Playboys

The Truth

The door of my room suddenly opened without a knock first, and the culprit was Kevin who lethargicly sat directly in front of my desk. It's still three o'clock in the afternoon and his face is very tangled. I don't think there's been a dizzying project so far, but his face shows that he's just completed five meetings at once.

“There's a problem?” I asked, still struggling with the laptop in front of me. Today I want to go home on time, I'm very sleepy.

“Big problem, Brother.” Kevin looked at the ceiling of my study. Is this what happens when you decide to get engaged? I thought her fiance was beautiful, then what was the problem?

Did Kevin just catch Dimitri's weirdness? Kevin has just followed the reaction Dimitri has shown lately. What happened to these two men?

“What's because of the engagement?”

“I'm still confused why should that woman be my fiancee, this is the problem,” lamented.

“So you know that woman?”

Kevin just nodded. If Kevin knows him, then Dimitri knows him. That woman was really Dimitri's friend like him. I was silent, actually they both had problems, but didn't tell me.

“At least the woman is beautiful, Vin, you don't need to escape.” From the many questions running around in my head, it was precisely that sentence that was thrown.

“I still prefer Sister in appeal to any woman.”

I don't know if it's just my feeling, but I feel like I'm the one who knows nothing here. Neither did these two men tell me anything, as if I were someone else. “What really happened?” my many.

Kevin looked at. “I also don't know, if Dimitri from the beginning knew who the woman who became my fiancee, he should have prevented me. Not even disappeared.”

“Dimitri with me yesterday.”

Kevin's face still did not improve a bit, he looked even more frustrated. “I actually can't tell Brother this problem, but Dimitri was also definitely not going to tell Brother,” he said.

I just looked at him, asking for more explanation. I need to understand a little about this problem. Dimitri's problem, I'll try to solve it slowly. “The woman is Dimitri's ex-lover.”

I was really open to hearing Kevin's words. Michelle is Dimitri's former lover, and Michelle is Richard's younger sister. Why did he get engaged to Kevin?

“I can only tell you that, Brother. It's not my right to tell all those stories.”

My head is really hurting right now from thinking about all this. So Richard and Dimitri know each other? That's why they both say the same thing. This sounds a little reasonable now, when I asked Dimitri about Michelle yesterday, she didn't answer anything.

Right now I feel like I'm stuck in two walls trying to corner me. Maybe I shouldn't be like this, I should listen to Dimitri's story too, and I think Richard is too. Is this some kind of coincidence? Why am I related to those men?

**

I actually got home on time, five o'clock this afternoon and I was in the elevator to get down to the lobby. I want to sleep, because my sleeping time was forcibly sacrificed last night by Dimitri who silly only spent the night on the balcony looking at the lights of the building and also the streets are very sparkling.

The elevator door opened and I got out. I stopped my steps when I saw Dimitri standing in the middle of the lobby with a woman, Kevin's fiancee. So it's true that they're ex-lovers. Why does it feel a little painful when facing this scene. I can't just ignore them and then just pass them by, right?

I stare at the phone in my hand, this could be an excuse. I don't think Dimitri has seen me yet because we're quite far away. I immediately put on a flat face and was busy scrolling Instagram feeds that actually had nothing interesting. I really didn't see my way until I collided with someone, and we fell simultaneously.

The luggage of the person I hit was scattered, I helped pick it up because I felt guilty. “I'm sorry,” I said while tidying up the map it carried.

“I am sorry, I do not seem to pay attention to the road,” he said still bowing his head while cleaning the map I cleaned as well.

We stood together, it seemed like this man was still young. I've never seen him in this office. The young man finally looked at me, who was also looking at him with a smile. “You're a new employee?”

Fizzy cheeks. Really it? Just because I saw you smile? Just be right. I laughed it off in my heart. Do I still have that effect for a young man like him? Why is this so ridiculous?

“Iya, my interns multimedia part.” This young man still lowered his head, either from feeling guilty or ashamed. It looks so cute.

I saw the identification he hung around his neck. Liam. I'll remember his name. “Salam know then.” I stretched my hand out in front of him.

The man looked at my hand then my face took turns, hesitating a little to shake my hand. I gave him a code from my face to grab my hand. “Other times I will also be careful when walking,” I said when he had already shaken my hand.

Liam nodded then passed immediately. I just stared at his back that was behind me with a smile. Back when I was an intern was just as awkward as it seemed. Seeing him made me remember my happy youth. Well, if time could turn around then I would go back to my youth, and not ruin my friendship with Dimitri by asking him to sleep with me.

That's part of the regret that I always seem to regret. I am this old and still make mistakes like a teenage girl. I know there's never been a way back for any of that. I turned my body back to walk before someone confronted me.

Dimitris.

He must have heard the commotion earlier and realized my presence. I should have gone straight to the basement without having to go through the lobby and meet Dimitri. After knowing Kevin's sentence earlier, somehow it feels a little awkward when meeting in person like this. I don't know what's wrong with me.

“Hai, Al. You here too?” sapaku as cheerfully as possible. Gave her my best fake smile. I've never done it, I hope my face isn't as scary as I imagined.

“I drive home,” he said firmly.

“No need, Al. I want to take a break.” I tried to let go of the hand he held.

“What do you think I'll do?” tanyanya amusedly, but his face was more fitting if called with a grin. Is this because of her meeting with an ex-boyfriend that I don't know when. Probably High School.

I returned to smile. “I don't think anything, I just want my own time. I'll go home by myself.” I quickly passed when his hand slipped off. The grip is not as tight as usual, it is very easy to detach even without extra energy.

