PASUTRI (On Love & Happiness)

CHAPTER 188

Zahra turned her head when she heard the sound of the door being opened. From behind it appeared the figure of Faza with his handsome face reddened and his two eyes were caused.

Zahra smiled faintly trying to cover up the pain that was whipping all over her body. Zahra did not want to make her husband worry about her any more.

“Mas..”.

“Hay darling..” Faza's smile grabbed Zahra's hand then kissed Zahra's back.

Faza smilingly looked at his wife's face that was soaked in sweat. Gently Faza rubbed Zahra's beautiful face clean her from the sweat that washes her.

“Mas..” In a loud voice Zahra called her husband back.

“Ya darling..” Soft Faza Saut.

“I want to apologize to you.. Me...”

“Sshh... No need to apologize.. There is nothing to forgive, dear.. You are not wrong.” Sela Faza did not want to hear any reason Zahra blamed herself.

“Mas but I..”.

“I love you dear.. I love you.” Sela Faza again.

Zahra sighed. Both of his eyes looked deeply at Faza who again interrupted what he wanted to say.

“I should be the one apologizing to you. I am always busy and have almost no time for you almost every day.. I can rarely be there for you.”

Zahra hissed as she again felt that intense contraction.

Faza who saw that was instantly silent. Faza clenched his hands together unable to bear the sight of Zahra in pain.

“Mas.” Lirih Zahra held back that feeling.

“I believe you can get through this baby.. For the sake of our son.” Faza's whisper drew his face closer to Zahra's.

Zahra smiled and nodded her head. All for their son. Zahra had no problem enduring the pain as long as she and Faza could be together with their nearly nine-full son they were looking forward to.

“Now let me transfer my energy for you dear.. What should I do?”

Zahra laughed amidst the pain that was whipping her body. Faza's words tickled him a little.

“Limpan me mas.. It feels hot.” Said.

“Then what should I do to relieve him?” Faza asked attentively looking at Zahra.

“If you don't mind please wipe my waist rich earlier yes mas.” Pinta Zahra who immediately got the nod agreed from Faza.

“At least I don't feel any objection dear.” Faza's smile then immediately positioned himself sitting behind Zahra who was lying on his side on top of the gurney to the left.

10 Hours is not a short time. During that time Faza continued to be beside Zahra, accompanying her with great haru, fear, and of course worry. So tense Faza did not even feel the kebelet pee at all. Though several times Faza led Zahra who urinated. Faza offers to hold Zahra in the bathroom, but Zahra refuses, arguing that she is still strong if only for the bathroom.

“Sick mas..” Rintih Zahra after finishing peeing.

Faza swallowed his saliva. They're in the bathroom right now. And Faza just helped Zahra clear her pee path.

Gently Faza pressed his lips against Zahra's lips for a few seconds.

“You great girl darling.. I believe you can.” Lirih Faza while tidying up Zahra's slightly messy haircut.

Zahra nodded with a smile in her tears. The process of becoming a mother is truly amazing.

“Mas..” Call Zahra purau.

“Ya darling..” Saut Faza who swiftly got up from his seat.

“I'm thirsty.” Zahra.

“Ah yes dear.. Are you hungry too?”

Zahra shook her head in reply. Zahra was eager to look back but it felt impossible.

“Good, I'll get you a drink.”

Faza grabbed a glass of water on the side table of Zahra's gurney and softly and affectionately lent it to Zahra.

Faza smilingly looked at Zahra who occasionally grimaced and closed her eyes. Faza tau being in Zahra's position must be very difficult at this time. The life of Zahra is at stake for the birth of the fruit of their love.

“Mas.. I love you.” Zahra's smile with a face soaked in sweat.

Faza laughed softly. His chest felt very weak and helpless to see his wife above the gurney.

“I know that, baby.. I love you too.. The spirit, dear.. For our son's sake.. I believe you can definitely get through this.”

“Of course. I am strong for both of you. You and our son.” Reply Zahra lirih.

Faza smiled. Guilt is eating away at him. Faza felt very cruel because during Zahra's pregnancy she was too busy by work. Plus his feelings that had been adrift in other women. Zahra would have been very angry if she had known. It was not even impossible for Zahra to leave him because Faza had betrayed his loyalty.

But Faza was determined. He will be honest with Zahra. Whatever the consequences Faza will bear later.

“Sayang..”.

Faza stroking soft cheek chuby Zahra. The two of them looked at each other with love.

“Our son.. He would be very proud if he knew your struggle is so extraordinary at this time.. He will love you very much.”

Zahra smile.

“Mas.. Ever since I decided to accept your proposal then marry it I've been convinced. I knew this day would come.. I never felt like this was a burden. I feel more like all this is such a beautiful destiny that God gave to our people as women. To be able to give birth to a pure creature that is clean from all sins is the most beautiful gift and power that God gives. And God chose you as the man who laid his seed in my womb.. I'm so grateful for this all mas.”

Zahra said at length with occasional grimacing and faltering because of the contractions that kept coming whack her body.

Faza smiled haru. His wife's sacrifice was so great. Not just want to bear the baban as a pregnant woman. But also the inner burden because Sinta who often presses him.

“Sshh.. Jesus Christ..”

Zahra grabbed Faza's hand and grasped it tightly. Then Cindy's doctor and a few nurses came in. Cindy's doctor very gently asked Zahra to lie on her back to check on Zahra's opening.

“How is doctor?” Faza asked who was standing next to the left of Zahra's gurney.

“The opening is complete sir. Madam Zahra will be giving birth soon.” Answer doctor Cindy.

Faza felt his heartbeat work faster than normal. Both of Faza's legs felt limp so suddenly. But Faza remembered what the papah had said. He was beside Zahra to strengthen and encourage Zahra, not to make her weaker because he saw her so weak and afraid.

“Please try your best doctor.” Pinta Faza sincere.

“Definitely mr. Let's help Mrs Zahra together. God will surely make this amazing process easier.” Doctor Cindy's smile.

Everything is prepared. Faza sat beside Zahra, grasping and whispering words to encourage Zahra who began to get instructions from Cindy's doctor. Although with a troubled heart and mind, Faza still tried to look strong with a smile on his lips. Both of his eyes kept on shedding tears. His heart screamed in pain at Zahra's agony. Faza even asked God to move all the pain Zahra was experiencing on him. And that is something that is very impossible because actually a woman does have the same nature. That is giving birth to the fruit of his love with the man who became his soul mate.