PREDESTINATION

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Dika returned to his hometown to celebrate Eid al-Fitr with his family. Before he came home I asked him to stop by my house for a while so I could get the water I wanted to give to his parents as THR.

***

"Love I've arrived home" he told me.

"Alhamdulillah when it has come. I'm so glad to hear it" I replied.

"Yes love, you're fine there huh. Keep your eyes, keep your heart for me. Wait for me to come back to love" he said again.

"Yes" I answered briefly.

"Obviously I can keep my eyes and heart for you. Well you? Can't keep your eyes and heart for me. He is already there with you. Tonight you two will definitely spend some time together" My mind is sad.

I can only sigh heavily to relieve this heartache. Well upset at the thought of Dika who was there with Fida.

Surely the night of their takbiran will be together, see the parade of takbir raya in their area. Though my dream long ago wanted to see the night takbir with the lover of the heart. However, it did not work this year either.

"And I hope Dika will come home later after the takbir parade is over. But in fact he came home so soon" My inner self again. Well what is my power if he wants to go home now. There's no way I'm holding him back from being with his family on this night. Obviously every child is eager to gather at night with his beloved family.

"Well, help mommy to fill the cake in the jar" my mom cried to me.

"Yes buk" I answered immediately to do as ordered by my mother. If I'm a little late, then my mother's babble will be my mistress tonight.

Although my body is in my house right now, but my mind is only on Dika who is far away there.

"Now what is he doing? Surely he must be preoccupied with his girlfriend again" My inner.

"Well, if he's in his place, he must have forgotten me. From earlier my message was not reply" I added again while looking at my phone that there were no signs of incoming messages from Dika

"Okay, from the work just filled the cake in the jar a long time ago" Tegur my mother gave my daydream.

"Quick dong contents, help mom also tuhin out the dishes and spoon from the warehouse and help you wash yes" said my mother again.

"Yes buk" I quickly filled the cake in jars with various types. After that I turned to the kitchen to do my mother's second command.

Well I have to execute quickly so that his babble does not reverberate anymore.

"Of friendly, don't think too much about that Dika. She was there preoccupying you with being crazy for thinking about her" My mind awakened this so as not to be so focused on Dika.

I try to take my mind off and focus on my current job.

***

The sound of takbir was murmuring at this moment. Well heard the singing of takbir mention the divine name of every mosque and mosque in every area sign of the day of victory has arrived before the eyes.

"From my confusion, I went for a walk with Uti. Well, this is a takbir parade with a motorbike. For the first time let's go" My mind says to myself.

"Uti" I cried to my niece who lives next door.

"Yes Usu"

"Yuk road tonight. Temenin buy tissue and we take part in the assessment" Invite me. Well because the niece is the average person she likes to walk. Obviously he was very happy to be taken that way. What else at that time I have worked and there is my own income. I'm not going to starve them. There must have been food I bought and drinks for those who accompanied me on the streets.

"Come, just a minute Su uti change clothes first" said he immediately get ready. Of course I'm getting ready to go with Uti. This is my first time taking part in a takbir parade on a night out. Well because only this holiday I have my own motorbike so I can follow the march using my motorcycle.

"Let's Su go" Take it. Uti after finishing getting ready. We are in the form of going to a minimarket to buy a tissue first and then following the takbir parade, but we did not follow the parade until it was finished. We followed the march only half way. Because of fear of accidents due to being too crowded with people who participated in the parade.

"Udah Ti let's just go home. It's scary to see these guys harden their pot. My earache heard it" I said.

"Yes Su, let's go home. This is not the name of the takbir, the sound of their exhaust is too loud so that no takbir sound is not heard" Uti told me.

We decided to go home and not follow the takbir again.

***

"There's still no word from Dika" My mind again kept looking at my phone that still had no sign of incoming messages from Dika.

I wrote the clock on my phone to see what time it is.

"It's ten o'clock and there's still no word from him" My inner self again.

"Have not fiddled with your phone again.It is better when you sleep! Because tomorrow at dawn you have to help mom to prepare a menu of dishes that will be served to the guests who are present in our house" said my mother.

"Not yet sleepy" answered me.

"Not sleepy, not sleepy. How do you want to sleepy try your eyes are only on your phone. Obviously not drowsy to be it. You put your phone away from you after that you close your eyes. Later will also sleep by itself" said my mother sounded pushy.

I could only stop my breathing from hearing my mother's words. Indeed, my mother intended only to make me sleep on time because she was afraid that later I would be sick if constantly staying up late. But at this moment I really wasn't sleepy and I couldn't force my eyes to sleep because my mind was still in a mess and still thinking about Dika who was on the other side. Maybe if Dika's message came in just once on my phone, it would treat this sense of chaos in my heart and of course I could sleep peacefully.

