Should We Get Married?

Time to split up

News about me having a miscarriage turned out to be heard to the ears of Bagas. This morning, as I was preparing to return home from the hospital he came and to my annoyance he came with Linda. A college friend who once told me himself that he had feelings for Bagas.

"We're going home now, Yu." Said bagas.

"No. I don't want to go back to my place, Mom!" i'm affirming. Hope Juan who is taking care of the administration soon comes to expel this man. Anyway I don't want to continue this fake marriage. He no longer loved me as he once did, but married because of the money Juan's parents gave him.

"Where are you going? Don't tell Juan's house. You're how the hell, Yu, you said you hated her, but why even ask her for protection? Really have no stand. Or maybe all the stories you said before were lies? You actually like what he does, don't you?"

"Astagfirullah, what the hell is that? It's so bad the way he thinks!"

"If not, then why are you with him now? You are truly shameless, already like a cheap woman. Everywhere with him, even with him. You were angry when I received money from her parents, but you were with her son instead. Then what's that called? How strange!"

"It's not a business. I obviously don't want to be with you anymore. Soon I'll sue you in court so we can get divorced."

"Your ngaco!"

I'm really furious. Both of you are emotionally ignited to get into a fight. Linda tried to run, but it didn't work.

"What's this?" Juan showed up at the right time. "Why are you here?" Juan immediately told Bagas to leave, but this time Bagas did not want to obey, he instead challenged Juan back.

"Don't interfere in my and Ayu's business. Do you know who is behind me? Your parents Juan. If they know you and Ayu are together, you know what they're gonna do to you two. So now it's better to stay out of Juan. Don't block me anymore. Let me take Ayu away." Said bagas.

Juan still didn't. He ignored the words of Bagas. He casually took me away. Even he did not care even when Bagas also contacted his parents.

"Is it okay?" I'm a little scared of Bagas' threats because I know how Juan's parents are.

"Calm down, it'll be okay." Said Juan. He opened the car door, told me to come in. We both went back to Juan's house.

***

It turns out that everything is not okay. Bagas apparently did not want to give up just like that. He reported Juan and I to the police station on charges of adultery. I was really scared when four cops raided the house. Juan had already returned to his boarding house and luckily Aunt Zelma moved quickly to call Juan. He followed me to the police station. It didn't take long, Juan managed to get me out of the police station somehow, which I could breathe a sigh of relief after we got out of the police station.

Even so, I could not breathe because Mas Bagas had threatened to complain to my family if I still did not want to part with Juan. A threat that scared me enough.

I can't imagine how Dad, Yuda and Tika responded. They will be very angry and disappointed in me. Or will just suspect me like Bagas.

I also actually do not understand why now so great hatred for Juan lost and changed with comfort. I don't even want to be away from him. Different from me a while ago.

"Now you calm down, Yu. This is not gonna happen again. I've sent a lawyer to take care of your divorce papers and Bagas. After that he can no longer interfere in your affairs" Juan said. "Now we go home. You must be tired, you must rest a lot so that you can recover." Said Juan.

"Juan," I stopped.

"Yes. Why Yu?"

"I don't want to go home yet. Can we go for a walk." I asked.

"Aren't you tired? You just got out of Sakur's house, Yu. All of a sudden it had to be taken to the police station" Juan said. "Let's say, you rest first, tomorrow when you recover, I promise to take you for a walk wherever you want."

"No Juan, I want it now. Can you?"

"All right."

Juan and I got in the car. We walked down the streets of Jakarta. Passing through the traffic jam of the capital in the afternoon. We got out of the car, just sitting in the park.

"For what?" ask Juan.

"Because you've made such wonderful memories for me."

"Yu" Juan was silent for a moment. "I'm sorry, it hurt you. Sorry."

"I've forgiven him."

"Will you stay by my side forever?"

"Master,"

"Mmmm?"

"Please promise me you won't make the same mistake a second time."

"Yes. I promise."

"Please promise to be a good person so that later when you meet the woman you love, you don't have to part with her."

"Yes?"

"Juan .. I used to hate you so much,"

"Sorry,"

"Is it wrong if I love you?"

"Come on, let's get married."

"Master,"

"Yes. I will make you happy. I promise. I will make amends for my mistakes. Come be my wife!".

"Too hard,"

"I will fight. Give me a chance, Yu."

I'm silent. Juan looked at me expectantly. The look I couldn't answer was like the one I couldn't even give even though I was eager to move on with it. There are many obstacles that I feel will not be able to break through.

Dad, Yuda and Tika. The three of them won't allow me to marry Juan. My father's extended family is already divided over this issue. My friends and neighbors know it all. They'll look weird at me. Not to mention the Juan Family who will definitely not stay silent. They have already paid Bagas, even involving the authorities to hinder us together. We can't, we can't get married even though this feeling of love is so great!

"Juan, let's continue this journey." I said.

"Yu," Juan tried to hold back, he wanted me to answer his question.

"Let's go!" I walked first, ignoring his call. Twice I threw a smile until he finally followed my steps.

Juan, even though we love each other now, the barrier is too high. I can't hurt people who love me and have fought for me, I can't be selfish and I'm sure this is what's best for you, for us. Juan, even if we can't be together, but I'll still love you!