PASUTRI (On Love & Happiness)

CHAPTER 64

Faza and Zahra arrive right in front of the hotel where Zahra accidentally sees a figure very similar to his father-in-law.

“This is the hotel?” Faza asked as he stared at the towering building in front of him.

“Iya mas.” Nod Zahra.

Faza sighed. Faza's conjecture of what his papa was hiding was inexplicably getting stronger. Faza did not pay too much attention to his papa that was always busy and almost every month out of town later this year. But after hearing his papa conversation with someone back then Faza became a little suspicious. What else Zahra also said that increasingly made Faza suspicious of his papa.

“Mas.” Call Zahra slowly.

“Ya darling.” Faza turned his head to look at Zahra who was standing next to his motorbike.

“We want to go inside?” Ask Zahra.

“Ya, we'll go inside.”

Zahra was silent for a moment. I don't know why Zahra suddenly felt worried.

“But..”.

“Pokonya I want to buy this bag yes mas.”

Zahra's words were interrupted by a woman who managed to attract the attention of Zahra as well as Faza. At that time also Faza's jaw hardened with a hand that gripped tightly the handlebars of his motorbike. Feeling very angry Faza immediately came down from his motorbike and then stepped wide towards his papa who was stepping hand in hand with a woman who Faza knew was his own papa secretary.

“Papah.” Call Faza with a loud voice.

Papah Faza turned his head and immediately stopped stepping as well as the woman beside him. For a moment the man who still looks handsome at his age who is no longer young looks surprised but then smiles thinly like not feeling guilty about what he has done.

“You go first. Later I will follow ” By papah Faza on his secretary who according to then passed as soon as Faza stood right in front of him.

“Faza.. Already papah surmised.”

Faza's breathing began to be irregular because of the emissions that control it now. His face remained relaxed and calm even though his unflattering deeds were clearly visible to the eldest son.

“What is papah doing behind mommy all this time like this?” Faza growled with a pressing tone in every word.

Papah Faza sighed then looked at Zahra who was standing next to his son's motorbike. Papah Zahra smiled. Yesterday he also saw Zahra chatting with his friends at an ice cream shop not far from the hotel where he was staying. Papah Faza had expected that what he did would be known to Faza.

“We talk inside Faza. Invite your wife to come in.”

It's like nothing happened. Papah Faza stepped so coolly into the hotel lobby passed from the front of Faza who had been controlled by his emotions.

Faza then approached Zahra and grabbed his wife's hand leading him to follow the papah who had entered the hotel first. Faza even continued to be silent and stepped so wide and fast regardless of Zahra who seemed to have difficulty stepping in balance.

As soon as he arrived at the room where his papa was staying Faza immediately pointed at his papa with various questions without caring if there was Zahra beside him.

“Why papah do this pah? What's wrong mamah?”

Faza was angry but also sad. Faza wanted to cry to see the depraved behavior of his own papa. The man who during his life Faza was proud because he could always calm down to face his selfish attitude mamah.

Questions and swearing came out from Faza's mouth involuntarily. Zahra who was beside Faza could only be silent and gently rubbed her husband's arm trying to calm him through touch. Although occasionally Zahra grimaced to feel the tight grip of Faza in his hand that increasingly felt tight.

Papah Faza smiled at her. Wrong, of course the man also noticed it. But no matter how patient Faza faced to the egoism of his wife, the man was still an ordinary man who could not avoid temptation when his heart was empty.

“Sit first Faza.” Said calm.

Faza shook his head. His fists felt very itchy to want Faza to lay on the man who had been wrong he had valued all this time. The man who was none other than his own papa, a role model that Faza considered great.

“I would not sit in a dirty place like this pah.. Now it's better to finish all this before you know. I do not want to if until mamah hurt because of this papah behavior.”

Papah Faza laughed softly. The man could read what was now lodged in the brain of his first son.

“You can rest easy Faza. This place is clean. No one came in before you and your wife. Even if there is at least only a clean handyman. Papah still knows the limits of Faza.” Quietly said.

Papah Faza stared at Faza from top to bottom until finally his gaze stopped on Faza's hand which tightly grasped Zahra's small hand.

“Leave your hand on your wife if you really don't want your wife to get hurt.” His advice.

“Papah don't have to advise me. I know what I have to do. Papah alone can hurt mamah.”

Faza's words shocked Zahra. Faza was like showing his papa that he can also hurt women.

Papah Faza got up from his seat then stepped closer to Faza and stood right in front of Faza.

“Do not follow papah's footsteps. Your wife is not like your mom.” Said slowly.

“Why? Papah does not want me to hurt women but papah even hurt mamah?”

For a moment Faza's papah bowed his head before finally looking back at Faza who continued to stare hatefully at him.

“Please know, for me mamah is a very valuable woman. Mamah will not be compared to anyone whatever the reason.” Press Faza.

I don't know why hearing that Zahra felt sick. Zahra felt that there was no meaning to Faza now. Zahra knows she doesn't deserve to be jealous because Faza has a different love for her and Sinta. But Zahra felt Faza's speech as if he was upholding her but forgot her existence.

“All children will think like that of Faza. But Papah is sure you know how your mom is. Papah does this not because he does not love your mother. Papah just wants there to be women who really depend on papah. Women who can appreciate papah, believe the same papah that papah can. But Papah didn't find that on your mama. You just want to always be right and heard. Even for the best for you and Fadly Papah never listened to. Everyone should follow your mom including you too Fadly. Papah is sure you feel it too Faza. I'm sorry to disappoint you with what you see. But you need to know Faza papah never did anything with bella. Papah only feels happy and comfortable because he appreciates and wants to rely on papah.”

Faza did not know what to say now. The long words of his papa are true. He always wants to win by himself and always feels the most right. But whatever the reason Faza still can not understand what his papa did.

“Whatever the reason papah Faza still can not accept. And if until you know and until the heartache because of this Faza will never be able to forgive papah.”

“Come Zahra we go from here.”

Zahra complied as Faza pulled her out of the hotel room where her papa was staying. Faza was unaware of his wife, who could not see clearly the direction of his footing because of the tears that pooled in both his eyelids.

“Yes God... Why it hurts so much.”