PREDESTINATION

unsatisfactory

After coming home from our Ita buk house Yus and I decided to go to Dika's house. Well because everyone in Dika's house has not come home from her sister Dika's house, so her girl named Fida who is Dika's lover is the one who serves us. Back he pointed out that his self was so familiar with the Dika family and deserved to accompany the man.

"Hmm find the face of the child" whispered Yus to me with his cynical gaze.

"Let's yus. Her name is also a candidate bini dong definitely looking face to face with her future husband" Reply me by whispering also to Yus.

"I'm nothing, Mah, even though I have a boyfriend and I'm as familiar with my girlfriend's family as she is, I don't behave like this either. Maybe help wash clothes he wants to. If I really don't. About him he's not necessarily my husband. Later after being my new husband dong we do what must be done"

"Really, right. I agree with what you said. I'm like that too Yus. I don't like to look for faces like this either. I'm just being decent as a girlfriend doesn't have to be like her"

"Please eat and drink the dish" said Dika offering to us after Fida finished preparing the dish on the table.

"Yes, thank you" answered me.

Fida sat next to Dika. Clearly this heart felt ill seeing him close to the man. But I knew she was also in pain because I was there. He might intentionally make me jealous of his closeness to that man.

Dika and I sat down to win side by side but we were quite far away. Well obviously I didn't want to get close to that guy when Fida was with us. As evil as I am, I still want to keep that girl's heart.

However, the Dika who is close to me. I shifted again to try to keep the distance between us. And to eliminate it to be clear dong we perpetuate it by taking pictures.

"Come yo, take a photo" take Yus.

"Eh Rio who was invited? I didn't?" Tanya Dika was shocked to hear Yus did not offer her a photo.

"Take a photo together" Yus said again. Well because it was the season of using tongsis, of course I brought tongsis to capture every moment of ours to make it easier because it could take photos or vidio easily.

"Smile, one two three" Yus said. Seen Dika's hand holding Fida's leg. I also wanted to bring the girl. But the girl even threw away the face of not wanting in the photo. Therefore Dika acted like that to say the girl was not ignored.

"You see Dika's hand. Ih... Amused I saw his romantic pretentious" Whisper Yus again.

"Jus told them that they were like that. They've also been dating her for a long time"

"Yes dating a long time too. But there's an ethic don't be such a romantic snob" Oceh Yus again.

"Let it be Yus. Don't take it ah same dizzy of them. We are we, they are they" I said again.

The mood that was so excited I woke up now collapsed immediately seeing Dika like that to Fida. Well I was just being tough when my heart was broken for him.

"Now you come to my house. The road is also to my house" Rengek Rio told us.

"Okay, I can" answered me again.

"Eh apparently there are guests" said her mother Dika who just returned home among her sister Dika.

"Oh" I said kissing the middle-aged woman's back hand. Don't forget her sister when I kissed the back of her hand. However, the woman who had one child did not like me. Well he looked at us with his cynicism.

Suddenly it made my guts grow bigger. Well looks like her sister Dika doesn't like me. They obviously liked the girl named Fida.

Seeing that I just let out my heavy breath.

"I won't be able to enter Dika's family. This is how the Dika family responds to me" My inner self.

"We say yes first" I told Dika's mother.

"Will you go home?"

"Yes buk, already afternoon is also afraid of kemaleman will arrive at pakning" I told his mother Dika.

"Be careful" said the middle-aged woman.

"Yes buk" I answered.

"To the house used to just come home" said Rio again.

"Yes this is to your house we used to be" I replied. Even though Rio and Siti are my cousin's sisters who have broken up, but still we are still close and friends as usual.

***

"Let's go in" Invite Rio to us to enter his house.

"Assalamualaikum" I said and Yus walked into Rio's house. Of course Dika and Fida are coming with us.

"Ah.. dear" said Rio's sister who welcomed Fida's arrival by hugging. It was as if they had just met after a long time of not meeting.

"Go back and look for your face" whispered Yus again. Me and Yus sat on the couch. The others sit down. Well Dika lay down below maybe she was tired of course Fida sat beside her. Me and Yus just saw and witnessed the closeness of them all.

They talked about the clothes they bought.

"This is me buying Dika clothes for a hundred thousand more in the bazaar yesterday" said Fida.

"Well, it turns out that Fida bought clothes for Dika" My inner self.

"That means they go out with dong to buy clothes" I added again in my heart.

I was really sick of seeing their closeness back then. I want to feel like I'm leaving from there right away. Well the longer it takes, the more isolated I feel.

"Let's Yus go home" I said to take my best friend home.

"Yok" answered Yus rising from his seat.

***

"Jeez Yus, it hurts me to see scene after scene played by Fida earlier. I swear I'm sick of them all" I said.

