PREDESTINATION

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Siti and I went out to find solace so that the allure in this heart was reduced.. Well as usual I'm always waiting for news from Dika for now.. This heart cannot be separated from thinking about itself. But there's no word from him. I felt really lonely that night. I let out a heavy sigh to dispel the feeling of a troubled heart at this moment.

I choose to draw near to the creator so that this heart can be at ease.

"O Allah, forgive me all my mistakes. Forgive me for being negligent towards you. Now I feel pain and disappointment in my heart. Where, I was again disappointed by a man I loved. Until this moment he had no news at all" My mind prayed after the prayer in the middle of the night.

"If it's true that he's not destined for me, then be sincere to let go of him. But if he's destined for me? Give him back to me, O God" I said again.

***

Almost a month Dika had no news of him to me. At the end of the day, I heard that she was going to marry her boyfriend. Well the news I got from her lover's facebook who spread wedding invitations from social media.

Degs....

This heart feels sad. Very sad because I was back in the marriage residence with my lover.

Not feeling some clear water now flowing on my cheek saw the invitation vidio I turned to make sure it was Dika or not.

"There I am here, I will accept you for who you are" Rebutt memory and beautiful words that were once thrown for me now re-spin in my mind. I didn't expect that fast he left without giving any news at all. Her cell phone number has even been changed so I can't call her back. I don't know why he's like that either. Maybe he really wants to focus on his lover who has been in a relationship with him for many years.

"Oh my God, back pain in this heart I feel. However, this feeling has ever existed for him. And all this time I've been waiting for her to come back to me. But, it turns out he will even marry his lover" I said in my heart continue to shed tears.

Right now I am getting a good job. But my love story is not as good as my current job. However, I have to be willing to marry her lover. In the story they have long been intertwined and Dika has never done that with her lover. And I can't possibly make her lover what I feel right now.

"Oh Allah willingly open your heart to accept your destiny. I am strong, O God" My prayer again in my heart.

Well that's the destiny of my life where always hurt by the people I love. Now I am determined to continue to draw closer to the creator and do not want to expect too much to a servant. For now I have realized that expecting a servant will always make us hurt and always disappointed. Now I can only wait patiently for a servant sent by God for me later. I know there must be a rainbow after a rainstorm. It's just that we have to be patient to see that beautiful rainbow.