My Love Story With 5 Men's

Tease me

One month may not be a long time. But one month makes someone very confident to express love for me. Everything was beyond my expectations, I felt not the slightest disbelief. Because for a month now, I've only considered that man my friend. I don't know how to behave towards him, I'm really confused. I am not confused by the answer I will give, but I offend how to start my conversation to say or reject his love. I never thought that Alif liked me, because all this time, between, Tito, Gunawan, Alif da Rafa, Gunawan was the closest to me. Sometimes the attention that Alif gave, I just took it as a normal thing, which is someone's devotion to his friend. When Alif said love, it wasn't what I wanted, it made me want to ask others for their opinions. But I can't tell Aci, Rika, Gunawan, Tito or Rafa. After all they were all quite with Alif. I just don't want, if I I tell one of them, even that makes Alif embarrassed. I'm just afraid, they're gonna stain Alif. Because it will definitely make us embarrassed, especially if you have to refuse his love.

Finally I chose to give Alif an answer by replying to the SMS he sent, I rejected Alif in a pretty good way. And I also at that moment told him that I would forget what happened that day, and I assumed it never happened.

 I know, maybe the SMS reply I gave will make Alif disappointed. But I have tried to give a good enough answer to him, so that my friendship with Alif is not in vain during a relationship that lasted a month. And I also don't want to be awkward with each other.

The next day I left for college, that day I was escorted by my cousin. Right in the middle of the road, I felt something was strange. I felt like, the shake in the back was so bad, I tried to stop my cousin. Shit, that might be the right word. Sure enough, something happened to the rear tire of my cousin's vehicle, Seen very clearly, the nail stuck so right on the target of the rear tire, fortunately around that there is a workshop. My cousin and I pushed the vehicle straight to the workshop.

Fifteen minutes left when I go to college, because the distance of the workshop with my campus is not too far enough. But I didn't find any ojek. I was thinking, why don't I just walk.

"Clara, see the motorcycle?"

"I don't see any ojek around here, sister. I think I'll just walk."

"You're okay with walking.?

"Nothing right, my campus is also close to here."

"Or just call a taxi!!!"

Suddenly I heard a voice calling my name at that moment

"Claras...."

When I looked, it was Alif. I try to be relaxed, though,

"Haaayyy, Alliif"

"What are you doing here, you're not going to college?"

"He who is Clara?" (My cousin's sister).

"Ooo, she's Alif, my classmate's sister."

"And he's my cousin's brother."

"May donk brother."

"Not a hassle, is it?"

"Yes donk brother, besides Clarakn my classmate."

There was no other choice, I sat right behind Alif. Acting as usual, it might make me and Alif a little awkward. I tried to get him to talk and I didn't bring up the problem of what happened that night. Although I am well aware, that Alif himself looks a little awkward when starting a conversation with me. However, the repellent had not been there for 24 hours, so it was no wonder the awkwardness that had occurred between me and him.

It is not easy to be a friend, because a friend can be a friend and can also be a lover.

Ever since I rejected Alif, I didn't know how he felt until that very second. But I try not to think too much about it. I am sure, if Alif considers me as a friend with a sincere heart, then he will definitely understand for the rejection I gave.

It wasn't easy for me when it was just about normal as usual to Alif, I didn't want to look bad in Alif's eyes, however he was my friend. That's why I'm trying so hard to be relaxed, so that Alif doesn't feel ashamed of me either.

Arriving at the campus, from the parking lot I walked along with Alif to class. Alif and I started talking as usual.

The incident that I did not want to repeat, just as I stepped foot into the classroom, I suddenly saw Ray, Cristan and the other two friends.

"Pity yes, especially his male friends have been like a biker bersajek alternasi ngatar pick up girls who only come from the village.katang tuuuu as motor, hahahahahhahaha." (sahut Cristan).

Although Cristan did not mention the name, but at that time I felt the innuendo was pointed at me. Acting to reply to his words, I did not do it. One word came out of my mouth, not at all, but I just stared at Cristan with a sharp enough look.

Ray tried to stop Alif from making syndicates against me, which is why Cristan went silent.

His appearance was intellectual, but his mouth made no difference like sampa, it was the right word to describe Cristan. Actually I feel sorry for Cristan enough, he's bothering the wrong guy.

I used to be the one who always gave up and tried to do my best for the people around me, but from the beginning my character was the one who was always indifferent to people who were not close to me. Even after a month as a student, I didn't know all my classmates. Apalgi with the person who tried to find trouble with me, tried to avoid myself, I would not care.

Cristan should realize that he has lost, looking for problems and talking to people who are less sensitive, just like you have lost from the beginning. Because, if Cristan tried to flush me, and I didn't care about it, then Cristan's otomastis must be upset by itself.  Cristan is wrong or right, but if I continue to be indifferent, then I will still be the winner.

Because at that time I thought, if someone looks stupid with the syndication given by others is shown to whoever it is, then heartache will occur to someone who gives syndirian, he said, not the one who accepts the syndicate. That's why, I always look pretty calm when anyone tries to intrude on my life.