My Love Story With 5 Men's

Refusing to say shame

Ever since that day on campus, I've known her face for the first time, even though I was a little embarrassed to try to avoid it.

I was known to be a bit of a bitch and a fool from the beginning of college and somehow that day was the first time I was embarrassed like that to someone.

It had been three months and that day I just realized that there was one guy that none of my classmates looked different from all the boys I was in class with. The first time I saw her, I didn't have any feelings, but I was quite amazed at her. He's not the character I'm looking for either, but somehow I like to see him especially with his looks.

It might have been hard for me as well as her to say "HI" that day, thus making me and her no one to greet each other. By feeling confident, I also pretended not to know what the face of a man named Adi. But, it seems like my behavior is a little too obvious that I'm pretending. Adipun and I only looked at each other as we entered the classroom, there was no response or excessive behavior between aq maupu Adi.

The hour back from college that day ended, I don't know what Rafa thought, so he invited me and the other five friends to hang out at a Cafe that was quite close to campus. Rafa who invites me and the others, it means he will pay for the food that will be me and the other five friends message.

Arrive at the cafe, while waiting for food that has been ordered before.  I don't know what possessed Tito, so suddenly he questioned something that I never thought he would ask about my relationship with Gunawan. When he started the conversation, I initially thought that maybe he was just looking for the ingredients of the day. Semaki Tito spoke, instead he asked about what my real relationship with Gunawan was like. Tito asked such a question not without reason, but maybe because Tito who had seen me quite close to Gunawan. However Gunawan is a close friend of Tito, especially Tito also knows that Gunawan always does anything when Clara asks him for help.

"My relationship with Gunawan is like my relationship with you, just a friend is no more than that."

Alif who had previously told me love, he took the opportunity to try to tempt me when others also followed me with questions that were not far about my closeness with Gunawan. Temptation thrown by Alif, making others more action and choose to arouse his temptation to Alif and myself. The idiosyncrasies of my friends that day who tried to match me with Gunawan and alif, may have according to the brand was a joke, but to me such a joke made me a little bit irritated. It flashed on Alif's face that he looked happy when all the friends of the day were trying to match him up with me. In contrast to my reaction, who forced myself to smile. Gunawan who saw the expression on my face looked quite serious when the others tried to tease me, he tried to do the talking by pretending to ask.

"Rafa, can I also order a dessert?"

"Yes you order what you want Gun."

"Is the truth okay?"

"Look easy."

"Aci, your boyfriend again got a jackpot like that."

"It can be." (shroud of Aci).

Speech skills don't just stop. But at least the temptation was slightly lessened.

I'm a person who slightly dislikes jokes like what they did that day, I can't do anything about it, can only pretend as if I'm accepting all the brand jokes.

The next day, as usual I was on campus at exactly 02:00 p.m.

It was so clear that the attitude of the day, it seemed like Ray was avoiding it.

"Clara, wait!!!"

My steps stopped immediately, I realized that the one who called my name was Ray, if I kept going, maybe someday if I meet his degannya again, I could have been more awkward. That's why I stopped my steps right away when Ray called my name.

Just looking at him I couldn't make it that day, somehow I was a little awkward with him after I rejected his love, and that rejection also Ray had never contacted me, Ray, it could be the biggest cause that made me behave like never before.

"Why are you so sorry to walk faster when you see me?"

"Sister, I feel like I'm walking like I always do."

"Oooo so yes.atu only my vision is wrong huh. Because usually I see you walking is very relaxed, but today is not as usual."

"Aaaaaahhhhh that's just a big sister's feeling."

"I guess you're avoiding me or ashamed of me."

"Minghindar?, Shame?, It is not possible brother. Why should I be ashamed of my sister."

Every time I try to answer Ray, I try to pretend sometimes with a smile when talking to him. So that what I'm saying doesn't seem too obvious that what Ray's saying is true.

"Your class is in building B too?"

"um-um." ( while shaking my head).

That day I set foot with Ray to building B. Right in front of building B I parted ways with him, because my class was on the second floor, while Ray's class was on the first floor. Wishing the smile that Ray threw as I headed towards the second floor was a good sign for me, however I hope that my relationship will still be fine with him, even if it is only a senior and junior. However, I had feelings for him, and that made my guess disappear not because of his attitude but the attitude of his friends.although I did not slightly dislike the attitude of his friends to me, not that I hate him. As long as I know him, he's a pretty good guy to me, so there's no harm in me wishing his smile that day was a good sign, that he didn't hate me. I realized Ray must be disappointed in me, I don't know how to deal with his feelings anymore. I just wish he could find a better woman than me and be accepted by his friends.

I'm sure, with the interference of his friends against me during that time, there is a hikma that I will get. whether that's when it's time, I can only be patient to wait for that day to arrive.