Playboys
Bonus Chapter: Beautiful
My plan is to make you baper with this part, but don't know if it works or not. The one in italicized is the pain of the past yes, so no need to be confused^^
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Did you ever think that what happened to me was so weird or so much? My gestational age has entered the eighth week, and so far I have not felt excessive difficulty, except for the problem of Dimitri and the woman. The rest of my baby-to-be is very understanding to me.
Only one thing is very strange to me, but it's possible that this also happens to all pregnant women in this world. Cravings. It wouldn't be strange if I just wanted a certain food, for me it's so weird. I wanted to be always close to Dimitri, it really happened to me. It's not that I'm exaggerating, maybe deep down in my heart that misses our togetherness the most, and my baby knows it well
this is my deepest desire.
The most surprising thing I just received was Dimitri who took a week off and would accompany me back to my parents' house. This is what I wanted a while back, and Dimitri is doing it now.
“Before your pregnancy enlarges, we should visit the place you want.” That's what he said when I asked him why.
Whatever reason he gives, I will accept, as long as I am always with him. I actually didn't know when this feeling of love came about until I was able to marry Dimitri. My almost seven-year-old friend.
“I will never fall in love with kasanova like you. That type of dream of mine, a man whose heart is only for one woman. It's not like you can change girls all the time, so don't be too hopeful,”.
“Really? You will be satisfied if it is because you have missed the opportunity.” Dimitri showed a slanted smile that he thought could melt the heart of every woman.
“We will never be a couple like you hoped. If you deketin I just make a joke, mending far from me, I am not interested at all.”
“Where if friends?”
I raised my eyebrows in confusion. A fella? Just be right. It's just his clever brain's wits to
tricked me. This man could not have approached me without some intention.
“You think I'm that stupid to believe? My GPA value is near perfect, so I will not be fooled by childish things like this,” I said firmly.
“You bet?”
I looked at Dimitri who had given me a smile full of arrogance.This man always thought that he was everything, and he could get whatever he wanted.
“You will fall in love with me someday, so be sure to fall in love with someone other than myself.”
I laughed at my memories. My initial closeness to Dimitri was very strange in my opinion. When almost every college student on campus knew Dimitri, I was the only one who didn't know him. And all his confidence is worth appreciating, because I enjoy him enough, sometimes very hard to tease me.
Even most of the girls in my college hate me so much because of Dimitri who always follows me. I'm not like most girls are pretty and also fashionable, I'm very modest for the size of a sorority in the capital. Because it was my goal to come to the capital to study, not to spread charm.
When I look back on those days, I will always laugh. Like the most beautiful memories I've ever had. How can a man who is so unlikely to approach my dream type, now become my husband? Even I love him so much.
“You haven't slept?” ask Dimitri. Looks like he just finished his work before we leave for my parents' house tomorrow.
“Not yet, I still finish the items you want to bring tomorrow.”
Our conversation is a little more relaxed now. We're getting closer because of the cravings I'm having, and we can't be awkward forever. Forget about any problems that are happening to us, because I just want to enjoy what is happening to me, problems will always be present. All we can do is
minimize the possibility of this problem becoming bigger, by strengthening the relationship between us for example.
“That song you want to go home?” ask with a big smile.
I shrugged my shoulders. “Depending on how you treated me while there, at least make me trust you more,” my challenge.
“I'd rather if you said ‘to make you love more I’.”
I pretended to think seriously. “Should be without me saying, you should do me.”
Dimitri laughing. Laughter is very contagious for me, because it can make me laugh and also relieve the fatigue that I am suffering. “What if I prove it now?”
Dimitri brought his face closer to me with a mischievous smile created on his lips. “Typically more convincing action in appeal greeting, right?”
I laughed again. My chest rumbled as we got closer, I was nervous, but my lips could not stop smiling and our eyes were not lost. I love this feeling, the feeling that makes me believe that we are meant to be together, face everything, and stay together
even though the storm didn't seem to want to leave our household.
After a storm there is always a rainbow, then after the rainbow is gone, the storm will reappear, then the rainbow will also appear after. That is the life we are living. We cannot expect that everything will be okay, we also need a storm to mature ourselves, to strengthen ourselves even more.
Just enjoy the cycle, and keep it going, it's all about time.
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Mom and Dad were very happy to see us both. Their big smiles are hard to hide. Maybe the last time I was here, my parents already knew something was wrong with our household relationship, but they just kept quiet without even bothering to interfere. Parents always know everything, but they are always quiet. It's always happened to me since a long time ago.
Not that I always kept secrets from both my parents. I never wanted to disappoint my parents, I'm sure everyone did. So I just told them about my success and happiness, I never complained about anything. I will try to solve the problem I am having
alone, if I think I can't, then I'll tell you
them.
Maybe this is one of the personalities I have, I'm used to doing anything alone. Maybe it's a little bit of arrogance that I have, but I'd be proud to be able to solve problems alone. That means I grew up well, right?
“You guys, always come here without notice. Try if you tell me earlier, I can certainly prepare a better meal than this,” said Mother.
“No papa, Mom. This is enough too. We even ngerepotin Mom, even though we can eat outside aja,” said Dimitri.
