Playboys

Chapter : Confession Bonus

THE DISCLAIMER!

Please abis read this do not blaspheme me, blaspheme Dimitri.

With love, though,

Elien Prita's

That night Dimitri came home to coincide with me just finishing dinner. We used to cross each other at home like this, just not greeting each other. Even just to ask the news I don't want to. I thought my life story was so sad, there was never a sense of happiness that I felt everlasting with me.

“Lili, we need to talk,” he said.

I stopped my steps that were about to enter the room. I can tell that Dimitri is much more unkempt now, the fine hairs on his face are growing a little thicker than usual and he doesn't seem to have shaved. And he was also more lethargic than before. I want to hug the man who became my husband, only I don't want to lose to my ego.

If Dimitri can get what he wants, why can't I? Though what I want is not a complicated thing, he can consciously fulfill that request without having to separate the bed like this.

“What?”

“Better we divorce.”

I turned my body to Dimitri. I didn't hear wrong, did I? I just heard the word divorce, and I think my hearing is still fine. But of all the things we haven't talked about, and after all this time we haven't spoken, it's this sentence that comes out of it.

“Why? So you can be with that woman?” tanyaku. I was even confused as to what to react to, or how to show my emotions, I was just inexhaustible with everything Dimitri had in mind.

“I don't want to hurt you more, everything that is happening right now, I don't want it to affect your pregnancy,” she said.

My eyes suddenly heated up, and tears pushed out of my eyes. It's beyond my emotional tolerance. “You will not hurt me if you want to be honest and love me an explanation.. Instead of asking for divorce..”.

My heart is so claustrophobic, I don't want to fall unconscious like before if my emotions are out of control I can't be too tired, but it also weakens me. Can't I just have my pregnancy in peace? Of all these stifling things, I must remain strong to deal with them. Of course, I can be stronger than this.

I rubbed my tears that were still reluctant to stop flowing. “I'll agree, if you give me an explanation.”

“Lili..”.

“How difficult is it to explain? Or do you want me to know about it from someone else? If you want to hurt me, you better do it with all your heart, don't kill me slowly like this.”

Dimitri was silent, he looked at me with eyes filled with pain. If he feels hurt, why do you have to do this? I really can't understand his way of thinking right now. We could've gotten through this if he'd been a little bit willing to talk about everything, just the communication I needed, not the divorce lawsuit.

“I will sign the divorce papers immediately if you have found the reason, because all I need is that.”

I immediately turned around to leave him. I couldn't have been there longer. One month we were wasted with him asking for a divorce like this, even if divorced, I should have said that first. I was the one who endured all of it, all of my physical and inner pain.

Dimitri was also hurt, but, was he trying to ease this pain? He just added to this pain. And if we get divorced, does our story just end like this? Our previous struggle only ended like this?

I smiled wryly, is having true love this difficult?

**

After our conversation last night, we still did not say hello. I didn't even get out of the room until I heard Dimitri's car moving away from home. I was huddled in my bed, betrayed again and again by the man I loved, who promised me love and heart. When our marriage was not even a year old, he asked for a divorce.

I was tired of crying, bored with my emotions that never stopped when I remembered about the household I was running at this time. I'll figure it all out. If Dimitri doesn't want to tell you in person, then I'll find out. I'm broken, what else do I expect? Getting back destroyed is the best option.

For what is busy guessing and trying to keep my heart, while my heart has been destroyed first. Even with his wickedness he tormented me slowly, replying to heartache with the destruction of others not my style, I will actually make those who leave me feel sorry.

I immediately got out of my sleep and got ready, I already found out who was able to give me the answers to all these questions.

After making sure that I was done, I immediately walked out of the room. This time I will not be accompanied by Mr. Rizal, I will drive myself. Having a driver sometimes helps, sometimes it's a bit annoying in these circumstances. I called Richard earlier, and we'll meet.

I'm pretty sure one hundred percent that Richard knows something, although the chances of him telling me are pretty small, but it never hurts to try. I would do anything to find the truth that Dimitri was trying to cover up.

“You have been a long time?” ask Richard.

Now, Richard's job is no longer a doctor, he helps his parents take care of the business. Still back to Singapore, but he is more often in Jakarta, I don't know what he is doing. It will not be far from business.

“Long time, about fifteen minutes ago.” I gave her my best smile. My face right now had absolutely no signs after crying all night.

“What do you want to see me? You don't usually call me first,” said Richard fully inquired.

“I want to know what happened to Dimitri.” I'm not going to go stale, that's my goal to see Richard. Since I want this to be over quickly, it would be best if I knew right away.

“What do you mean?” asked Richard nervously. Maybe he didn't think that I would ask this, and without further ado.

Maybe it's a little unwise, maybe Richard doesn't know anything about Dimitri, and I'm the only one trying to create another possibility in my head. All of this could happen, right?

“I'm sorry if this is uncomfortable for you, I just need to know the truth, because I'm sure Dimitri won't want to tell you the truth.”

We were silent, busy with our own thoughts. I was so scared behind the face of my tenant, I was still very good at playing the role of the strong woman that ever existed. No matter how much a man hurts me, I will stand firm. The only thing that hurt me was Dimitri.

“I'll be divorced from Dimitri, so I beg you.. Tell me what you know, whatever it is not a problem for me,”.

“You're getting divorced? But why?”

I shrugged my shoulders. “Maybe we are not a match, so you can say whatever you know about Dimitri.”

It's easy to say, but feeling it is very difficult. If I'm going to be ruined after this, then it doesn't matter, I don't have any regrets. Later, it was just me and my son.

“I... Not sure I can say this, I really do not want to interfere in your problems,” said Richard.

