Playboys

Damages

Hi I'm back, how are you today?

I brought a new update, and it's already entering the ending stage. So what do you expect the ending to be for their story?

My room is on the fifth floor, high enough to look down at the highway down there. If you see it from Dimitri's room on the tenth floor it will be more beautiful, especially if you look at it at night. I'm easily happy with just that little thing, I like everything simple, as well as the problems I'm dealing with.

It may sound disdainful, but I prefer to simplify a problem and then immediately find a solution. I'm not used to leaving unresolved issues, it's a burden on my mind. As I'm dealing with right now, it's true that love fools someone.

I don't want to judge love, but in reality I feel it. Maybe I fell in love at the wrong time, or maybe I fell in love with the wrong person. I don't know, obviously everything I'm feeling right now is wrong. For my heart and my mind. I need to purify my mind to stop being pessimistic, and come back as optimistic as ever. I even miss the old me.

That's why I've decided, I have to take a vacation and leave, so that my mind is enlightened and I can solve my problems. That's why I made an appointment with Kevin and Dimitri. They are two people I avoid very much, but unfortunately they are also my boss, what more can I do besides getting their signatures to approve my cut plan.

It would be awkward to meet them, but again I am very good at being professional. Did you guys think I hadn't reprimanded them in the office? It was impossible, because no matter what I did I would definitely meet them, whether it was in a meeting or passing in a corridor or a lobby.

You guys wonder what I'm doing?

Of course I will be polite and reprimand them. There was no familiar greeting as usual, just a brief professional greeting. It's been two months, and that's what we've done. I felt like I was familiar with the situation, like it should have been. I don't know what my two best friends think, but we're not friends anymore, like strangers.

Disappointed for sure, but part of my pride always yelled at me not to do anything stupid by starting a conversation with them first. And I really did, but what made me even more disappointed was that they kept quiet, as they should have been.

Indeed, it seems that nothing can be improved from our relationship, whether it is friendship or another— - even if there is a—or it is just my feelings. Women are always exaggerating in judging a man's feelings, right?

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I smiled when I saw Kevin enter this cafe first, he just returned my smile awkwardly. Maybe Kevin didn't expect me to do something like this. Shortly after that Dimitri also walked into our table, for some reason I felt my heart pounding. Did I miss him so much?

Wasn't it so shameless when I still felt something like this? Remember that Dimitri was Michelle's fiance. I'm just a friend trying to take advantage of our status, just like Michelle said the other day, and it's funny that I'm saying it deep inside my heart.

“It's been a long time, right, since we last gathered like this?” I said with a big smile, looking at my two best friends who were looking at me awkwardly.

This time I ignored a shout of pride that asked me not to do anything stupid. Maybe this is stupid, let's just say it's the last time I do something stupid. Maybe I'm smart, but I don't always do everything perfectly. That's if you think I'm smart.

“Yes, I missed that time. Why don't we just celebrate?” it was Kevin's voice that started to smile in response to me. He looked at Dimitri as if asking for his approval. Dimitri just shrugged his shoulders indifferently. It was obvious that he did not like this idea. Let me do this for myself, not for him. After all, he had always been like that to his workers.

“But after that you have to sign my cut submission. I did this because of it,” I said. I took out a brown envelope containing the paper they had to sign later.

“Cuti?” Dimitri and Kevin asked the same question in surprise.

“Ya, annual leave. I haven't picked it up since the beginning of the year, after all it's my right, and you don't have to worry about my job. I've arranged this in such a way, so you don't have to worry.” I showed them my big smile.

“Kakak never tell..,”

“Now I'm doing it,” cut me.

I know the continuation of that sentence. If we said it when we were friends, then it sounded very ordinary. We're not friends now, just coworkers, which I hope there's still hope for our friendship to return, but it's very unlikely that it will ever be.

“What will you do during the holidays?” The first question Dimitri asked after closing his mouth earlier.

“Entah, maybe visit the same Father Mother, or around the world spend my savings. The most important thing to clear my mind.”

“So this meeting to celebrate Brother's leave? There should be champagne here, then not in this cafe, too simple for my very special brother.” Kevin blinked his eyes at me and I smiled because of it.

Kevin is a man who is able to adjust to the circumstances, although initially awkward, in the end he can overcome everything well. Very different from Dimitri who was very serious.

As for me, right now what I do is, should I call what I am doing right now? I've adjusted so much and positioned myself in the right place. Even if in the end our friendship was already beyond help, I kept our privacy in place. I did not cross the line with

forcing them to tell all their stories.

“If I am special, you should have prepared my bonus this month to be enough for my cut.”

“I'll do it, Brother, I always keep my word.”

I glanced at Dimitri from the tail of my eyes, not knowing what he was thinking. Was he so bored when he met me?

