PREDESTINATION

Ibu

            I want to be an orange light on the western horizon looking for something

dim the problems that affect my brain,

I'm not that mature yet to understand people's minds

mature.

        That afternoon, as usual, I went home and no one greeted me because

since the accident my status became the only child of the father Arwan couple

yutiar and Wisma Aurata. They are busy with their work

my father was an office that produced materials and my mother was a teacher

SD as well as general private teachers of English so obviously they will go home

it's 8 to 10. I have a maid but only in the morning because I don't

a lot will be taken care of especially I've been 17 years, which is taken care of only

washing clothes, ironing, cooking and sweeping after that he went home. My people

assuming I'm an adult can face my days like this until

right now when I'm honest I'm so scared and so devastated by the loss

he's the one I've been looking at as my guardian angel but I know this isn't

it is my power but the will of the creator. With a gloomy face I ran into

the dining table aims to eat, the quiet atmosphere I sit alone while

eating the food I have taken. I see empty and spacious spaces, this

nothing moves from day to day and from morning to meet

again in the morning, the clock was 7:30 but I felt like it was 10

night, I keep wanting tomorrow to come that's better than place

empty this. After eating I went straight to the room and went straight to the table

studying for a moment I turned my bag over to check if there was any homework

all I have to do is finish but end of it even digerjajai writing notes

novel design. But boredom approached me, so I decided

to sleep, I'm sure they even though they're home must be busy each

then after that sleep without knowing the state of this child, how after in

home ? maybe if I'm missing they're not looking and definitely new

realize tomorrow morning ahhhh already do not expect to be a spoiled princess nom though

I'm here the only child now but I can't change the atmosphere of that house

now deserted to be full to harmonics.

          Mother where mbok, kok invisible (leading to

mbok Susi who is cooking) belom home den, aden hungry? Need to prepare

eat because said mother eat ajah first because the mother is still long, there is a problem in

the central office of taxation, oh yes den said Warno aden had gone not know where

pas Om Warto pick up aden. Oh that's mbok,,,, I was trying to walk in

the same school around here, this place still feels a bit foreign so it is necessary

adaptation, yes mbok to the room first I am also not hungry so mbok ajah who

eat (go go to the room) I really appreciate mbok Susi already me

think of my own grandmother because she took care of me in Jakarta before I acted

to America and I decided to stay here because I live with

Susi who lives alone here and has no family. In my room

checking my bag and for a moment I was pensive with the photo displayed in front

in front of me and this makes me sad and scared, to be honest I'm very, very

misses him. Yes, when I was in Jakarta I had two friends but

I was closest to Dika Oktara the three of us got into one

extracurricular olaraga is basketball because of that we are quite popular but that is

all that ruined our friendship and made me have to move on and

trying to forget about High School with them. Emmmh uhhhh I better sleep.

        Ahhhh.Panca and Nom wake up simultaneously)

yes, yes.mmhhh.Dreams that feel real but don't make sense are impossible.

I ran without knowing in front of me the abyss, after which I died that way (see

the wall clock that shows at 6:45) can be over the clock

well I take a shower and get ready (in Nom's place) it's a dream come true.

that's a crazy kid. Ahhhh.

crazier already this hour is enough to take a shower and get ready geez, late

later I (30 minutes later) had no time, I was ready to dance

and will not have time for breakfast (dek did not eat first exclaimed mbg Yani the maid

only there in the morning) have not been able to mbg first yes, put a key in

the usual place I go is mbg. Fortunately, the gate has not been closed

it will be complicated to face the teacher and be given a job, maybe this time

luck is on me. (walking into class) that's an arrogant kid but

in my dream it doesn't seem arrogant but fragile,,,,, ahhhh enough Nom,,,, that

it's just a dream if the person says it's just a sleeping flower so don't

related to his story ahhh even kebawakan my imagination (thinking)

understand the thinking of prospective fiction writers (ngoceh himself).In my class

keep looking at him, I don't know but my eyes are seized by him

it was as if the dream was true. Freda .....Freda (loud noise) yes ma'am there

what ? you from earlier did not notice me even daydreaming, pay attention

otherwise I tell you to come out, you understand ? yes, my mother replied. Rest

that's me leaving class with my best friend Ani with a dull face without

smile just walk slowly, Nom don't be sad anymore usually in anger

teacher (holding my shoulder and encouraging me with that smile) okay Ani, yes we have to go yok (in the classroom corridor to the cafeteria) Panca go where the stairs go to the roof of the building

anyhow? I have to follow him (in mind) Ani I have something that I

forgot to bring it, you go to the cafeteria first and then I follow it if I am too long to go

eat first okay, I go first yes. Okay I canteen first (

continue on to the canteen ). I followed Panca there too

I don't see a single person who's killed himself like I was in my dreams

to make sure I checked the basement from the top of this building and

the result is nil, maybe I saw wrong yes I've better come back

when I turned towards the stairs to come down suddenly he appeared making me very

startled like seeing a ghost . ,,, ahhhhh,, my goodness you can suddenly appear anyway (face expression

shocked ). Hahaha.kok even you who should have asked.

that question is why you have always been watching me so early this morning

I feel like I'm in the same diamond as a stalker (wither slowly

telling me ) why silent, can not answer when if I remember just yesterday I

knowing the same to meet you is impossible in a day you immediately get revenge

to me (i was pressed against the wall of the stairs and in front of me his face was like that

it's as horrible as a ghost and I can only be silent stabilizing

slowly approaching with me I was surprised until I closed my eyes

very afraid that he will do something immoral in this school (whispering to the ear) you like me yes (away from me with a thin smile and then stretching down stairs )

what strange feeling is this ? why does it feel like I'm embarrassed, ihhhh basic arrogant guy I really do not accept, well how do I want to put my face name when I meet him later on

classs.

