My Love Story With 5 Men's

Not only did I lose myself, but I also lost myself.

That breaking word that Richie said made me shocked.

"Is what you're saying really serious?" (Many ).

"I'm serious, hope you get better than me, and hopefully you don't do the same to your partner someday. Because if you doubt it, then that person will definitely feel the same way as me".

"If that's what you want, I can't do anything else. Thank you for ever being present in my life, hopefully my brother also gets better than me. I'm sorry I haven't been the best. Once again I'm sorry if I've done too much wrong to you, and disappointed you". (And here's the last word SMS between me and Richie's sister).

Suppose he knew, When he broke off with me, it was the hardest thing I've felt in my life to date. I don't know if I can live this life. I was afraid to have a serious relationship with someone again. I'm really depressed, I'm like a crazy person. I don't know who to tell who I'm going through tonight. I can only lock myself in my room. Until my grandmother called my name to dinner together, I did not leave the room and did not make a sound. My grandmother stopped calling my name, maybe she thought I was asleep.

Until dawn I could not sleep. I could only cry until my tears couldn't come out again. As usual I always wake up at dawn and pray. When I pray, I usually sit in front of the house. But at that time, during the dawn prayer, I immediately washed my dirty clothes and took a shower. I also wear my school uniform. When I unlocked my room, I intended to go out for breakfast that morning with my grandfather. Suddenly I fell right behind the door of my room, after which I was unconscious.

About 20 minutes, Aunt Yuli, who was in charge of driving me to school that morning, called my name. Because there was no reply from me, Auntie Yuli tried to knock on my door. No response from me. Auntie Yuli saw my room was unlocked, she tried to get in. But the door of the room could not be fully opened, because it was blocked by me. Because of the position at that time, I fell unconscious right behind the door of my room. Tente Yuli was worried, finally she called my Grandpa and Grandma as well as my cousin sister. My smallest cousin was asked to go into the room, to open the window.

When my cousin's sister managed to get in and open the window of my room, Kakeku went straight into my room through the window of my room and immediately moved me to my bed. My aunt and Grandma immediately entered my room, and tried to call out my name while putting eucalyptus oil right in my face and rubbing it in my body.

Not long after, I started to open my eyes. I asked what happened, Aunt Yuli related what happened to me that morning.

"Body you have a fever, why did you take a shower this morning? (Ask my grandmother).

"I didn't know I had a fever, it's just that I was feeling a bit dizzy from this morning. I was thinking, it's because I didn't eat last night" (My mouth ).

"Yes today you don't have to go to school, you just rest at home. Aunty will come to your school to tell you about your current situation" (Sahut Tanteku ).

"When if you feel unwell, don't hide it. Tell your Grandpa, Grandma or Aunt" (My Grandpa's Law)

"Yes Kek, I'm sorry that I've made the whole house worry about me. I'm asking you please don't tell my mom, she'll worry. Anyway I just have the same fever dizzy a little, at least tomorrow also can school" (Sahutku).

"Yes.., you don't have to worry. Better now you have breakfast first, after that you can rest again!!".

Selsai ate my breakfast that morning, I went straight into the room. I'm still thinking about my relationship with Richie, but whatever I do, he's cut off my relationship with me. When I give someone my love, it means I can be loyal to one man. But why can't my love and loyalty make him maintain this relationship.

A few hours later, I thought that if I stayed alone in my room, I could be more stressed. I finally decided to lie down in front of the TV and watch with my youngest cousin's sister. He was watching cartoons, and the movie was really funny. He laughed out loud, but unlike me, I couldn't laugh at that moment, which I held back my tears.

"Yes hello Tami" (Sahutku ).

"Say you're sick, what's sick?" (Tanya tami and my other KUACI group friends ).

"I just have a normal fever, tomorrow God willing can enter the room again".

"It was me and my classmates who were also worried when they heard you were sick. In three days we will face a practice test".

"Yes, greetings to all friends. Thank you for worrying about my situation".

"You're good - good rhyme, because last night I saw your status on facebook the word - he said very sad so. I think you have a problem, Clara??" (Rya's Law).

"I can't tell you all this over the phone. Tomorrow I'll tell you everything".

"Ok if that's Clara, the break is over, I hang up. See you tomorrow at school!! (Friends of friends - my friends ).

Until now I still can't accept the reality. But the events that have happened are all outside my power. All this time I've been trying my best and my best.

I don't know what she's thinking, so she's so easy to end this relationship. Trying to let you go, I honestly can't.

When the people around me found out that I was about to face the test and face UAN, they supported and prayed for me. I was so happy when I got so much support and prayers from the people around me. But inexhaustible by me, why did Brother Richy have to say things that I did not want to happen when close to my practical test. Had he not thought, his decision would have disturbed my mind.

Just why I can be like this, can't accept reality. I'm afraid I can't concentrate when the practice exam is three days away. I lost my mind because I loved him too much.

When I was left behind by Tyo, I was difficult to move on, but I was not this sad and crazy. I really lost my consciousness. I don't know what I should do.

I really hate it when he thinks of his opinion alone, he doesn't think of what I think.

Do I have to pretend like nothing ever happened to me. But it won't change my current condition.