Playboys
#13. Colors
How do you define happiness? What when you have everything? When all the things you planned went smoothly without obstacles, what was it like? Or you have your own definition of happiness, it depends on you. Happiness does not always have to be compared to the possession of others, it is not happiness, but envy.
When you are grateful for everything in your life, it can be considered happiness. The measure of happiness according to others is different, so we only need to find our own happiness without the need for comparison. But, not everyone has this kind of thinking, some people interpret happiness with the necessity to have everything.
Yes, we just have to choose what we want, life also includes choices. Until the end, we will choose.
“It's too much, you don't have to do this.” Liliana stared at the shopping bag that Enzo had just brought to her apartment, convinced that it contained toys.
“I just happened to pass by, and I remember your son, let's just say it's a souvenir from my business trip,” Enzo said with a smile.
In total there are five shopping bags carried by Enzo, Liliana looked at all of it with horror that has not disappeared. Liliana did not deliberately buy too many toys for her son, not because she did not love him, but because it just ended up being a display. The eagle even prefers to play the items in the apartment compared to the toys Liliana bought in the store.
It was natural to happen, and Liliana also did not want to spoil him. If you have to buy a toy, there are rules that Liliana applies to it.
“Oh, and this is for you.” Enzo handed Liliana a not-so-big square box. “I don't know if you like it, I just depend on my luck this time,” Enzo said again.
“Can I open now?”
Enzo nodded, and Liliana immediately opened the square box curiously. It contained chocolate, lucky only chocolate, what if Enzo secretly put gold bars or money into the box. That would be more horrible.
“Cokelat?” ask Liliana astonished. This may be the first time someone has given him chocolate.
“Only my guess, usually women really like if given chocolate or flowers.” Enzo shrugged his shoulders indifferently.
“Is there still such a female species? I think they prefer cash or buying houses, things like that.”
“You must marry me first if so.”
Liliana looked at Enzo who was also staring at her innocently. Perhaps if such a joke was thrown at the young girls out there, they would gladly accept it with a last smile as well as a reddened hue. But, this is Liliana, what to expect from flirting with Liliana? It was the most disturbing thing about his life.
“You seem to be the wrong person if you want to tease me,” Liliana said with an amused smile.
“Really? Though I really said it in earnest.”
Liliana ignored the sentence, even though she knew that Enzo was serious, she would still take it as a joke. It'll be easier that way. “I do not like food or drinks that are too sweet, maybe it could be your reference when you want to buy me souvenirs.”
“What does this mean that you want to be more familiar with me? Because that's what I believe from your sentence.”
Has Liliana started to really want to open her heart to Enzo? After his meeting with Dimitri yesterday? Since there is no official prohibition not to do all that, maybe this can be a way for him to find another happiness.
“You have helped me a lot, even bought all this.” Liliana pointed at all the toys that came from Enzo. “So, I think it would be rude not to know each other well,” Liliana said.
Enzo's wide smile faded away, it felt like flying high in the clouds, then your wings suddenly snapped, and there was no choice but to plop down to earth. That's how Enzo feels now, he also does not understand why he has to feel all this, even buying toys for Liliana's son
“My application is still valid if you change your mind.”
“Lamaran?”
“Yes, I asked you to marry me.”
Liliana chuckled. “You proposed to me with this chocolate?”
“It's just the beginning, next time I'll do it right.” Enzo blinked one eye at Liliana. After kissing the Eagle's forehead for a moment, he immediately decided to go home.
Liliana was still glued to where she stood, trying to process all of Enzo's sentences just now. Their introduction begins with incredible awkwardness, then the longer their relationship is also quite strange. Liliana smiled amusedly, if indeed Enzo is a man who is able to change the course of the story, then he did not mind to try. Silence with bemoaning her life and ex-husband is the dumbest thing she has ever done, and it is time for Liliana to change the course of her life story.
**
“So, you rejected me?”
Dimitri's focus was not at all moved from his laptop screen, he was actually given his own office to do all his work, but he preferred to work in a cafe like this. And since yesterday, Evelyn has been following him, whether or not this woman wants.
“Since when did I receive you? I can't even remember it, you always follow me everywhere,” Dimitri replied.
He was very careless about the existence of this woman, but no matter how hard Dimitri drove this woman away, there was no meaningful change. So, Dimitri just ignored it, over time this woman will be tired by herself.
“You are very sad. Begging back the love of the wife you've dumped, she's even happy with the man of her choice, but you still haven't changed,” Evelyn said haughtily.
Dimitri is still trying to calm down with all the work he is working on. He really did not want to start a new problem with the woman he wanted to avoid.
“If that woman really loves you, then she won't be that fast to find your replacement. You're still stupid to want a woman like that to come back,” Evelyn continued.
All right, his patience's running low. It didn't matter if he wanted to vilify himself, but, if this was about Liliana, he couldn't just keep quiet. “There's more you want to talk about?” asked Dimitri coldly.
“I look even more pathetic when I know you, don't you realize how much more pathetic you are? I don't want to hurt you any further, so you better get out of here before I lose my temper.”
Evelyn looked at Dimitri in disbelief, this man was very different from the one she had met before. Dimitri who used to be very friendly and complied with all his wishes, but now, this man ignored and also said harsh words to him.