    Strange girl (smiling when going down stairs) expression as if I am

the zombie that was ready to prey on him, his fault from this morning was watching me

with a strange look I worked on him, I'm sure someone hooked him

but because he was not close yet he did not dare to ask her directly, but

what just happened to me I smiled freely without

pretend, and what a sense of calm is this I'm getting like when I

winning a basketball tournament with Dika and Ando but after that it was a long time I did not feel that, interesting once I wait for what other prizes I will get after meeting with

you're Freda.I see he's looking away but I don't know that

being angry and upset with me or even embarrassed. After school hours

I do not intend to go home directly because it is also free at home must be just mbok

Susi whose age is old enough where keep me talking let alone

school problems, my footsteps towards the basketball court and before the direction to

the basketball court I passed through, without me knowing I was curious about girls

that, I saw her dancing looking beautiful and very enchanting gosh what I was thinking (

bobble). Disappointment came at me because when I got to the basketball court

it turns out it's been used for training, which makes me interested there is a guy who

in love with the girl actually she was on duty as what the hell? If it is

he's in a match why doesn't he go to the field ? (in my mind )

excuse me ! the guy who was there (guided) whether he was also a member

basketball ? (inquire with a spectator sitting next to me ). “ you

don't know who he is? (smiling to be friendly tama) she's the committee of

the organization OSIS so he will oversee all activities to prepare

the race, so he meant an important role to look at the training schedule

and registration as well as funds that will be submitted to the school for the benefit of

the race and if it wins 30% it will be included in the OSIS organizational cash. He's very

what else is famous in the women but not because of his work but because

he is also kind, friendly and royal, you must be a new kid, you know, I am too

reply (call). Time seemed to quickly pass the clouds in the sky began to dim

and signify I have to go back to that house. On the way I saw

Freda is in front of me this is no coincidence because our road route is in the same direction

so no wonder I met him when I walked home but he turned

towards the hill opposite to us came home out of curiosity

I followed him after I got to the top of that little hill I saw

beautiful scenery and make me momentarily fascinated and cool. But I feel

it was strange and true that he was staring strangely at me and he started

raving about the things that make me turn my brain to look for answers to results

questions I can already guess. “ you !!!! (surface wonder) why you exist

here, you follow me ?” I replied, no !! what good am I

following you now I just want to see the sunset near here

but it is clearly visible (pointing the sun that is starting to set ).

            After I finished training, hurry up and take my seven steps

because I'd love to see the sunset where I used to be

visit if I want to and am sad, some time paddling

my bike finally reached near the hill but to reach the top

I have to step up “ Finally arrived and not too late because

the sun does not set yet feels cool and peaceful the wind continues to hit me

but I heard a voice, strangely behind me there was already a figure that made me

confused “ you !!!! why are you here, you following me ? but my guess

it's wrong that he wants to see the sunset because that's why I'm quiet, I

sitting on a large rock that is shaped like a long chair. Panca !

don't want to sit, instead it's more comfortable if you enjoy the sunset

while sitting (sitting on stone) he came closer and sat beside me but still

there was a distance left from where I sat and where I was when I saw the colors

the orange that radiates overshadows the wishful thinking and the color that makes me

the calm slowly faded, I also remembered the conversation I had accidentally had

listen from the school office debating about an international debut

ballerina race “ Mother Soldier ! are you really going to make disciples

ballerina race! I also heard that there are talented students from Indonesia

who died during the International race in America, even though it was not

students from our school at least that's a lesson for our school but

why Mother makes students race this Baletrina.Sorry sir my principal as

the teacher wants my students to excel and develop their talents in

ballet field, the matter of talented ballet is not that because it was purely an accident

it's all unfair with one failure the father will destroy the talent and

the desire of the disciples who wanted to develop into stars that could shine

in this vast sky I'm sorry, principal but I will

take care of the ballerina match

Internationals. Because of those words I was reminded of the older brother I always had

honey, it makes me feel so mixed up between sad, sad,

afraid and curious.But my throat is still the same I will fight until

International and find out about my brother with his ballet dance weapon

I learned from you when I was a kid. I heard a voice that disturbed me and

slowly I returned from my so complicated mind I saw a shadow

black but the shadow gripped me (and I realized he was in front of me

standing firmly covering the remaining orange color ) Freda. hey Freda what are you.

gonna sit here till night, turns out you're daydreaming I feel confused at

here you want to see the sunset or even spend time just

by daydreaming exclaimed Panca (against me

and looking at me ), no ! I stood up from my seat and walked down

the hill without saying anything until Panca to his alley we just

be silent.