have the courage. What if people think that I'm an untrue woman because I can't take care of myself?

My crying broke again. It was like carrying such a heavy burden. Somehow I can face it all later.

***

Two women in brown uniforms walked into the room where I was being treated. They are police mothers who are in charge of helping me solve the problems that are happening to me at this time. The two mothers tried to make me open my mouth to tell me about the incident that happened to me.

"Do you want Ayu to know the culprit? Maybe you've seen it before? Or suspect someone? Just tell me, son. Its alright. We're all here to help son Ayu find the culprit. He will get a proper reply to what he has done" said the more senior Polwan.

My body immediately trembled as I recalled the incident last night, when he took me forcibly up to his car. Then he hit me on the neck because I kept struggling until I was unconscious.

The next morning I was delivered to the front of the house still unconscious. Ma'am Tika who found me, he then called father and mas Yuda who are still busy looking because I did not come home all night.

The father as the head of the family immediately reported this incident to the police station. In just a matter of hours, this news instantly spread with a miserable narrative. The son of a njai teacher who will continue his education in medical school became a victim of rape. Somehow his fate will come to the fore.

Everyone was talking about this case, even the nurse who was taking care of me looked at me with a look of pity after knowing the incident that happened to me. I'm pretty sure there's a lot of questions he wants to ask. But seeing me still weak helpless, so he decided to shut up while stealing news from my family.

"Tell Yu, tell me you know who did it!" I can no longer control my emotions. He spoke in a high tone, forcing me to open my mouth.

I could only shake weakly, unable to say anything but just cry. I was afraid, I felt like I wanted to run away from here as far as possible, avoiding everyone so there was no need for anyone to ask me about what happened that night.

"It's hard for Yu to say that you know who did it. Help me and the police so that everything can be resolved!" Dad kept forcing me to open my mouth.

""Already sir, let Ayu calm down first. Maybe he doesn't recognize the culprit, so Ayu is confused as to what to answer." Mrs Polwan tried to calm down.

"Well can't be Well, ayu can't be Ayu ..." I was instantly hysterical. Remembering the person alone has made me so devastated, let alone having to mention his name. Can you leave me alone, I've been too scared of everything that happened yesterday.

Two nurses came into my room. They moved quickly to inject a sedative so that I would no longer be hysterical. After that, everything turned dark.

***

"Let's Andara Nessa. That's your name, right?" a tall man with white skin looked at me sharply. He smiled, stretched out his hand, but due to long unrequited, finally the helping hand was pulled back. "His name, Ayu is also the one. Don't be afraid of me. My name is Juan Utomo, called Juan. You must have heard my name, tho?" he glanced back at me.

Yeah, I know him. It feels like all the kids who go to school here know who Juan Utomo is. He was the son of an official, his mother's father a board member, his family was rich because he had a coal business. But unfortunately, he is known as a kid who likes to make trouble. There was just the act that made the teachers stroke the chest.

Although Juan has a pretty handsome face, but not many want to be close to him because of his attitude that likes to make trouble. Just imagine, all the juvenile delinquency has been done. Even drugs, too.

It is said that he did it all because of lack of affection. As the only child in his family, Juan, my upperclassman, never had time with his parents. But whatever the reason, I don't think it's a justification to always be troublemaking.

"Well, will you not be my wife?" ask Juan. The question that made me tremble. Crazy, know also not, why suddenly he invited me to marry, let alone I was still first class High School at that time.

"Duh, sorry mas, I already have a boyfriend," I replied originally, in order to get away from him.

"Daughter? Don't lie to you. I know you're not dating. You purposely stopped me from getting away from me. Aye, right?"

"No. I'm not lying. I'm not dating, but I already have a husband."

"Huh, raps. First grade High School kids like you already have a future husband."

"But I'm not really lying, mas."

"Who? Let's say his name. You can't mention it, can you. You must have nagged."

"Who said Ayu ngarang. Ayu did not make up. My future husband Ayu." suddenly mas Bagas appeared, he was my neighbor and senior at school.

Mas Juan can not force me anymore because now there is a Bagas mas. He left angry, leaving us both laughing with Juan.

"Crazy for Juan, first-class kids are on the sidelines. Already invited to marry. He thought marriage was easy. You don't want Yu, if you want to marry me." Bagas glanced at me.

It felt like there was a force that was slowly concentrating me. At that time, you both promised to take care of each other so that we could realize our dream of becoming a doctor. A promise once so sweet.