My Love Story With 5 Men's

Is he the fifth man? Or just experimental material?

Feeling the change in my life that was starting to feel a little calm I was quite happy. But I found it a little strange since Cristan began to show a slightly sweet attitude towards me. I don't know what her next goal is, I can only wait and will act after she exposes her true intentions.

A lot of strange behavior since that day, not only Cristan, Adi who previously made me a little amazed, that day he showed more attention to me. Until then, I did not know what Adi really looked like. I tried to find out what her daily life was like, I secretly tried to brave her contribution to Nugrah. Ask Nugrah, because I feel Nugrah know a little about Adi and all the events I can know each other with Adi even though without any restrictions, it all started because Nugrah dropped my card. So I thought, there's no harm in pocket asking about Adi to him. Before I asked, I asked Nugrah not to tell Adi that I asked him about her. Nugrahpun agreed, so I began to dare to revolt the question to Nugrah. There are only a few who can answer Nugrah and tell about Adi, because Nugrahpun know Adi not too long ago, they know each other since they became students.

When I found out a little about Adi from Nugrah, I was a little surprised when Adi told me about Adi's parents' work, which was the same as my father's, so I was a little brave trying to open my heart to Adi. There are several reasons why I have tried to vent my heart to Adi since I learned of her parents' work from Nugrah, because I'm a little insecure if the man who approaches me is far from me.

Being aware of myself coming from a poor family, makes me a little unwilling to accept men who try to approach me if they are from a family that can be said to be capable, he said,. I'd better get away when the guy approaches me, before I start liking him. Apalgi if I find out if the man who approached me is rich, but it is unlikely that there will be rich men who want to approach women from the village whose status my family can be told from mediocre families.

I have to be careful in choosing a partner, not only to know who he is, but I also have to know him from among the family that goes into which category. Opening your eyes and ears is very important in finding a girlfriend. I don't know what someone would think if I knew I was too serious about finding a boyfriend, because I was 18 years old. I myself do not understand, because from the beginning of my principle, if you have a boyfriend you want him to have a very long relationship. And I also have a dream, I hope that someone who will be my boyfriend can be my husband someday.

With me only 18 years old, getting married easily was never thought of.  However, I always hoped that, even if it was only a courtship status, at least I wanted one heart enough to have one love until the time came when I was mature enough to think about marriage. I also know, it is very difficult if you want to establish an old relationship p[let alone to get to the pelaminan. I myself am not sure if I can also hold my own principles, because my target for marriage is at the age of 26 years. when I imagine if I date at 18 and five months I'll be 19. When I think about it, if I have been dating since the age of 18 years and wish one heart one love to get married and to death to leave,  that means I have to date eight to nine newly married years. I don't know if my dream in a relationship is too high. But there is no harm if I expect such a relationship.

　

That day when Adi came home from college trying to contact me, he asked me about my time that day. Because that day I did not want to go anywhere after coming home from college, so when Adi asked about my time, I also replied that I did not have time to go anywhere that day.

 I didn't ask him myself why he was asking about whether I had the time of the day or not.

I wasn't surprised when he accepted the terms I was given, but there was one condition from me that made me a little less sure he could handle it, which was that he had to quit smoking.

Because I have said that I will accept her love, if she is ready to apply the terms of me, that day was exactly 7 months 11 years 2011 I accepted her love Adi.

Not only does he get there, if he crosses the terms he has agreed to, he also has to accept the consequences, which is that he has to accept if our relationship has to end.

Dare to say to end a relationship if he breaks my terms, because I myself am not sure if I can love him, because until then I only knew him.

Looking at the situation and how long we have known each other, it is full of question marks if someone knows my relationship with Adi. So I asked Adi not to tell anyone about my contact with him from that day on, Adi agreed to what I said.

Relationships do not always have to be shown to others, but my intention at that time was not to not want people to know my relationship with him. It's just that I don't want to be torn apart so that the people around me can know my relationship.

It was not the first time in my life to give such conditions to someone who would be my girlfriend, because I had tried to give such terms to my former colleagues.  So for myself it will not be a problem if you have to secretly establish a relationship without telling someone, because without speaking for a long time people around me or he will also know.

If Adi doesn't go through the terms I'm given, I don't know if I'm a survivor and can love him. I hope no one gets hurt, that's why I told myself that I was capable and ready with whatever was going to happen. In order for there to be no doubt, fear, and lack of self-confidence, it was all I fought with courage.