Should We Get Married?

Juan Or Mas Bagas?

Now Rani and I are sitting face to face. Juan has been gone since, of course, after he left me at Rani's feet. While Cici was cool with his toy that was brought Juan with food.

"Hmm, now I understand everything" said Rani, taking a breath, after listening to my story. "Before I tell you anything else, you may wonder why Juan knows us. But you believe not, Yu. What happens in this world in God's scenario. Including your meeting and mine. From the beginning I knew Juan, this sinful me always prayed that one day I might repay his kindness, even if it was just a small favor." he fixed his seat. "Juan is like an angel in my life and Cici, also in the lives of the people who are here. I knew Juan by accident as I was about to finish my life. He helped me, gave me motivation to survive and improve my life. Juan also promised, even though the life we are going through is hard, he will try to help us, whatever the way, especially helping Cici.

My daughter is different from the other kids. Cici must feel the impact of the sins I made. He contracted HIV while in the womb.

Knowing that, my world feels like it's about to end, Yu. I have no hope anymore because Cici is my single biggest dream in life, but unfortunately he has to be exposed to the sap of his father and mother.

But Juan gave a new life spirit. In addition to giving us money and food, he also helped me and Cici get medicine to survive. I dare not admit to the world the pain I feel. That's why Juan put on a body. He's really good.

Then it's related to you. Actually, a few months ago he told me he was going back to his hometown. He wanted to meet the woman he loved safely. Juan wanted to express his heart. But the problems in his family again made Juan slump until he was drunk and all that happened.

I know you must hate Juan because that's what he told me, but I'm also pretty sure Juan regrets everything. He wants to do whatever it takes for you to forgive him, Yu."

"That's it, brother," I cut off Rani's talk. Like he said, I wouldn't care what Juan said. It was obvious that he ruined my life. That's the reality now. Even if he is in a lot of trouble, do I deserve to be used as a samsak to dampen his turmoil? "We don't have to talk about this." I'm talking to you.

"Aren't you pregnant with Juan's son? Then why did you even marry that man? Think about how your son will be, too,"

"Because he's the one who's gonna help me. He will guard my honor, brother. It's not easy for me, but Bagas helped me deal with that shame."

"But he married you for money, right?"

I smiled cynically. "Then what do you and your friends expect of me? I want to marry deyJuan? Married to the man who ruined my life? Spending the rest of my life with people who have inflicted deep wounds?"

"Yu .. but getting married to that man is also not a good solution. You're just covering things up with new problems."

The cynical smile on that face faded away. Yeah, well, there's no best choice I can make. Everything is like the fruit of today.

"And .. lamenting fate is also not a wise decision. I know, I don't have the right to say much because this is your life. You feel that pain, but may I ask you a little, give Juan a chance once, I am sure he will not disappoint you." added Rani.

I shook my head quickly. No, there will never be a chance for a pem----doer. He is a criminal. I will suffer even more if I live with him.

This morning, Bagas came back to Rani's hut. He wanted to take me home, of course, with threats if I didn't want to then he would complain to me. It was as if he knew my death card. How could I possibly go back to making trouble, adding to the burden of my father's mind.

"Can't you just leave me alone here? Let me live the life I chose." My love, though, was clear because I was afraid of the threat.

"No Yu, you should come home with me. We are husband and wife status after all. I won't let you here because ...."

"Because I was afraid Juan's parents knew that I had left the mas and they would take back what they had given, mas. Aye, right?"

Mas Bagas was a bit surprised because I already knew everything. Juan said that. "Oh, so you already know everything. Yeah, well, Yu." he smiled cynically. "You are now friends with him. What else do you know, huh?" now his eyes are looking at me sharply. It was obvious he was so angry. I feel like I'm going to be swallowed alive.

"I don't want to argue about anything that doesn't matter,"

"It doesn't matter what you say? Ayu Andara Nesa, I have defended my future by marrying you that Juan has used, so don't mess with me because I could have done something hard to you. So before that happens, now come with me!"

Just as Mas Bagas was about to pull my hand, someone had already appeared between the two of us, who else if not Juan. Like a hero of misfortune, he returned to expel and even threatened Bagas to no longer meet me.

"Your business with my parents, let me finish, now go Bagas. You don't have to be afraid because you won't lose anything. I guarantee it!" Juan insists.

"It's not just rupiah, Juan. But also self-worth. You think I'll just give up? No. gabe. After all, didn't Ayu also not want you by her side. Then why do you stay here? Go and don't bother him either. Or I could just report you to your parents. If you want to be destroyed, let it be destroyed!" Mas Bagas smiled as if triumphant.

"Who said I don't want Juan here. I'm the one who asked for it here, not the mas" I said.

Mas Bagas. Juan just looked at me for a moment.

"Listen? Now please unplug it or I call the citizens to expel you!" Firm Juan.

"You don't just talk, Yu. Think carefully about what you have chosen. You won't be happy because he's the man who ruined your future!" Said bagas.

"Love can come at any time. So go because now I choose Juan!" I reaffirmed.