PREDESTINATION

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Dika has been telling me the truth about her relationship and her boyfriend Fida about what they've been doing all along.

Suddenly it made me shocked half to death because I did not expect them to do such a thing beyond my current expectations. that's why Dika can not leave Fida and it is also what makes Fida Rela to be cheated and choose Survive despite the pain in the heart.

Of course I don't want Fida to feel the same way as me. So I asked Dika to choose her lover and take responsibility for what she had done to him. And I only accompanied Dika in my place because here she was alone there was no friend close to her.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim, honestly I still can't believe what Dika told me earlier. I didn't expect them to be able to do such a thing" My inner being, well I still daydream about what Dika had said just now to me.

"I don't want Fida to feel the same way as me. I'm just friends with Dika and can't be more" I said in my heart.

"Allah is strong for me to face all this. I don't want another woman to be a victim of my selfishness. Teach me to be sincere, O God" My inner self again.

***

"Ramah" Tegur bang Ijon who has now replaced Rika's brother in the treasurer section of financial receipts.

"Yes bang"

"But, let's go to breakfast"

"Well, okay" answered me with enthusiasm. It was good working in that government agency. Where well like this is the salary smoothly, money tips smoothly and about food do not be asked again. There is always someone who shares his provision for us honoraries.

"Good" Call her again when we arrive at one of the eateries not far from our office.

"Yes bang" answered me.

"Abang is still new to the admissions treasurer and also Abang does not know how-how it works. So brother ask help you to teach brother later how the system works there" explained bang Ijon to me.

"Okay bang I'll teach you. But I don't fully know the system there either. I only know the basic parts. So later if there is less we learn equally from Rika's sister" I said.

"Well, it turns out that it's also good for your cooperation huh. This is a good partner for me"

I just smiled hearing the words from the Ijon bang earlier.

Since Ijon became my boss, I'm very happy, well I really enjoy my current job. Relaxing yet surely done I made all my tasks. If bang Ijon goes to the ship to do fieldwork, I always get ole-ole from the ship. Sometimes fruits, sometimes canned drinks.

***

"It's data to make monthly reports, this is data to make annual reports, this is an application to make Simponi if later we deposit money to the bank, we learn one-on-one how to make monthly reports like this..... " Obviously I was at great length to bang Ijon to teach him his duties as treasurer of expenditures.

"Okay, dizzy brother. This old brother is indeed very difficult to accept new lessons. Brother came out for a while to smoke" he said straight out of the room. Well, he is already old. His son was three. Maybe it was about forty years old. I also don't know if he is old.

I could only see his departure by shaking my head. If this is how I can do it myself. I was confused by the situation I was facing.

I don't care, because I understand a little bit about this work system. Obviously I enjoyed it. Because I like it like this.

"Help" Tegur again when returning to our room.

"Yes bang" answered me with a stack of ship notes on my desk that I have to input on a laptop so that later it will be easy to make monthly reports.

"About a month more brother had to go to Jakarta to do a recon. Because my brother is not too understanding for the work problem is caused by what is still new. Later brother wants you to come with brother to Jakarta" explained bang Ijon again to me.

"Huh? Serious to Jakarta? Long time no? But can an honorary like me come?" Ask me not sure.

"Seriously, not for long at most a week. The problem can not be clear if it can not say brother said the same you" he said.

"The SPT part can be made for honorary. Wanna?"

I nodded the sign pellet agreeing with what bang Ijon had said earlier .Actually I am not so sure to go rekon there because I am not too able and do not really understand how the recon work there.

"Well that dong, when will you tell me again" he said.

"okay"

***

"Buk, I was offered to go to Jakarta to recon office buk. How can I not go?" Ask me.

"You asked me the same mom. It's your office's job to go there"

"It's buk, but I still doubt books go there because I'm just an honorary mom. I'm afraid I'll do it wrong because it's about the state money if not the balance how?"

"Pray that you will go there smoothly. Later, if for example there is something you do not understand, you can ask the old chief treasurer" suggested my mother.

"Yes, too, buk"

"You should be grateful. Just almost a year you work there you have been invited to go to Jakarta and they all believe in you that you can. So you have to prove to them you can do that" said my mother.

"Yes buk buk. Free mumpung ya buk go there her. When else would I try to step foot in that Metropolitan city" I said.

"He's right that's right. When will you get on the plane again"

"Yes buk. Doain me yes buk may I succeed" I said.

