Playboys

The Past

My mood hasn't improved much since Dimitri's visit to my room that morning. Even though I had found a glimmer of light from all those very gray issues, there was still something that stuck my mind. So on this sudden drizzling Saturday, I decided to meet Richard.

I set it up a few days ago with Richard and he agreed. Only that man can explain everything, I can't hope for Kevin, because he's definitely on Dimitri's side. No one was on my side, I had to endure alone facing all of this.

A coffee shop in the home style I chose to be where we met. I've never told you, but I love coffee. I like the bitter taste that passes through my throat, like giving a sensation of its own, I can even feel calm when inhaling the strong aroma of coffee.

This simple coffee shop offers all that, the decoration of this cafe is very homey, with fragrant coffee that smells

get to the corner of the room. There are not many visitors, most young people prefer Starbucks in a simple cafe appeal. Branding of a brand always gives its own prestige for those who consume it.

There was something different this afternoon, because of the drizzling atmosphere that made the atmosphere sad, and I haven't touched the amerikano I ordered since. Richard's been here since fifteen minutes ago, and we haven't spoken since.

There's no words I prepared for when I met this guy. I just wanted to meet him. I feel like I'd go crazy thinking about all this, and I don't want that to happen, not yet. It will happen later.

“What do you want to know?” ask Richard. He doesn't smile as often as he used to. Time changes a lot of things.

“I just want to meet you, I can brighten my mind with you.”

“You look skinny and..murung. I always feel guilty about it, I also do not want everything to be like this.”

I smiled at Richard. This man is also innocent, only his position is wrong. “The approach you used to do to me, is it just pretend? Or maybe you purposely did it to avenge your sister?”

Richard looked at me softly, and without him answering I felt like he knew the answer. “Ah, what a pity, even though I liked you back then.” I laugh. I don't know what I'm laughing at, but this situation is very funny and makes me always laugh at myself. Turns out I was that stupid and didn't know everything.

“Li..,”

“I won't lie, it really hurts, especially after everything. I even thought, what a bad thing I did in the past made me like this. I'll be fine now, instead you have to tell

everything.”

Richard turned his gaze the other way. He avoided the looks and smiles I gave him. I'm not going to feel guilty, I'm just a victim who's conveying my feelings right now.

Richard sighed slowly before beginning his story. “I don't know where to start this from, it will be a very long story.”

“Not a problem, I'll just listen to it.”

**

Richard and Dimitri were best friends since Junior High, they were always together and familiar until High School. They are very close, because Kevin is also Dimitri's cousin, they are also friends, just not as familiar as Richard and Dimitri. They remain familiar until their sophomore year in High School, but begin to change when a new child enters their classroom. Arumi.

“At least at the time Arumi was the prettiest girl in our entire school, and Dimitri liked the girl. He was always excited whenever he talked about Arumi. Dimitri tried all the ways to make Arumi's heart, but the girl did not easily melt.”

That was what Richard said at the cafe, from the look on his face I could see that he really liked his friendship with Dimitri.

It all starts with Arumi, Dimitri tries to express his feelings for the girl but is rejected. I can very well understand how hurt Dimitri was when he rejected the most beautiful girl in his school. Two days later, Dimitri catches Arumi and Richard at a mall.

The beginning of a misunderstanding capable of destroying the thick friendship between them. “I cannot blame Dimitri, at that age we are indeed in a transition to maturity and must be very unstable. Moreover, I know very well Dimitri lunge in the world of romance, he is very jealous just by looking at me and Arumi. I accidentally met her at the mall because we wanted to meet Michelle, we decided to walk together so as not to be like strangers. But, Dimitri interprets that in other respects.”

I know Dimitri well, it turns out that he already has that possessive nature, and I think he is very suitable if he becomes a female player. So no one needs to get hurt.

“Then where is Arumi now?” my many.

“I don't know, ever since my relationship deteriorated with Dimitri, I started to stay away from that girl. Looks like it's been years and I never get any more news.”

I just nodded my head, understand. “Then what does this have to do with Michelle?”

Richard seemed to think for a while before returning to speak. It seems like uncovering the past is indeed that heavy, moreover it is not a kind of beautiful past. All those wonderful memories were covered up because of a small problem that instantly changed everything.

“I was very angry with Dimitri at the time, but he did not care, he did not believe me at all. He only believed in his understanding that I wanted to take Arumi away from him, and betray our friendship. He said he would do the same to Michelle.”