Without saying anything else, Evelyn immediately got up from her seat and left the table. Dimitri never once saw the woman leave, his life was really unlucky just to meet the woman.
Dimitri already knew the woman inside out, and nothing had changed from her except for her increasingly cold attitude. He did not want to be selfish, but however Liliana was still his, and he would win her heart for the umpteenth time. There will be no more mistakes for the third time, he will again make sure that he will not hurt Liliana again.
Dimitri's daydream was blown away when he heard a clink on his phone, a message came in.
Do you have time? The eagle wants to see you.
**
“You are sure of your decision?”
“Yakin, Bil, wherever Dimitri remains the birth father of the Eagle and he is also entitled to his son,” Liliana replied. He had told about the arrival of Dimitri to Germany again, everything Liliana told Nabila without exception.
“You yourself are stubborn do not want to meet them, or you again think to refer Dimitri?”
Liliana let out a small laugh, her feelings became light after the meeting with Dimitri yesterday. Although the pain still dominates his heart, he consciously decided to bring his son and his biological father together. It should be like this, right?
“Or don't you want to get married again?” guess Nabila.
“Don't think of the macem, deh. Not among it all, I just felt that this was supposed to be.”
There was a sigh across there, after this incident, Nabila had indeed become more sensitive to Dimitri, their relationship that was once quite close, had now stretched. Liliana couldn't blame that, it was Nabila's decision on how she should behave to Dimitri.
“I always do’ain the best for you, whatever it is, I just do not want to be hurt more aja.”
Liliana nodded her head, then realized that they were not making a video call. “Definitely. I'll try so no one gets hurt again now.”
Liliana turned off their phone after saying goodbye. He was also tired of all the drama that happened in his life, he wanted to feel a little happiness. He and the Eagle must be happy, whatever the choice is before them. Everything will begin when Liliana now gives up all her heart pain, of course her heart still feels the pain of being hurt, but slowly she will let go of the pain.
After preparing all his needs, there is not much to prepare because Liliana chose to meet at the nearest restaurant from her apartment building. They just met, and hopefully nothing is too much. He had guessed about what would happen, the heart could not lie, each of them
still have feelings.
At least Liliana did not expect that there would be feelings carried away in the meeting this time, could it? They are two lovebirds who have shared feelings, there are even sons among them, and anyone knows that they both still have the same feelings.
Twenty minutes later, Liliana arrived at the restaurant by the means of an Eagle in her baby carriage. Liliana does choose to walk, in addition to enjoying the fresh air of spring, she also does not have a vehicle, and using public transportation is just a waste of time, he said.
From the entrance of the restaurant, Liliana had already seen Dimitri sitting in the corner of the restaurant, with a small garden view of the restaurant itself. The choice of the man's seat was quite good, the small garden was at least able to calm down when it was possible that the two of them engaged in excessive emotions.
“Have a long wait?” ask Liliana. He felt a little awkward, but still trying to be ordinary, he was quite an expert for this one.
“I'm not too busy, so no problem.” Dimitri gave his smile, then his gaze turned to the tiny creature in the baby carriage.
“I've booked for you, no problem, right?”
“Ya, no problem.”
Then they both fell silent again. “It's Eagle, handsome, right?” Liliana. He stroked the cheek of his son's kingpin who had been awake since.
Dimitri smiled at the baby before him, his smile was very wide. He felt like time had stopped, and he could only look at this son until later. His face was very handsome, and was able to calm the restlessness he had been feeling since.
“His face is very similar to yours,” Dimitri said. His face was still glued to the tiny baby, he was a father and the reality made his smile even wider.
Dimitri's smile was like an infectious disease capable of making Liliana smile as well. This was what should have happened when the first time Liliana gave birth, her heart instantly warmed. For a moment, the pain that was still stored was able to be shifted by the warmth in Liliana's heart due to Dimitri's gaze.
“You tried to carry it?” ask Liliana.
“I don't know how to do it. Like this is enough.” Dimitri looked at Liliana with his smile, he wanted to do that, but he was afraid of something unexpected happening when Dimitri started holding her. He's inexperienced for this one.
“I will show you how to do it, he is now eight months old, will not be as volatile as when newborn.”
Liliana immediately showed me how to hold the Eagle on Dimitri, who was seriously staring at Liliana. “You can take him to your chest just like when he was hugging, he is very calm, and it seems like it is almost in time he took a nap.”
Later, Liliana handed Dimitri the Eagle carefully. The eagle started whining when it was in Dimitri's arms. “You can stroke her back like this so she is comfortable,” Liliana said. He gently stroked the Eagle's shoulder so that his son would calm down.
Their distance was currently quite close, Dimitri could even smell the perfume Liliana was wearing. From this distance he could also be satisfied staring at Liliana, thanks to their height which made things go smoothly. He misses this woman very much.
“Ah, sorry..,”
Liliana seemed to realize their distance was so close, she decided to pull her hand that was still on the back of the Eagle, after all the whining had stopped. Before he could do that, Dimitri had already landed his free palm on Liliana's hand on the Eagle's back.
“What is like this?” Dimitri clasped the hand tightly, and moved slowly over their son's back.
If only the divorce had not happened, now they are a happy family that is very harmonious. Liliana lowered her gaze, this was their first physical contact, and it felt like there was a flow of electricity between their fingers, inflicting an irregular beat on her heart.
**
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