My Love Story With 5 Men's

Understand

I learned to control my anger. It's not that I don't want to overcome my problems with him, it's just that I myself am unable to overcome my feelings, apalgi memahi cause Die angry with me. Because all this time every time he was angry, he never explained in detail what was the cause of him like that. Not that I was insensitive to her attitude all this time to me, but she herself never expressed her true feelings. I was afraid that my guess was wrong, so I couldn't convince myself that what I was thinking was right.

A few minutes later the bus arrived. We all took the bus one by one. On the way to the beach, I felt. I was thinking about stopping the bus, and not getting to the beach. But I myself don't know how to act to stop the bus. I don't want to continue my journey. I had a few friends during BIMBEL, I was pretty close to them.

Once on the beach, I saw Die. I'm trying to greet him. But he kept avoiding me. I didn't just give up, I tried to get closer to him. Before the event began, the lady who took care of the BIMBEL participants gave directions about the play that we will do, I also tried to sit right next to Die. I didn't expect that he would actually avoid me. He moved his seat, everyone looked at me. I was ashamed of Die's attitude towards me, because I didn't think she would do that in front of all BIMBEL's friends. I tried to hold back my tears.

After the referral started, I tried to approach Kak Jho.

"So I want to go home" (My mouth ).

"Loh why?".

"(I couldn't hold back my tears, I ended up just crying in front of Kak Jho. Brother Jho pulled my hand talking not far from all the others ).

"Why are you crying, are you sick?? (Tanya Kak Jho, She looks shocked when she sees me shedding tears).

"(I told you everything )".

"You calm down first, maybe Die again doesn't want to be disturbed. Claraaaa wipe your tears, later friends see you again. Patience - be patient, there are still many other friends of yours who are close enough to you during the BIMBEL. You can talk to them. Let's just say Die didn't come, so you can rest easy on his current attitude" (Input from Kak Jho ).

When I heard Kak Jho's input and advice, I tried to be natural. And I also acted like Die was behaving towards me. I began not to care for him, because I realized that the problem is open that we can overcome with anger, but rather be patiently addressed.

My hope for better with her, I no longer think about it at this moment. I also want to enjoy the happiness that other friends feel today. Choose to stay away from her today and choose silence, because I don't want my problems to get complicated. Because from the beginning I didn't know what it was.

I saw Brother Jho approaching Die, I don't know what they're talking about. For sure I saw their gazes pointing at me, but it could be that my thoughts were wrong as well. I try not to care about it, and enjoy the current susana with other friends.

But right now I'm really back to being indifferent to people and trying to ignore them. But they're becoming - so. I almost got a rant out, but luckily Kak Jho approached me and asked them not to bother me.

"I didn't know anyone was bothering you. But Die just asked me to come up to you, because she felt like two men were just bothering you. It turns out that he was right" (Sahut Kak Jho).

"Send my thanks to him. Tell him, next time don't bother to help me, because I can handle it myself. But anyway, brother has also helped me, I say thank you".

"Yes. If you can tell, why haven't you come home yet?".

"I'm waiting for an invitation".

"From your long wait, how about I anterin you. We're not too far from here anyway".

"Thank you brother for the offer. But do not bother - bother, at most my invitation will soon arrive".

"Seriously not going to be in between?".

"No usa brother. Well.. That's my invitation already coming" (I'm pointing towards Aunt Vivi ).

I don't know what Die was thinking, until she was still watching me, but she herself tried to avoid me. It seemed like he himself wanted to talk to me, but for some reason, maybe because he felt ashamed, prestige, felt untrue or could be because of the others, so he asked Kak Jho to help me. But that's just my mind. Anyway I still don't know the real cause of what happened the day with Die.

Once at the boarding house I tried to calm my mind. I chose not to contact Die at all. It would have been better if I hadn't contacted him first. Because I'm afraid, if I contact him first, who I have in cuekin, I better let it go.

I'm used to feeling the way things are now. Being used to being ignored by people who had been close to me, so that I could understand if it happened again to me. I'll be fine.