**

At the end of the day after work, I didn't go home. My mind could not calm down when I met Dimitri earlier, he looked angry, and also upset. At least when he met or was with me, he never showed such a face. Is it because of that woman?

Too many questions running through my head, which I don't know the answer to. Even the novel I bought when I stopped by the bookstore was not touched at all. I was only able to finish up to three pages, then the thought of Dimitri re-entered my mind.

I can't possibly be in love, right? I've never felt this sad before thinking about Dimitri. All I know is that when you fall in love, your heart beats, and your heart blossoms when you see the man you love. I don't fall into those two categories. What am I thinking about falling in love anyway? I will not fall in love with my best friend.

Cellphone's ringing. One message came in.

Richard

I smile. I should have fallen in love with a guy like Richard, but this guy was just as secretive as Dimitri. They're no better, so I don't want to vote for them.

Thinking about you.

I smiled again, I didn't know what I was doing, my heart seemed to reject everything my hands were doing. Richard's reply was quick.

Richard

I miss you even more if this is so. I wanted to call you, but I'm in a meeting. I was so tired of hearing the old man chattering.

What exactly is my relationship with Richard? The man never confessed his feelings, we just threw each other seduction and sweet words. He's a good guy, but the more I see him, the more wrong he feels.

What was?

If I can't explain the relationship I'm in at the moment, then I'd better back off.

Richard

I want to introduce my sister to you. He just came home from Singapore, actually I want to introduce you directly, but there is other business that I have to do when my sister gets to Jakarta. When do you have time?

Yeah, it's about getting engaged to Kevin. Why do I feel stupid now? Very amusing. I put that phone on the bedside table, I'm not going to reply to that message. I'm grateful to Nabila for introducing me to a great man like Richard, but I don't seem to fit him.

There's no sadness I feel, just annoyed and fed up. Maybe this is because I always feel happy in the middle of my two male friends. I think I can keep on being friends with them until we get married later. A silly and silly dream.

I haven't found the truth of any of this. I only know Dimitri and Michelle's past relationship, then what's after? And what was very clear was the reason behind Dimitri preventing me from seeing Richard. Do they think I'm a kid who can't figure out the cruelty of the world?

I hate when I don't know anything like this. Maybe it was their privacy, but I wasn't anyone else among them. Can't they just tell me the truth?

It's eight o'clock in the night, and I haven't closed my eyes at all, even though my drowsiness has made my head even more painful. I chose to get up from the bed, then walked towards the medicine box I had provided near the kitchen. I used to keep sleeping pills there. Back then when I was overworked and had trouble sleeping, I would take this medicine to get some rest.

Bad habits I've avoided, but I think I should try again. I never stress outside of my job. It could be said that my personal life was very clean, there was never a history of bad habits, except consuming alcohol and making love to Dimitri. For the rest, I live like a normal woman.

Both my parents loved me very much, I never lacked the slightest affection, even though I lived far away from them. My friends are Nabila, Kevin, and Dimitri, but I'm happy to have them. I think more about quality than quantity, besides I'm busy working.

I took two capsules at once, and immediately took them. The dose of this drug is very high, even the doctor advised me not to take this type of drug again. I'm the kind of person who easily thinks about anything extra. I would be stressed if I did not find an answer to a problem, that's what made me choose the faculty of Economics, because the numbers give a definite answer.

At times like this, I miss my parents very much. What do they think when they know their children live like this? I hope they will always love me no matter what. I leaned against the kitchen table, the room lights accidentally turned on, I didn't like the light that was too bright to shine on me.

Slowly the tears flowed, I didn't even know the cause, they just flowed. Maybe I'm too tired, I think too much, it just feels too crowded. So I just took it out, I'll be better off after I let out all these tears.

I'm not the kind of person who can cry easily, when I've been crying like this, then I'm really tired of everything. My body slumped to the floor, and the tears were not going to stop, lucky I was just a mini mala myself. I don't like it when other people see me crying, whatever the cause, making me look weak in other people's eyes.

My luck did not last long, I could faintly hear the sound of my apartment door opening. That must be Dimitri, because only he knows my apartment code. Ah, these fucking tears will stop too.

“Li,” call it.

“Liliana!”

I'm still sitting on the floor, I can't answer the call, or my voice will be heard clearly. I covered my mouth with both hands. I knew this wouldn't help, that man would find me.

“Why you?” tanyakanya. I couldn't see his face because the room was dark.

Quickly, he immediately carried my body, then laid my body on the bed with my tears still standing. These fucking tears.

“What's up?” Dimitri sat down on the edge of the bed, wiping away the tears that were still left on my cheeks. There was no look of anger on his face, just the usual tenderness.

I just shook my head, and looked at him.

“What's here?” ask me with the rest of the fun that is still not lost as well.

“Missing you maybe?” he said with a smile.

Nabila's words immediately turned around in my head. I can continue to be friends with him, but I can't continue this strange relationship. I patted the side of my empty bed, asking her to lie down next to me. He complied, and soon slept beside me. I immediately hugged her and hid my face in her chest. Dimitri replied with increasingly tight arms.

“Why are you crying?” ask again.

I'm shaking. I don't know why I'm crying, what am I gonna tell him then?

“What's because of that guy?”

I looked up at her face watching me. “You won't tell me your problem either, right? So I guess we're even.”

“I don't have any problems, Li.”

“Yes, you'll keep saying that until you feel you have to tell me. But, if later you will tell me, I hope we can still be friends.”

**

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