Well at every step of my work I always ask for prayers to both my parents. Because to me their prayers are very important to my career. Without their prayers I'm sure I wouldn't be able to get the job I am today.

"Your mother and father always wish you all the best, your success in the career you have achieved. No parent prays for his bad son. Surely all parents want to pray for their children to be good people" said my mother.

"When did you go to Jakarta?"

"It's still a long time, a month more. Like his finished lebaran deh" said I well win the fasting month just counting a few more weeks.

I am so grateful to God for giving me such a job. My parents were so proud of me because I got a good job without going to college. Even I who was offered a job at that time was not me who was looking for a job.

Even so, I still feel worried in my heart. My mind is still worried because of my current status. I always thought who would want to be like me.. I can't be the same Dika. There was another girl waiting for him there. I'm not that bad at snatching Dika if I've found out that Dika has ruined another girl.

For a few times I have experienced my heavy breath thinking about what my fate would be in the future.

***

I was sitting in front of the cafe that I had been to accompany the head of one of the rooms in my office yesterday. Well again the father called me to ask me to accompany him hanging out at the cafe.

Although I actually my heart felt heavy to accompany that middle-aged man. But I also feel hesitant to reject it as my superior. And I was thinking what's wrong if I accompany the middle-aged man for a while just to drink and eat at the cafe. She asked me to accompany her in the afternoon and in public. but if he asked me to come to his house so that I could accompany him I rejected the request outright because I was afraid that something would happen that I did not want even though he was a good person. But I still have to be careful. Satan's incitement no one knows. As the saying goes, poor does not smell. While the biological aya alone can molest his own child what else other people.

"It's very friendly for you" said the middle-aged man earlier.

"Sorry sir, there was a little work at home" I said.

"Oh that, yes have ordered food there" said his telling me to order drinks and food for myself while he had already ordered food and drinks for him.

I ordered the food and drinks to the owner of the cafe.

Yes as usual I just accompanied the middle-aged man to drink and hang out there. As for the chatter alias I am not at all so smart because I am not a braggart. So that the father was more accompanied and chatted casually with the cafe owner.

Seeing the two of them talking, I also decided to be busy with my phone where I surfed on my social media in the form of facebook. Yeah just to vanish my tightness 'cause I'm like a stump in there.

Degs...

This heart again felt painful and painful to see my ex through. Well he passed by on the street not far from my cafe.

Every time I saw his face, the painful event came back. With a painful and passionate feeling I also wrote on my fb status.

"Again fun sitting on the terrace of the cafe Eh suddenly liawak lopak passing by. Instantly my mood became lost because it came back to reflect the event. The more I tried to forget the more heartache I felt" My status on my fb page. After creating that status I also left my facebook page.

Ting...

My phone rang an incoming message sign.

"Who's that lopak lizard?" Message from Dika.

"Ha's what he meant?"

"Your fb status"

"Oh, it's nobody. Just a fad" I replied lying.

"Don't lie about love. I know that status is for your ex. Love forget the things that make your heart hurt. I'm here with you"

"It's not that easy. I don't want her to be happy with her family after what she did to me. Who wants to accept me who's been like this?"

"There I am with you. I accept you for what's there"

"No, it can't be Dika. You already have him who has been waiting for you and is patient with your attitude. I don't want what I'm going through right now with him" I explained through my message.

"We can complement each other and accompany me together"

"You mean? Me and him being your girlfriends? Even me and her will be your wives?" Ask me.

"Yes, that's how it is"

"Sorry Dika. I don't want to live in the mix. Even I'm sure he doesn't want to live together. Which women want to be cheated on and even on their lips say sincerely but not with their hearts" I explained again.

"Try love can be"

"Can't Dika, I'm currently learning to sincerely see you happy with your boyfriend. When you told me about him, when I found out your family was close to him. You think my heart is not hurt accepting that reality? Obviously this heart is hurt but I'm staying because of my love for you" I said.

"I'm sorry I can't choose between you. I've made you hurt like this"

"No problem for me. If our soul mate is long then I will survive. But if our soul mate is not long then here comes our relationship. I just follow the destiny that God has outlined to us" I said again.

"I'm just asking you to forget me. Come back with her. He is more worthy than me" I said again.

"Don't say that like love. I can't do what you're asking" he said again.

"I love you as much as you love" she added.

"Don't be selfish of you"

"I really can't do that love" he said again.

"Follow this storyline. I'm not asking me to do it now either. But slowly but surely if you don't go, I'll go" I said again.