Should We Get Married?

Married

Although angry and not accept, but my father still married me to Juan. There are no big parties or just a celebration. Only the marriage contract witnessed by the ruler and two witnesses. Even my two siblings were reluctant to witness this marriage. They choose to hide in their own rooms. Maybe because I was too disappointed.

"Suppose this is dad's last responsibility. After this, you are no longer the responsibility of father. In accordance with what you choose, even though we have fought desperately for you. But it turns out that men win." Said the father with a trembling voice restraining the anger.

I can only look down while crying.

"All right, Juan Prawira. I marry and marry you to my biological daughter Ayu Andara Nesa with a dowry of fifty million rupiah in cash along with a set of salat tools paid in cash" said the father.

"I accept the marriage and marriage of Ayu Andara Nesa with the dowry mentioned above. Cash!" juan replied in a loud voice.

Legitimate. Legitimate. Two witnesses declared it legitimate. We have both been lawfully husband and wife in the eyes of religion and law. My tears did not stop flowing. I should be happy because I can finally marry the man I love. Married directly by my real father. But it is more sad that I have lost my father and two brothers; mas Yuda and mbak Tika.

"According to our agreement. Now go!" Father said, without giving me a chance to feel the happiness I had long been waiting for.

"Well," I cried, trying to hold my father's leg to get his forgiveness, but avoided. "I'm sorry Ayu, dad. Forgive Ayu. Please give Ayu a chance."

"There's no chance anymore. You're not my daughter anymore. I refuse to accept the man who has embarrassed this family with his selfish decision." Said father.

"Well, Ayu just ...." I stammered. "Dear dear father."

"Go! you, not before promised to take good care of her. Now keep your promise!" father said to Juan.

Juan stood up, he took me in his arms, I repeatedly shook my head to tell him that I did not want to lose my father and brother. But this is a mutual agreement. I will be married but after that I can no longer set foot in this house. I'm considered dead, no longer part of this family.

"Why, why is that? Dad, why did you have to go to Ayu? Is not usually when the child makes a mistake, parents can apologize as much and as heavy as any harm. And is falling in love wrong? Juan was right to have made a mistake, but he has repented well, he has changed greatly. We just want to correct a mistake in the past with something good and allowed by God. We married because we did not want to commit sins. Why can't you, dad? Why should I be kicked out of my family?* i who can't hold back my emotions finally let go as well. I cried while protesting to my father.

"You want to protest? Not only you have feelings, Yu, but also your father, mas and mother. What have we been fighting all this time? We've already destroyed Yu. Even I got so down that guilt can't keep you from this criminal. Unfortunately all our struggles you consider the past wind. You don't appreciate it. I don't know why you chose him. Now that you all want me to do it, you still want to protest. Still suing me? It's the same with him. selfish." said dad.

"Go away, get out of here before my patience runs out. Or do you want to see me die withholding pain in my heart?" threaten dad.

"Oh my God!" I was crying, trying to hold back.

"Dad!" i'm squealing.

"Let's go." take Juan.

"No Juan, no. I don't want to lose my father, Yuda and Tika. I still want to be here. I'm a father's son, I'm their sister." I said.

Juan shook his head. It dawned on me that I had now been driven out of this house. Things are not the same as before. Of course, I understand that fact but I still insist on getting leniency. I don't want to lose everything.

"Yu, what Juan said is true. Go awayl. What else do you expect here, you're no longer welcome." Arum, who had been waiting at the door of the house, pulled my hand to leave. He helped Juan get me into the car. My world is completely destroyed right now.

I'm really sad. With the day it hurt me and Juan left that house. The house where I grew up, became a darling, but was now driven out of my own choice. My hope that their hearts would melt was not fulfilled, until the car I was riding with Juan missed leaving the house, no one came out just to hold my step. It feels really broken.

"This is a choice I chose myself. Dad, Yuda and Tika are not wrong. They deserve to feel disappointment." I said, tearfully staring at the street through the car window.

"We're going to my house." Said Juan. "You're ready, right?"

I didn't say a word. Just silently looking out the window. I know, after this there will also be an unpleasant moment. The shadow will not be accepted was already reflected in my mind. But my heart was not as troubled as being cast out by my own family.

"I'm sorry baby, I shouldn't have sinned so you won't have to suffer the consequences either. My sins are getting more and more, somehow to make up for it. I hope, after this I can make you happy" said Juan.

"Would we just end this marriage?" I asked, without looking at it.

"What are you talking about?" Juan stopped his car. He was very surprised by what I said. "Yu, we have fought so far until God finally stopped us. After everything has gone according to God's rules, why would you give up? I know you're tired, but let's go together. Now there is a me who will always be there for you. So please be patient." said Juan, clasping my hand tightly.

"Either Juan, I feel hopeless, I ..." The tears that had dried up flowed again.

"Calm down baby, I know you're sad and disappointed at the loss of your family. But believe me, you will never lose them because after all the blood relationship can never be broken. They just need time to accept our decision. So let all be calm together as we continue to try and pray." Said Juan.