My Love Story With 5 Men's

Who is the man to both?

Getting out of Ray's presence was the patience I had to sacrifice. I don't want to get in a rage about my feelings for her, I'm tired of the distractions from her friends. I didn't want to because of the distraction from his friend Ray, so it made me feel like I was playing with my own feelings.

Face an uncertain future, make me stronger to face all. I'm sure my heart will be grayed out in the right place one day. Now I feel calmer when I give my answer to Ray.

Talking about love involves not only feeling but also logic. Sometimes the heart says love, but often logic refuses to say yes.

The problems of love and the feelings that have been difficult for me will never come to an end.

Sometimes some people follow the feelings, but to think logically sometimes some people do not think too much about it, so that there is a bond as a couple. But since the incident about me who was always hurt, makes me put logic before my feelings. Change is like a phase, maybe that's what I'm going through. Not wanting to lose my identity and be blind to love, I didn't want it to happen again, putting logic first in my opinion was the right choice for that moment.

When at night, at exactly 08:00 pm, I met Gunawan at a cafe.  My meeting at that time was not an accidental meeting, but it was arranged. Because when I got home from college I agreed to Gundawa's invitation to dinner that day. That night was the first time I and the gunawan ate together at night in a fairly luxurious cafe. There was not the slightest awkwardness or suspicion about having dinner with him that night, all I thought about was enjoying every moment that happened to me, that was my commitment to that moment.

My relationship with Gunawan is not complicated, it's just that the situation turned complicated when Gunawakan made me quite surprised by his confession. I don't want to waste much time giving him the answer to his confession of love towards me. When she said love, I said no and that night wanted to go straight from her face. But when I think the matter will be long if I go straight from before him. I tried to calm myself that night, I took a slow breath, after I calmed down I started talking to him. Gunawan doesn't look like he always does when I reject his love. I was quite angry with her, she told me love, while I knew she still had a lover. I don't want to know the reason he gave me, he has feelings for me because of the distance he has with his girlfriend in a different city, so Gunawan has feelings for me because of his habit with me who is often together. Still I can't accept, whatever the reason I'll never justify and I won't hurt other women's feelings either. After all, I only consider Gunawan as nothing more than a friend. There is not the slightest feeling for Gunawan, once a friend will still be a friend and will never be more.

Gunawan was aware of the mistake he made, saying my love was the same as he had betrayed his girlfriend, even though I did not ask him. Intentionally it has betrayed the couple, especially to hope to have it.

"Gunawan I hope you can reflect on your mistakes. I assume what you said tonight to me, I assume I never heard at all. I will not hate you, as long as you do not repeat it to me or to another woman. Remember you said love to me or to another woman you already have a boyfriend far away in the bandungan there. Moreover, you two have been playing for quite a while."

"I knew I already had a boyfriend, I realized that. But as long as I know you. I find the female arkter very attractive in my opinion. Maybe a lot of people say you're a cute girl, but thinking you're a really cool guy. I'm sorry if I'm so lazy tonight to love you. But at least I feel calm after saying what I've been keeping for the past two months."

"Where could I hate you. I accept the decision you gave me, I still want to be friends with you Clara.I'm sorry that you still consider me a friend."

the incident that night made me not afraid to be hated by someone I already considered a good friend. I would rather be hated for rejecting it than accept a man whom I have no feelings for, let alone harm another woman, I'd rather be alone without a lover beside me.

I guess I need some distance to my boyfriend, which I'm afraid of, however I see them as just friends, but I can't forbid them from liking me either. I know everyone who has a feeling, we cannot hate it, however difficult the feeling to control.

Hopefully tomorrow I and Gunawan can really behave as usual. Choosing to remain silent and not tell anyone about the events of the night is your best bet. I don't want Gunawan to feel ashamed if anyone else finds out what happened.

Arriving at the boarding house, I threw my phone right on the bed, I immediately replaced the clothes while cleaning my face. That night I only slept alone in the boarding house, because my cousin's brother had to do the task of his group that he would present tomorrow at his campus, so he had to stay at his friend's place.

My eyes could not be closed yet, because that night the first night I slept in the boarding house alone, I did not know what to do. Watching tv I was not in the mood, suddenly my phone rang.

I got off the edge where I put my phone, when I found it all of a sudden the incoming call was over.

Checking the phone, the incoming call is from Adi. He called me again, and I picked him up.

The conversation that night with Adi made me bother. I was curious at first, but I didn't want to know who he was, I was curious all of a sudden, and it's been happening ever since Adi called me. Obviously in my class there was no man who belonged to my character. But somehow I felt Adi was one of all my boyfriends only he I hadn't seen yet. I don't know why I'm so sure that I haven't actually seen it. That day, even though I had paid close attention to the man in the class, why did I feel that the man I noticed was not there. Adi really is a mysterious man in my opinion, or I just think too far.