Should We Get Married?

Move 2

Me and Cici are getting ready to leave. There was nothing we could carry because everything was destroyed. Some clothes were torn, some taken. Even the wallet I had originally kept was also taken away. Fortunately, my papers were not destroyed either.

"Nothing to bring," I complained, revealing the torn clothes. Only the clothes that are attached to the body are left, as well as the HP that I have been holding since the beginning. "Cici's got it all busted too!"

"It's okay, Yu. We'll buy it" Juan said. "What matters is that you and Cici are okay."

The three of us came out of the house, I was afraid to meet with those who went berserk at Rani's house, but fortunately Juan was able to convince her that as long as there was her InshaAllah everything would be fine. Juan is quite respected here.

When I got to the car, I could breathe. We left the slum, drove to Juan's house in South Jakarta. Along the way Cici continued to be in my arms. He doesn't want to leave one bit.

"Cici's scared?" My toot.

"Mmmm" replied Cici.

"If Cici is afraid, many prayers are the same.Allah." he was happy to talk with Cici, we only realized that we had reached Juan's house. A fairly large house, consisting of two floors with white paint combined with gold color. The house was surrounded by a wall high enough to separate it from its left and right neighbors. Unfortunately there are not many plants planted in the yard that I think is quite a brush

"We have arrived. Please come down." Juan opened the back door. We both went down, and Juan closed the door again. "Let's go in." Juan invited us in. He knocked on the door several times, then came out a middle-aged woman, she was Zelma's aunt, still a distant relative with Juan.

"You have come!" Auntie Zelma knew we were coming. He even prepared food for us.

"Let's eat first." Aunt Zelma was so friendly. I who knew him stone already feel comfortable. He is like his own brother. "Eat a lot of Yu, auntie see you're so skinny" said aunt Zelma.

"Father has always been skinny, bi. Eat a little too. Eating noodles in the cafeteria, he's only half gone." Said Juan.

I'm speechless. Stop bribing food into the mouth after listening to Juan just now. How did he know I had trouble eating? Also the noodles that never run out. Is it true that Arum said that all this time he had been very attentive to me. Does he really love me? Is that how big his love is?

Suddenly my cheeks were hot remembering the words Arum had said when he persuaded me to make up with Juan. For some reason, the hatred that used to be so great has now disappeared without a trace. Even when I search all parts of the heart. That hate changed with feelings I couldn't translate.

"Why this? Is this just that kind of hate? Am I so cheap? Even now I feel so much love for the child in my womb, which I hated so much." I got the wrong way when Juan took a piece of chicken heart for me.

"It's your favorite, so eat a lot." Said Juan. "Bi, if you can every day there must be a chicken liver. Simply fried without sambel, Ayu already likes it" said Juan again.

How does he know about that too? I still can't speak. Just getting groggy. I'm confused about myself.

***

Cici and I live in Juan's house. You were accompanied by Aunt Zelma. While Juan he'll be renting kosan for a while.

Because our clothes were not there, so, after eating he took us to the nearest mall to buy clothes and other needs. Me and Cici could only quietly pay attention to such a large mall. This is my first time to the mall, as well as Cici who despite being born living in Jakarta, but her mother never took her to Sinj. We do not know which clothes to choose, even though it has entered several outlets.

"That's enough" I said. When our hands already contain grocery bags on the left and right. This is more than enough. I'm afraid to trouble Juan again, he must also spend a lot of money to spend you.

Juan's footsteps stopped in front of the baby's gear. We both looked at each other. Suddenly he said to me. "You want to buy one for the baby?" Ask. "Funny you know." he showed a pink baby nightgown.

"Not first. It is still a long time from birth. I haven't checked, either, so I don't know if the baby's a boy or a girl." I said.

"Would you go to the doctor?" Juan again cautiously offered. "But if you don't want to, that's okay. Just to make sure that the baby's okay."

"No courage to myself" I said

"I'm with. How's it?"

"All right."

"Okay, tomorrow morning. I'll find the best doctor's information." Said Juan.

The three of us went back to Juan's house. When he arrived, he went to Kosan. We stayed at Juan's house.

***

As Juan promised, this morning he and I went to the hospital. Juan has made an appointment with the obstetrician. He chose the best.

"Mr Ayu and Juan? It's the first pregnancy? ..." The nurse started asking some questions that I thought were quite private. I wasn't too comfortable answering because there was Juan beside me. The body language is already visible, but Juan seems to be indifferent. He persisted even asked like a nurse. "Don't be shy, ma'am. Same with my own husband." The nurse again

"Hukk's." I immediately coughed, while Juan only smiled faintly. Actually it is natural that the nurse said that because indeed who came here are mostly married couples. It's just that I'm not feeling good because we're not a couple. After filling in the data about my pregnancy, we were both asked to wait with another patient. "Sorry," I said.

"Why?"

"Because the nurse said we were husband and wife.

"Oh,"

Just oh? I was furious at Juan's reaction just now. Doesn't he feel awkward like me? Or feel wrong. Why does he look relaxed like it's all normal stuff. Ahhh, did I expect too much from him.

I hurriedly rearranged my heart, reminding myself not to expect much. Juan must be tired of expecting me anyway.