I just looked at Richard without saying anything, hoping he would just continue his sentence without delay. I'd be very grateful for that. You know, I've given up on the happy ending I ever dreamed of, like until I age, I'm not gonna get it.

I still didn't say anything, it must be a bad thing and yes, I'm ready to hear it. Although not from Dimitri directly, I am sure the pain will be many times more painful this time. But I'll keep hearing it.

Richard looked at me for a moment hesitantly, like trying to guess my expression, but it was useless. Just a flat face I'm showing, I won't cry no matter what.

“It wasn't me who said this, so I hope after this you don't hate me,” Richard said. “Dimitri and Evelyn slept together, due to a mistake they made that time.”

I'm stagnant. The noise of people passing by, the clinking of cutlery, even the sound of people talking is no longer able to enter my ears. I don't want to believe it, but if it's really like that, what else can I do?

“It was just a one-time mistake, after which they never did again. They were both drunk at the time, and Dimitri deeply regretted what happened back then. I could have sworn that he only loved you, Li,” Richard continued in a hurry.

This was tantamount to digging his own grave, if Richard said everything, it was likely that his friendship with Dimitri would be ruined. Instead of crying, I gave Richard a smile, a big smile.

“Li, I don't mean to add to the problem of becoming more runyam, I'm just—“

“I'm fine, this is what I've wanted to hear since yesterday. I really want to know the truth, I'll make sure you guys stay friendly.”

“Li, I—“

“I plan to see baby furniture, you want nemenin?”

Richard looked at me in disbelief. It should have been, after he said everything I gave a better reaction than this. Raging, crying, fainting, or things that are more extreme than that. I seem to have run out of expression and also run out of sentences to react, or is my heart already numb?

I got up from my seat, on the second floor of this mall I've seen a baby supply store, that's where I'm headed. Richard just followed me without saying any words, I'm sure he's very worried about me right now. This is all I can do, I promise I won't cry again.

“I'm not sure about the gender yet, but it looks like the blue colors like this are quite neutral, yes?” I stood in front of a shelf displaying baby clothes and equipment. I can only find out the gender next month, after all it is too early to prepare the equipment since now.

“How do you think?” I asked Richard.

Richard didn't answer me, he still looked at me worriedly. “I'm fine, throw away your tangled face, Richard,” I said with an amused smile.

“You shouldn't believe it, Li.”

“So how should I? It seems like the road is like this, and not the first time I feel like this, why should I worry.”

I went back around the other shelves that also featured baby clothes of all ages. The further I looked at the different types of baby clothes and equipment, the more it hurt my heart, it seemed like it was fine. I stopped my steps, it seemed like I was going to break my promise. This time only.

“I'm going to divorce, everything will be fine, right?” My tears flowed again without me preventing, I hope this is my last tear.

**

I chose my best outfit tonight, because it's going to be an unforgettable night. At least for me, so I'll make it special. I have also arranged the dining table with my homemade food, helped with Aunt of course, I cannot make this complete food alone. I've been sitting sweetly at the dinner table, waiting for Dimitri's return.

There's no special celebration today, only, I'm trying to make a celebration on this date. I will forget all my troubles for tonight only, I will be happy this time, this time I will not deny. I've told you many times that I really hate the problems that arise in my life.

The sound of a car entering the grounds began to enter my listener's senses, I'm sure it was Dimitri. She had no idea that I was preparing all this, just think of it as a surprise for her. I immediately stepped towards the front door to greet him. When the door opened, I gave my best smile to her, not the kind of forced smile I had before. This is really my sincere smile.

Dimitri looked at me in surprise, maybe he was surprised when he found me standing here welcoming him with a big smile.

“I'm ready for dinner, you want to shower first or directly eat?” my many.

Dimitri was still unmoved in his place, looking at me confusedly. “You want to shower first or directly dinner?” ask again.

“Maybe take a shower first,” he said confusedly.

I gave him a smile back. “Then I wait at the dinner table.”

I re-entered the kitchen, and Dimitri headed upstairs to take a shower. Half an hour later, Dimitri came down with a fresh face and casual clothes. He immediately sat down at the dining table and still looked at me strangely.

“Don't think about me like that, you're like seeing a ghost,” I said with an amused smile.

“I can ask what event is there tonight?” tanyakanya.

I took the rice and side dishes on Dimitri's plate, just like I usually do with him. “It's wrong that I'm like this?

“So, it's kind of weird in my opinion.”

“There's something I want to talk to you about, but we'll eat first. You must be laper, right? You look thinner than before.”

Dimitri displayed his awkward smile. Yeah, for the size of us that we just had a fight yesterday, it's pretty weird what I did this time. Think of it as a ceasefire. It has been quite a month since we had a cold war without producing any results, and also Dimitri who looks more messy than before. I failed at being a wife.

We ate quietly, in a joking mess to melt our awkward-looking atmosphere. To my surprise, I finished my second plate. At least this is my record after facing endless problems.

“What do you want to talk about?” ask Dimitri.

He finished his meal, and so did I. Maybe I'll clean up the dining table after this, which I'll talk about is more important now.

“I agree to divorce,”

Dimitri's face instantly changed, his smile had also disappeared from his face when I finished my speech. Inversely with me who is still loyal to display a smile.

“I've hired a lawyer to take care of it from my side, I'll go back to my parents' house and take care of my pregnancy. But, I can't talk to your parents about this divorce. I think it doesn't matter if you tell me about this.”

I handed her a brown envelope. “That letter I signed, the rest I will leave to my lawyer.”

This is the celebration I'm talking about. I've come to my biggest decision, this is also Dimitri's wish, I just follow him. And I think this is also the best for us. After this, I will promise to be happy again.

**