"Yes I am too. But you said patiently and naturally they were like that"

"Yes, but for a long time so tired also made it" said I again.

"We went to BMD first. It seems like the queue of fairies is also full of this. I want to sit there first" I said.

BMD is where the fairy ship docked or where the fairy boat rested (off). Well we sat in the harbor to calm the heart that is currently in turmoil. The shadow of Dika who came out to look for the dress with the girl still imprinted on my memory. They spent time together while Dika was in Bengkalis. I was so hurt imagining it. Especially now that I left Dika with Fida who was still in Rio's house.

"Okay for the sake of a true friend"

Once in the photo, I also make status on my BBM with my photo.

Shortly after, my phone rang a sign of the incoming message.

"Not yet to come home? What's in BMD?" Tanya Dika who has seen my status in her BBM app.

I reached into the red bag I was carrying to get my phone inside.

"Yes, the queue is full so yeah just wait here first" I said again.

"Why not just wait here with me"

"It's already going to the port to get into the fairies. Like people are already on the load" I said looking for reasons to end our short message in the BBM application. Well intentionally I want to avoid that man because at this time my feelings are chaotic.

"Be careful on the path of love" he said.

"Yes" I replied briefly.

***

I threw my body on the bed when I got home.

"God is tired" I said in my heart. Not only is my body tired my heart and my mind is tired. I'm tired of thinking about everything that's happening to me right now. Where I live a love triangle. For a few times I sighed heavily to remove this sense of uneasiness in my heart.

"Geez, why the hell am I even involved in this love triangle. Obviously this love makes my heart feel pain later. Not only am I sure they both feel the same way.I want to feel like I'm apart from this love triangle. But somehow it feels very heavy I left Dika. especially at this time he works in my area. And I'm the one who brought him here. There's no way I'll just leave it after I bring it here" My inner being.

"Oh, what am I supposed to do?" Say it again with his own.

"Do what?" Ask my mother who suddenly went into the room.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim ma'am, ngagetin aja" said I who was shocked by the sudden arrival of the middle-aged woman.

"What do you want to do?" Ask my mother in her interrogation tone to me.

"Nobody did anything ma'am. Just a little confused. Because a week after this Eid I will leave for Jakarta to do a re-recon. I'm afraid I won't be able to do my job there. I'm also just learning about my job" I told my mother that what I'm thinking right now is not the same as what I said to the middle-aged woman.

But I couldn't possibly tell my mother the truth about my love triangle. Because I don't want my mom to think that's not Dika.

"Jalani just son. If you still do not understand try asking your old boss about this problem. But you only work on it later who is responsible for your new boss" said my mother.

"It's buk, but still I'm afraid of buk. This involves money lo buk. If it's a little wrong then I'll be said to be corrupt. Obviously I don't want to. I'm afraid buk" I said again.

"Keep how?"

"That's why I'm confused too. But if I refuse, who will help bang Ijon there. He also recently served as treasurer of income. And he's also a good man to me"

"Mom's confused too so she wants to talk to you"

"But buk, just this time you buk honorar went to leave for service. Never been honorary to go like this" I said again.

"Well that's you know. You should be grateful because you can go to Jakarta even though you are still honorary"

"Yes buk" I said again.

"Yes you went to take a shower there. It was late afternoon too. You should take a shower after coming home from that street. Not even like this" my mother chirped again.

"Yes buk" I said still by lying on my bed.

"Yes, but even you're not moving out of your bed"

"Yes, yes, I want to get up and take a shower" I said trying to get out of my bed and get a towel to go to the bathroom so that my mother's nagging did not continue until tonight.

"This child always arranges if not he forgets what to do and acts as he pleases. Like a child who has to be organized" said my mother shook her head to see my temper like that.

"I'm sorry I lied to my mom. I can't say the real thing" I said in my heart.

***

Ting...

My phone again rang an incoming message sign from my BBm app.

"There's no news at all of your love. Whether you have arrived home or not" a message from Dika.

Well indeed from earlier I have not at all informed Dika about my current situation.

"I'm sorry I just didn't want to interrupt your time with your girlfriend" I replied.

"Geez love, what the hell are you? Nothing bothers me at all"

"Fear to disturb Dika. This is your time with your love there. And our time together was not long. So I don't want to interrupt both of you're time" I reply again.

"love doesn't talk like that. I don't think you're bothering me. In fact I'm worried about you for not giving me any news like this"

"Yes sorry" I replied briefly.

"yes, it's late too. We better rest. I also feel sleepy" I said to give an excuse.

"Newly also want to exchange messages even want to sleep"

"Yes how else. I'm really tired all day we're going to visit Bengkalis"

"Yes, too, yeah. You sleep there. Good night love present me in your beautiful dreams"

"Yes" I answered briefly.