I shut my mouth hearing Richard's explanation, very surprised of course. Why did Dimitri get that bad when he was just a high school student?

“Both of my parents are not the kind of loving parents, they are more concerned with business than anything. We grew up through the hands of caretakers, and never felt harmonious family affection. I can understand why Michelle was so easily crushed by Dimitri, the man gave me everything my parents couldn't, and so did I. Michelle loved Dimitri so much, she loved him so much, and as Michelle's love grew bigger, Dimitri left my sister for granted. Without any explanation. All I thought at that time was how to exterminate a bastard like.”

I didn't think the story would be like this, I couldn't even react to it. There was no word I could think of as a reaction.

“Sorry to say this, but that's exactly what happened. Michelle even tried to kill herself several times because Dimitri who left her just like that, she was treated at a psychiatrist, routinely undergoing therapy to recover her condition. But I don't think Michelle's memory of Dimitri is so strong, it's not easy for her. In the last two years, he has improved and carried out activities as usual. Then all of a sudden our parents decided to match Michelle up to strengthen their business. I know that Dimitri works here and is close to you, but I didn't know that Michelle would be Kevin.

“He even proposed his own cancellation of engagement with Kevin and asked to be betrothed to Dimitri so that my father's position would be stronger. I know that's just the reason he was looking for, he didn't want to tell me the real reason for canceling the engagement.”

I was driving my car with a chaotic feeling, all Richard's explanations were very hard to forget. Maybe if I asked Dimitri to explain, the story would be different. But the cause of Michelle like this is Dimitri, the man admitted it to me himself.

Let's just say Dimitri was enjoying his karma in the past, I don't know what to feel like. I was nobody in their story, I was just a woman who was suddenly present among them. I can't blame anyone here, in my eyes they're all guilty and serving their sentence.

**

Then what about how I feel about Dimitri? I wanted to be mean and selfish for once, but I felt I didn't deserve that. In view of the various sides, Michelle is more appropriate. The girl had already gone through the toughest phase of her life, even at such a young age. Michelle must still feel that pain, and if I become selfish, I just hurt her more.

I hid my head in my knees. I stayed at the hotel for a few days, I didn't want to risk it at all by crossing paths or going crazy, meeting Michelle. I don't know, I don't think I'm ready.

Dimitri and Kevin. I again avoided the two men as smooth as possible, however I had to work and be professional with my boss. Right now I'm not really showing my true feelings. The meeting with Richard had completely changed my mindset.

I was often seen daydreaming or with a blank look, I was not aware of all that, but Eka told me everything. Sometimes I cringe at myself, but when I go back to questioning myself, ‘what am I supposed to do?’ I didn't find that answer either.

Michelle is no longer approaching me, I'm even more grateful for that. I also have no intention of talking to Michelle. Since the last meeting with Richard, I now rely more on him, and meet him more often, because only that man knows what I'm feeling. More

it's safe to be with him.

There's a new habit that seems pretty good for my lifestyle, but it's not that good either, just good. I'm never in the office again, I always get home on time. I don't want to risk meeting Dimitri by accident in this office. That's a good thing, but I'm actually overtime at the hotel.

Lately I've always had insomnia, the best way is to work. If I hadn't done that, my mind would have floated back to Dimitri and Michelle. So, it can't be said either, because it means I don't have an overtime bonus and my salary will be reduced. I can still think of money in circumstances like

this, it's so amazing that I am.

I looked up at the sound of the car horn, and smiled faintly as Richard lowered his window. We did have an appointment this afternoon, just had dinner as usual, and told a story. Richard, who proposed it, understood very well how painful I was feeling right now.

“How is it today?” tanyakanya. We're already on the highway, which is sure to be jammed because it's office hours.

“Still as usual, nothing special. Meetings, files, signatures, keep going over and over until it feels like my head wants to break.”

“That's your job.”

I just nodded and did not respond anymore. Don't get me wrong thinking we're so familiar because we meet so often. We are still very awkward but trying to eliminate that awkwardness.

“I want to ask you something,” I said after seeing a very long traffic jam ahead there. Twenty minutes later it was confirmed we would be stuck here. “When you first met, did you have any other feelings for me other than your revenge?”

Richard was still staring at the snaking vehicle there, he was still silent until a few minutes later. “Of course there is, but it seems like my wish to destroy Dimitri is greater.”

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This seems very short, and actually do not want to be up but fear you guys will wait so I'm up. Happy reading^^^^