Playboys

Hurt

“Kita

best friend, and will forever be, Dimitri.”

Dimitri

looking at me with cold eyes, I didn't understand the contents of his head when

this, but I'm really upset right now. I know he didn't sincerely say that, though,

that's what pisses me off.

“Friends

won't have sex, Leena.”

Ia

just call me Leena when I get upset and angry, and I have to

heard it tonight. I also know that no friend does anything

that, the truth, hurt me even more. “It was my fault, and I regret it.

This has nothing to do with you asking me to be a girlfriend.”

Dimitri

very different tonight, his eyes look colder. My eyes are very

it's heating up, and tears are already clumping on my eyelids. This is not what I want.

“What

your reason for all this? So I can stay away from Richard? Or because of another problem? Ye

never give me a reason for all your actions, you're always selfish, you're not

realize that?!” I really yelled at him. I'm too sick of everything

this curiosity, and I'm upset that no one wants to give me

clarity.

Silent.

We were both immersed in each other's thoughts. We never

fighting this big, this was the first time in six or seven years

then, I forgot to count how long we've been friends.

“Kita

already know each other, what are you worried about if we are dating, is not it

that's a good thing?” said it. This time he softened his voice, but I've

disappointed already. Disappointed because there was no sincerity at all in his words. This

it's not Dimitri I know.

“I

going down. Calm your mind, I know you're facing a lot

problem.”

Times

it's me actually coming out without a check of his hand. I feel a broken heart

for the first time, because of the man I claimed to be my best friend. I don't know what

we can still be called friends for now. That friendship

it seems like I've been damaged since six months ago, when I volunteered

giving up my body for her, I just didn't realize it.

My feelings

feels very mixed, there is not a single feeling that is able to represent what

how I feel. Whether disappointed or angry, obviously my heart hurts a lot

now it's.

**

Tak

something changed in my job even though I was fighting with

Dimitris. It's been almost two weeks since that night, and until now

I didn't talk to him one bit. He is also rarely seen in the office,

the reason for the meeting outside or the business trip, I also did the same thing

same. It's very clear I avoid it when I cross paths or happen to be

in the same meeting with him.

Kevin

it also seems to silence me. We only talk about work professionally,

there's absolutely no gap for me to tell Kevin what's going on,

although I know Kevin must have known what happened.

Richard, by,

that guy hasn't called me intensely, though sometimes he still does

send me messages occasionally. Our meeting was not as intense as usual. I let

only, because there's nothing else I want to talk to her about.

Michelle, sir,

he used to visit our office a lot, I often saw him enter the room

Kevin's. I caught him once in Dimitri's room. It's none of my business

indeed, but there were various feelings in my heart when I saw that scene. Flavored

the annoyance that dominates me so much right now, why is that girl the past

they were able to easily reverse our friendly relationship?

“What

still have a schedule for this afternoon?” ask me to Eka when she hands over the file

my office.

“Cosong, ,

Mbak.”

“I

go home if so, if there is still a file that is left behind, you send it to

my apartment is aja.”

Eka

just nodded my head and left my office. It's still hitting

two in the afternoon, and I never came home at this hour. The first time again

career worked. Let's just say I'm resting, I haven't taken it either

my cut for this year.

I

immediately clean up the things I need to carry, then immediately get up from

my seat. I was planning to visit Nabila actually, it's just a girl

it is still busy with various meetings and projects for the magazine that will be

rise. I lost all my friends, and I was left alone

at present.

Tak

there's something bad about it, but because we stayed away from it caused one problem,

that's what makes it bad. There was one new habit I had for two years

current week. I always wear earphones to prevent other employees from greeting me when passing by. My mood

it's bad, so I can't greet other employees kindly. This is how I'm

avoiding others.

I

already in the elevator alone with the earphones attached, and hands busy playing mobile phones, he said,

it's also part of my camouflage. I am getting more active on social media because

this is, even though what I do is just look at the instagram feeds that-that's it.

Congratulating

come to my miserable life.

Elevator

take me to the basement, I don't

I want to take risks by meeting a lot of people. If Nabila sees me when

this, he will surely gladly curse me, and I will just

accept it. I need Nabila to recover the madness I started

long ago, it was too late to realize.

I

walking towards my car, which turned out to be next to Dimitri's. My memories

I started to remember the first time I had sex with Dimitri,

when Christian Bagaskara tried to harass me. I stared at the car for

for a moment, and then smiled wryly. Why so many memories, I even

remember that thing?

Attempts

to refocus, I started to continue my steps, but stopped coming back

when I heard the sound of the car. I smiled wryly again, he remained

Dimitri was at the end, and I was smart enough to know what the voice just now was.

I'm not her first woman anyway, I'm just a too careless friend.

I

heated the volume of music on my phone, and rushed to my car. This isn't

the sight I should have met, better forget it.

**

Was

I wanted to visit the club, to let go of this mind load, but I

undo that intention. Getting drunk might solve the problem, but I can

it just adds a new problem, and I want to avoid any problems right now. So then

I've only locked myself in an apartment since I got home this afternoon.

I

cleaned my whole apartment like crazy. I've been very similar

a heartbroken man. It's so dear because I don't have one

the person to call, maybe this is the reason why others are always looking

many friends. When a time like this comes, I can choose

to lean on whom.

This

no big deal, time will cure everything. This whole pain

it's gonna disappear, it just takes a little time. Unasked, these tears began

flows again. Liliana, the fool crying over her problem.