Mother really does not like if you have to eat food outside, she prefers to cook everything herself compared to going to a restaurant. Not because Mom is stingy, but she always wants to make sure that her son and husband are always nutritious food. Mom is my idol, I always wanted to be her great self to be a mother and also a wife.
I wish I could be like him, my version.
“Tomorrow Mr. Wibisana invites us to attend the seven-monthly event of his son-in-law,” said Mr.
You remember Sadewa, right? The man my father had married at the time, and also my first love in High School. Sadewa is married to his college friend, and his wife is also pregnant. They got married before me and Dimitri. I was so happy when I first heard the news.
Sadewa is a good man, and also very deserving to get a better woman than me. He's like my brother. You also know, right, that first love never works? If you don't know it, then this is new for you to know, I also know this from one of the Korean dramas I've seen.
If there is a first love that works, it may be your destiny. The proof until I finished my college in Jakarta, I had forgotten my love for Sadewa, and instead fell in love with this female player like Dimitri.
“Pas really if so we come here,” said.
Lunch this time I really enjoyed it well, because the warm atmosphere created, and also the people I love are here all. Hopefully things like this will not disappear even though we have returned to Jakarta.
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“You still like Sadewa that?” ask Dimitri. We were getting ready to go to bed after spending the afternoon with my parents.
“What question is it? You know the answer, so why ask again?”
Is this Dimitri jealous because I used to be close to Sadewa? It's funny that Dimitri really thinks that way. Though we used to do nothing to make Dimitri jealous, but he was very easily provoked if he knew I was close to one of the men, whoever it was, even Kevin.
“Who knows you still like him.”
I laughed when I heard his words. I leaned my body to look at him. Seeing Dimitri's jealous expression was an amusement to me. It's all started since Dimitri decided to be friends with me. You know, right, that since college I've never had a boyfriend
because Dimitri is strictly forbidden? He was very possessive even before we officially got in touch.
“Why are there guys in your group?” ask Dimitri.
I looked at Dimitri with a clueless look. Just be right. This is just a task group, and what determines the group is the lecturer, how could I possibly choose? There is something wrong if one group with men, anyway we do the task, not do the strange thing.
“Your questions are not important. Are you a lecturer who can be the same who should I make a group? Don't be silly, Al.”
“You don't know what a guy can do, he can just later he—“
“This is Beni, the most diem student and never macem-macem.”
“Just because he's a pendiem, you don't know what he's really like.”
I stared at the grandiose Dimitri with his opinion. Sometimes I find myself very obedient to something, and once I realize it, I'll wonder myself. Even you were never this protective of me, because I also knew my limits as a woman.
“You think all men are like you? You also do not have the right to regulate me, you must understand your limits.”
“Somewhere from your possessive nature, from the first you are possessive when you do not have any relationship with me,” said I.
Dimitri also tilted his body, and looked at me. “Because I love you.”
My cheeks heated up hearing the confession sentence coming out of her lips. Dimitri said it with a serious look on his face and looked me straight in the eye, without a smile. Terrible but also very sexy, I think of course. You might say that it was horrible, how could he say that his possessiveness was because he loved that person?
Indeed this is how Dimitri, I also sometimes still do not understand the way of his mind. But he can also sometimes be the sweetest man among all the men there are. It only takes patience when dealing with it, the rest will flow as it is.
“I never even thought that we would get to the stage of marriage, even going to be parents soon. Everything was like a dream to me.”
Dimitri stroked my cheek gently. No words came out of Dimitri's lips, we just stared at each other. Hope this gaze is able to give the answer to all the unanswered questions that are so many among us. I'm not going to say any of those questions.
Right now, and also until our holiday period here is over, I will just enjoy it. I will not burden my mind with all the possibilities and realities that I may find very difficult to accept for myself.
As I said earlier, the human cycle is always spinning, and will always stop in the same phase. All those problems must pass, and will provide invaluable life lessons. But, why should it be complicated to think about it if it only has a very dangerous effect on our bodies and emotions?
“We will definitely be great parents later. I'm so lucky to have you and fight for everything for you. I don't know what will happen in the future, but right now, and the time to come, I will always love you,” Dimitri said.
As long as we were married, there had never been any serious talk like this. We also never planned to have children, we just went through what was, and if God really wanted to leave us the sustenance through the baby in my womb, we will take care of him and accept
this new responsibility is well.
My tears slowly flowed down my cheeks. Maybe because of the pregnancy hormones, it makes it very easy to feel emotional. But, these are tears of happiness, and also haru. Hearing Dimitri say this directly, as if strengthening me to continue to endure. Maybe my trust in him was not as unanimous as the past between us, but he was my husband, wouldn't it be better to trust him to the end?
He could have lied to me, but what is needed in a relationship is communication and trust. If I miss both of them and choose my ego, then I am very guilty here. There must be communication between both parties to resolve the issue, not just ascribe our opinions
it is the most correct.
“Many things make me doubt, you know for yourself what happened to me. All I need is honesty from you, no matter how bitter it is, just say it. That's all I need,” I said.
Dimitri brought his body closer to me, kissed my forehead, then hugged me. “My heart can't be that easy to change. You are the only thing that is valuable and the one I love the most, and I will not let you go that easily.”
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