PREDESTINATION

Trapped

  It's been three days

it's time I'll be performing in the room where I usually practice but the difference is

if I'm watched with a lot of high school kids and judged by the jury and wrong

one judge here is the chairman of the owner of the famous dance and ballet studio in the city

Palembang it. There is nervousness and fear, but I have to finish what I have to do

I began, this is indeed my Nom group in the heart to calm down

my mind, I get that I'm the 10th finalist who will perform out of 23

finalist, everything is ready costume I've been wearing but because it is still

I'm long ahead because it's my top

I was again wrapped in a jacket, we the finalists were already gathered at the side

the stage to prepare myself, while I wait I start warming up and

regulate my breathing because the music that will surround me is confident

and energetic so must be calm and confident to show unity

movement with music. Freda ! (smile) Do you want to move forward ? if so

spirit (go pass ) he must have checked the other finalists because I knew him

is the organizer of this race. Without realizing it, my spirit was like burning,

strange feeling when you meet Radit oh.

although not wrong at the age of 17. It was time for me to perform

believe me I start with light movements according to the music in the middle

my dance I remember the tricks my brother told me made me more and more

freely jump high (feel the music imagine no one sees you

just you and your music and jump like you want to achieve something

make you happy so you have to jump high) those are the words

my sister whom I remember from year to year before she left. When I

stop dancing to the music that accompanies me all the crowd clapping

hands made me happy when I saw Panca sitting between the benches

the audience with my friends who are in one school, but strangely the Panca without

neither expression nor applause just watching made a moment of me a little

disappointed but if I think about it again why am I disappointed ? he's just a friend

not that I just smiled welcoming their applause and giving

my sign of honor is over. The race continues until it is finished

and it was time to determine the 3 winners who would represent the sub-district

the ballet champion this afternoon starting from the third champion is Kesea Vinkatua with

the warm-themed dance is friendly in the release to the stage, Okay we

continue with the second champion held by Hani Yundatari with the theme Semi in

heart,, oh, oh, oh, oh, it's so blazing because it's holding champion two. I feel very

pessimistic, feeling that I don't have a chance anymore but when my name is on the fence

makes me happy is amazing. And the one we've been waiting for the first champion in

hold by Freda Deshi Fawnia with the theme of unlimited dreams.

I was chosen to participate representing my sub-district to race in

provincial or city level but there are those who disturb my mind because of the race

this time is very different from the previous race this time I have to collaborate

with a partner and it must be a man, where I will find a

a man who can ballet...? the majority of ballet is female

,,,,aiiiiiii moreover I am not from a club or a ballet art studio because

I can ballet it's because my brother and I learn fast enough so I can

developing my own movements is my motivation to move

brother in ballet first. I remember something when it was that boy

missing out on the award to me if he doesn't know I won, I have to warn him

if he has to be ready to apologize and I have to forgive or

lest he purposely go and pretend not to know anything and not

admit my victory ehhhhh basic sneaky guy I should find him (start

go around school looking for that shitty Panca ) but I've

look around I can't find it looks like he's home already

also want to go home to see the day starts at night and right now it's already hours

19;30 The darker the road, the bike ride, there are no lights

explained way. On the way I was thinking why Panca was watching without

really flat expression is always so just mouth ajah who

sharp ehh basic nasty guy. Even though I'm at night it must be mom and dad

not home (until home) I want to take a shower and go to bed

tired, but this one I have to hide if mom and dad know

must be angry especially if the lomba is about ballet.