"Okay, where the hell are you? I've been waiting for it" I said in my heart.

Ting...

My phone reads someone's message sign in. With happiness and hope I took my phone and read from Whom the message came.

It was as if I was in a beautiful rainbow looking at the name on my phone that had given me a short message.

"Not yet to go to sleep. Where have you just told me at this hour" I said.

"Sorry love, I just saw the takbiran continue to gather with my friends here because you have not gathered together for a long time"

"Seeing fear of your lover?" Ask me to investigate.

"Not really love, I went with Rio earlier"

"But there's your lover, right?" Ask me again. Well, he went with Rio. But it does not rule out the possibility that his lover also did not come. There was no way that her lover would not come when she found out that Dika had already come home there. She had since dared to cross the ocean only to meet Dika in her office. Especially now that Dika was already on one land with him.

"Fearless love. You are again making love. Didn't see the takbir march in your area?" Dika asked me trying to divert her conversation. Well I know he's lying. He did it because he did not want me to hurt later when he heard the fact that he was with his lover at that time.

"You sleep. You if you have returned to your hometown then you must have forgotten me who is here. I was just waiting for a message from you, at this hour you just remembered me. That's because you've come home and there are no friends. So you just remembered me across here" I said.

"Not so love I always remember you. It's just that I was looking at takbir and also gathered with my friends. So there's no time to tell you" Dika gave an excuse to me.

"Oh yes then" I said with a chuckle.

"Love, don't be that funny to me. I'm sorry, if I'm wrong. Sorry to be born and inner yes love for all my mistakes both intentionally and unintentionally. Festive nights like this you scourge the same me. We should forgive each other and welcome the day of victory" Dika said again.

I let out a heavy sigh and tried to throw away all my bad thoughts towards Dika hearing what he said earlier. That tonight is a feast. We should have forgiven each other instead of being hostile to each other like this.

"Yes, I'm sorry if I'm wrong with you. Whether intentionally or not" I reply again.

"Your love is not wrong with me. I've always hurt your heart. I'm sorry love" she said again.

"Yes, don't talk about it anymore. Better we sleep now! Because tomorrow we will wake up at dawn and will go to the house of relatives to be in touch" said I again.

"OK love. Good night love present me in your beautiful dreams yes" he said.

"Yes" I answered briefly.

"Love you love"

"Yes, thank you" I replied.

"I don't love you back"

"Yes, love you" I replied again.

"That dong love. I can sleep quietly like this"

"Yes" answered me. Ended the brief message we both had that night.

"Not sleeping either. The pace of your fingers typing his phone. He was told to sleep also from earlier was still literate. Tomorrow even late wake up" said my mother who had just entered back into the room.

"Yes this buk also wants to sleep" I replied.

"Well, if you wake up late, I flush you with water. Let's get up early in the morning to help mom in the kitchen get everything ready"

"Oh, my mother is so cruel to want to water me with water to wake me up"

"You're the one who pissed me off. He was told to sleep also from earlier was still busy with his cellphone"

"Yes, my dear mother, I'm going to sleep. This is yes I put my phone away and I try to close my eyes" I said again.

"From that cake. Wonderful about the kid now. I love to hang out with his cell phone. Tomorrow in wakein even hard" my mother's rant accompanied my takbir night.

***

"Oh, I'm sorry. Sorry for all my mistakes, whether intentionally or unintentionally. I always make my mom angry with me. But know that I love my mother very much" said I sungkeman in the morning with my brothers.

"Yes, before you apologize, mom forgave you. I'm sorry if you sometimes say rude things to you"

Well, my mom sounds rude in speaking but know her heart isn't like that. His heart is very soft.

"Dad, I'm sorry well if there is any fault with the father whether intentional or not" I said to my father as well as kissing the back of my father's hand.

"Yes, son, I'm also sorry if there's something wrong with you"

"Law... Where's the THR" said my nieces and nephews stormed me that morning.

"Your God, he does not want to be silent and ask questions about THR. Sungkeman used to be there with grandma and her atok" I said.

Enthusiastically my nieces and nephews marched to the chieftain of our house, my father and my mother's wife. They fought each other for Kemen first to the couple to get THR first from me.

"I used to" said one.

"I was" Reply to another.

"O Allah, Sungkeman just scramble to line up the real dong. If you don't line up neatly, I won't be thanking you THR" Threatened me.

Hearing that, they immediately lined up neatly and orderly to bow down to my two parents.

"Well that's dong, it's neat" I said.