**

In contrast to my and Richard's relationship, we've become closer and closer. Maybe because we spend a lot of time together. We're not friends, just friendly with each other. He tried too hard to win my heart, but somehow it wasn't right in my opinion.

If compared, Richard is much better than Dimitri. But I couldn't feel the excitement of being with Richard. I've labeled Richard the man who approached me because of his guilt, because if it wasn't for that, I'm sure Richard wouldn't have done any of this. Being a doctor is already very busy, why concern yourself again for the sake of a woman like me?

Richard is too good for me. I'm not whole anymore, and to start a new relationship with a new man is very unfair. Not fair to the man, because he could have gotten a better woman compared to me. They'll divorce me soon on the first night, if I'm right

marrying a new man.

Consider it a form of atonement for all my sins. My sins are too much and I don't deserve to be human. That's one of the reasons why I can't accept Richard if his feelings for me are sincere. As well as the Gods, that man was too good for me. I'm not very worthy if I have to

Celibacy sounds like a lot of fun, but I know my parents wouldn't approve of it. The only child and chose to celibate, is not the child very tarnish his own family name?

Right now, I just really want to spend my time alone without any confusion, without any problems happening to me. I want to lighten my already dead-end brain.

“You like a place like this?” Richard asked me when I took him out to dinner at a tent stall not far from my apartment

“You don't like it?” my many.

Richard looked like he was evaluating this tent stall. “I'm not stingy, I just want to eat here. You can still add a portion if you are not full. I buy everything.”

“Just didn't expect Managers like you to like this simple tent shop so much.” Richard smiled at me.

“You teased me?” my murmur.

Richard ignored me and chose to order the menu we were going to eat tonight. Looks like Richard has eaten a lot in this tent stall. I widened my eyes as I looked at the brothers who were delivering food at our table.

Three servings of white rice, three servings of chicken, kale chops, there is also grilled meatballs as well as tofu and tempeh. “How much?” tanyaku.

“You said I could do more, right? Let's not bother his brother, I immediately pesen everything.”

I looked at Richard in disbelief, money is not a problem here, but all this food. I didn't expect Richard to be able to eat this much, so inversely proportional to his very well-groomed body and also muscular in the right place.

“Come to eat.”

**

“So you're going on leave?”

I just nodded without a sound. After dinner, we decided to go home with Richard who drove me home. Due to the short distance, we decided to continue on foot.

“Don't miss me when we don't see each other again,”.

“Now I miss you, how about two weeks off?”

“Am I that amazing until you can't turn to another woman?”

I walked backwards in front of him while wagging my hair provocatively. I'm so happy when a guy praises me, who wouldn't be happy, right, if he got a compliment?

I suddenly lost my balance in my footsteps and almost fell if Richard was not nimble to catch my body. We were so close, Richard held both of my hips tightly. Next time I'll remember myself not to do something like that, because it's embarrassing in the end. Lucky Richard was willing to arrest me, what if he didn't?

“You're not papa?” tanyanya's worried.

I cleared my throat to relieve my nervousness. Even though Richard couldn't make a pleasant conversation, he could still make me nervous.

Richard seemed to wake up, and immediately released the twists of his arm on my body, but did not remove our close distance. “If you do not have a destination for your cut, you can go to Singapore,” he said.

Our distance is not too close, not too far. He could easily grab my body to get in his arms or maybe kiss me. “Why should I go there? I don't have any brothers or friends living there.?

“Meeting my parents, I can introduce my world to you, if you don't mind.”

I stared fixedly at Richard's eyes, he looked at me seriously as well. Ah, if I had met Richard before than Dimitri, it wouldn't have been the way it is today and I wouldn't have been involved in this complicated love affair.

**

I got Dimitri and Kevin's autographs at the cafe the other day, and I've officially had my cut. I'm currently filling out other documents in the personnel room. Meta—Head Personnel—while researching the documents I gave you carefully. Meta is four years older than me but always fed up with being called Big Brother.

“You sure you're going to do this? Dimitri will definitely be very angry when he finds out about this,” he said for the umpteenth time.

“Takkan happen anything, besides what he can do. The man is very coward.”

“I don't know what problem you're facing, but it would be better if you solve everything first.”

For me all the problems are done, nothing needs to be solved. We did what we had to finish it. I'm just sick of it and need an outlet for all the feelings in my heart.

“I prefer like this, more free without any restraints. And do as I say, nothing will happen, believe me. I know you can do it.”

Meta grumbled at my words. “To be sure he is the boss and who pays me, what if I lose my job because of this?”

“Dimitri is not that stupid to do that.”

Dimitri was just stupid on other things. Glasses that have been broken into pieces will not return intact even though it has been repaired, the cracks will cause a mark that will never disappear. Same with trust. No longer the pain I now feel, this is just a small damage that can no longer be repaired.

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