“Search

me when you're sad, I'll beat up anyone who hurts you.” It's speech

Dimitri when he found out I broke up with my only boyfriend.

I

hugging my knees, my tears fell. My heart hurts when

I don't have anyone in this town anymore. I wanted to call Mom, but I

I don't want to add to his worries.

My phone

suddenly ringing, I glanced at the name of the caller on my phone. Kevin's. I just

let the phone ring until it finally turns itself off. I

deciding to disable that phone, I wanted to spend my time

alone. I wiped my tears, I never cried so good

preceding.

I

also confused, which part is the lattice. All the things I do are

own fault. Is it because Dimitri is unaffected by this? He even

make love in his car, then I cry alone like crazy. Really

the undefined madness.

Subsequent to

arguing with my own mind, I decided to finish

my job. That's the most neutral thing ever, than I ever was

visiting the club and will cause new problems. I'm handling wrong

one big project, a proposal I've sent and I'm just waiting for approval

of them.

I

always excited about new projects, in addition to the big bonuses, I am too

it will get busy. I'm not gonna let my mind think about Dimitri and

the problems that follow it.

**

“I

want Big Brother to help me get close to Dimitri.”

I

raising an eyebrow at the crazy request Michelle had just made. Him

got engaged to Kevin, then asked me to bring him closer and

Dimitri, that's right! Is this girl still sane?

“Why

I have to do it?” tanyaku.

Girl

it forced me to meet him at lunchtime, which I should have spent

enjoying my lunch at the office. I'm crazy too

follow the girl's request. I should have just refused.

“I

never told Brother, but I was dating Dimitri when

High School, and I know Dimitri still has the same feeling as me,”

with that bright smile.

“Then

why are you engaged to Kevin? Why not Dimitri?”

“I

don't love Kevin, and neither does Kevin have any feelings for me. Kevin

won't mind this.”

What

I'm talking to a human? Why am I so upset with the tone

his cheerful speech, he really had no feelings at all. At least

think of the parents who arranged the engagement.

“Dan

you're sure Dimitri still loves you, your feelings have passed greatly

long.”

“I

already proved that. If he doesn't love me, then we won't make love

that afternoon. We even had to do it in the car because of his passion.”

My memories

turning around when yesterday I heard a sigh from inside Dimitri's car. So then

that's both of them. It was so funny that I couldn't make my laugh

or I just have to be angry. I know Dimitri really likes to play women, but

why should this girl be among the many choices.

What

is she out of stock for women? Why didn't he just come to me? Oh, we

not even talking at all, it's been three weeks now.

My phone

it rang, and I saw Eka's name on the screen. I immediately picked it up. Then soon

close it when Eka is done talking. “Sorry, but I have to go. I

who will pay for this coffee.”

I

she moved on without waiting for Michelle's answer. Lucky Eka called me, I

so no need to linger chatting with this girl.

Because

the distance between my cafe and office is not far, I only need ten minutes to

to this sudden meeting. I haven't even touched my lunch, and

I missed breakfast this morning because I woke up late. Why my life is

messy at one time like this?

“Mbak

alright? How big is the shoot, Ma'am?” Eka greeted me at the meeting room door

with a worried face. I also think the same, my stomach acid is already very

makes my stomach wraps.

“Act

papas. Just have a regular lunch at the office, finish the meeting I want

eat,” I told him.

Eka

just nodded his head, still with that worry. I'm soon

entered the closed meeting room after breathing in a few times. I

sure there's Dimitri in this room. The project I said last night, it turns out

it has been accepted and this is an impromptu meeting to discuss the concept of related clients

therein

Hadith

Prasetyo, he is the owner of a growing telecommunications company

by leaps and bounds. It's been a week since I sent you that proposal

he asked, I thought the project was going to fail, but he agreed when

I didn't expect much from the company.

Only

there are Managers who head their divisions, as well as Kevin and Dimitri

who's in this meeting room. I put my smile on the meeting participants

this time, I avoided Dimitri's piercing gaze.

“Sorry,

I have another meeting before here.” I immediately sat in that chair

there's still a lot left. Away from Dimitri and Kevin's sight.

**

Meetings

it was finished sooner than I expected. I thought it would take some time

for hours, because this time's a big client I'm dealing with, but I

I am also thankful that I did not have to endure the pain in my stomach for a long time..

I

hurry to the elevator. When the elevator was about to close, I was shocked when there was

another hand held the elevator door closed. And I was even more shocked

when I saw Dimitri coming into the elevator. I put my body back to

elevator angle. It's very awkward, and the elevator has completely closed.

I

tightened the handle on my bag strap. My stomach is getting tighter, and I

also sure my face is turning pale. I was shocked when Dimitri suddenly

put his arm around my waist.

“What

what are you doing all day until your face is so pale?!” snapped it.

I

didn't answer. I was just focusing on my pain getting wrapped up, but

I was a little grateful to him for supporting my body. After that, nothing

again, a conversation between us.

Elevator

it's open right in my office. I could see Eka standing up straight from

his chair saw me in Dimitri's arms. I immediately let go

my body from Dimitri's embrace and changed into holding Eka's arm as a support.

Dimitri looked surprised by that.

“Antar

I'm in, Ka.”

Eka

he looked very fondly at Dimitri, and just nodded his head. I've been

don't turn around to look at Dimitri or thank him. I thought, I thought,

I'm not in the mood to thank him, I didn't ask for it either

doing something like that. Let me be selfish for myself this time,

Dimitri's not that important to me.

**

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