Should We Get Married?

This is my choice

Several times I tried to speak honestly to my father, Yuda and Tika. But my efforts have not been successful because my courage is always shrinking every will tell the truth. Moreover, Bagas had come back home and offered to refer, he admitted regretting not being able to maintain at that time and wanted to rebuild the household with me.

My family who do not know what has happened between us, of course, welcomes the application of Bagas mas. It was a disappointment for my father when I rejected him.

"Son, you better consider it. It is not dear to refuse the application of Bagas. You guys knew each other before. You guys have also been in a marriage. I understand why you separated, because it happened so quickly and you were so young. Bagas is still in college, while you just graduated High School. Now you are both successful. You're a doctor, he's a lawyer. Bagas' parents have also approved of it. What else caused you to reject it? Then, forget it. Start a new, better sheet. Yes." ask dad.

If it were that easy. But I can't say everything, I can't bear to make you disappointed when your expectations are so great on Bagas.

"Who are you with, Yu? I'm worried that I don't have a long life, while you haven't remarried, but you're far from family" he said.

"Actually someone proposed to Ayu, well," I said, in a soft voice.

"really? Wh who? Why not tell me from the beginning? Try saying it or get the guy here. I want to meet you, I want to talk to you."

"But ...."

"Already, don't wear but-but, get him here now." Dad didn't give me a chance to talk, he forced me to tell the young man I meant to meet him. I was confused to respond, so I just obeyed, sending a message to Juan teaching he immediately came here while praying there was no excitement.

***

"What the fuck?" dad's face was red, his voice heavy.

It seems that dad is holding back anger. Sitting with a cynical look at Juan who was not allowed to sit, so he was forced to stand by the door. While Judah was not sure how many times he wanted to attack Juan, apparently my brother was still very angry with Juan, so he wanted to vent his emotions. But luckily there was Yuni and her husband, Tika, who tried to hold back until Judah could not touch Juan.

"What the hell is this, Ayu Andara Nesa? Why are you silent, answer father's question. Why did you bring that man into our house?" Snapped dad in a high tone. Which father was not angry when his beloved daughter chose the man who had ruined her life, even though her father had tried to get justice by suing the man, his father had also tried to defend desperately, but this was his reply. The man who had never been angry before at his youngest daughter, this time was inflamed.

"Sorry Ayu, yeah. But Juan is there a man Ayu chooses." I replied.

"Mas, earlier apologize, allow me ...." Not done Juan talk, mas Yuda has cut.

"Who let you talk? Who wants to listen to you? Listen, you crook, you're not wanted in this house. You're off limits here anyway, so what's it for?" yuda's emotions were still high, as if he was about to swallow Juan raw.

I'm so sorry I made Juan come here. He looked uncomfortable, but still tried to survive despite being sent off several times. Even Juan did not flinch as a punch from the Yuda mas floated on his handsome face. I could only scream hysterically, while the others did not care.

"Dad ... mas Yuda, please listen, Ayu loves Juan. So please accept Ayu's decision please. If you do not like and angry, please vent to Ayu only. Ayu is ready to accept it, but don't hurt Juan. It's not at all ...." Plaque a slap floated on my cheek. The slap that not only surprised me, but everyone here. Ma'am Tika, it was the culprit. His hand has landed on my cheek. It was not too hard, but managed to make my tears flow rapidly because this was the first time he did it.

Tika has always been good to me. He is never rude, let alone play a hand, scold him he can not afford. He always loved me, as did my father and my father. But now that everything's turned upside down, all as if to judge me, they're against me for a decision that's considered wrong.

Actually I can understand why they are so, it's because of such great affection. No father and brother would give up their daughter along with the perpetrator of the pem--, let alone he ever almost wanted to end his life because he was so desperate.

I can't deny my own feelings either. This God who has turned his heart upside down, sets the feeling that used to be filled with hatred turns into love.

Then what should I do?

I could only look down, endure the pain, not because of the blow because Tika did not do it too hard, but because I realized that it had made a deeper wound in their hearts.

"So, say once again Ayu Andara Nesa, are you really into that dog-man?" tanya Mbak Tika, with a trembling voice.

"Yes, Ayu loves him. Ayu chose it without anyone's coercion" I replied.

Plak, once again mbak Tika landed his slap, he was so angry, even so his emotions he shed tears. "How much do you do, Yu. You are all seeking justice for you. I have to accept the insults of the people just to defend you. Dad and Yuda are too. But here's your reply. I really didn't think you'd changed, completely changed, you weren't my sweet little sister anymore. But you are just a shameless woman, who has no honor at all so choose to live with such a man. Was there no other man until you dropped your choice on him? Why is that Ayu, why?" tika's voice shook, she was so emotional. I can only listen while crying.