Should We Get Married?

Darinya Letter

After breakfast, I locked myself in my room. Actually, he wanted to clean the house, but it was forbidden by Bagas. He doesn't want me to be exhausted, especially now that there is bi Supi. Although our new charisma is old enough, but he is no less agile.

In his fifties Bi Supi is still strong working, even he is also nimble beberes, completing from one job to another. Confused about what to do, I decided to go back to my room.

Just taking a break, I remembered the two envelopes I got. First envelope from dad. When I opened, it turned out to be money that was somehow in number. There was a little writing from my father that I would use the money to help with our daily needs. I don't want to put too much on Bagas. He also promised to send every month for the control of my pregnancy and also the cost of labor later.

Although Bagas said he would be responsible, but still my family did not let go of his hands. However, he is not the father of this child, he is the one who helped me. We are indebted to him, do not let the good of people even be used to become a selfless human being.

Actually I feel very guilty for my family and Bagas. I've troubled them.

After opening the envelope from my father, my hand now holds the envelope given by Arum. Tumben-tumbenan he sent me a letter. Though he had my phone number, which was given by mbak Yuni.

Although he was upset with Arum, but now the feeling has improved. Arum is my brother, he's the only female cousin I have. I'm the same age as Arum, only a few months apart, so we're pretty familiar. He although sometimes annoying with his slippery attitude, but Arum is actually good, the proof he yesterday helped me meet with mas Tio.

My smile grew as I remembered the memories of our childhood. Little Arum was often scolded by his mother for playing with me. His mother does not like my family, so it is not surprising that Mr. De also participated in doing as he pleased with his father. While I was often reminded of Eyang for never calling Arum by mbak, I preferred to call him because since kindergarten we had one school.

The smile suddenly faded as it read the handwriting on the letter.

To Ayu Andara Nessa

Earlier I apologized for sending you a letter, but I did it because I no longer know how to contact you.

Ayu, I know, for sure until now you still hate me and I accept all your hatred because I deserve it. I am a bad man, I have ruined your future even though I had no intention of doing it.

I didn't finish the letter, I crumpled the paper and threw it in the trash. My face immediately flushed with anger. It turned out that Juan still dared to send me a letter, even though he had promised to disappear forever from my life, but the promise was not fulfilled.

At Arum too I was upset. The boy was not really stale either. Although it has been tried all-out, even said Tika, he was also scolded all-out, but it was still related to Juan. I don't know what Arum got until he was willing to be the man's intermediary.

[Your work, Rum!] I sent a message to Arum

My pondel rang immediately, Arum called, but I didn't pick up.

[What do you want? Why give Juan a letter? You know I'm married? I'm trying to make up my ruined life, Rum. Why are you giving way to that criminal? Do you remember we were brothers? But you're on his side.]

[No. Never will be. I've torn the letter and dumped it in the trash. You think I have time to read the writings of a man as evil as him? You're wrong, Rum. I've stepped forward now, I'll never remember it again. Soon I will rise from my sufferings that Juan has made.]

[Please read it first, Yu. You will understand later.]

[No need!]

[Yu, he was wrong, but don't you feel any mercy? Her life's fucked up, Yu.]

I turned it off. Then I lay on the bed with a heart full of anger. Unfortunately, Juan's shadow appeared in my view.

He it .... Why should I?

Aghhh, I hit the pillow hard to spill my emotions. It hurts too much. Why is there someone as bad as him. It forced me to forgive. He should have realized that he had caused such a huge trauma in my life. Never mind to meet him, just remembering it has made me ride the apoplexy.

***

Two days living in Jakarta, I was really bored at home. Mas Bagas always leaves early in the morning, he is very busy with the business of the campus. He said he had to study hard to graduate soon. Actually there is a faithful Supi bi accompanying me at home, but still I really want to have more time with Bagas. Although we already know each other and even in silence have a marriage agreement after succeeding later, but still it feels like now I do not know the man. It is different from the Bagas I used to know.

Bagas who is now always busy, never had time to talk. He was always cold at the dinner table. Though at that moment I hope there are many stories that we describe so that our closeness is more intertwined. But I can only think positively, maybe Bagas is so because he is busy with his school affairs.

He can't leave because he already has me to pay for. This household certainly needs money that is not small every month, not to mention college Bagas. If you remember that, I need to be more patient. All because of me and I shouldn't have demanded much.

Just about to lie down, suddenly my room door was knocked bi Supi, he said there were guests who came to drive the car.

"Whose car, Bi?" I frowned. We both walked to the yard, sure enough, there was a big car that dropped off a new car that I knew what it was because I didn't memorize it too much. "Whose is this, sir?" I asked with the ground on one of the guys who drove.

"Order sir That, Mom." The answer.

I immediately gawked. Can't believe it's Bagas' mas. And what makes me look again when I see his payment papers stating that this car is paid off.

It's kidding, right? Money from where? I know what Bagas is like,".