MARRIED
My dear Julia
Sepi ... Alone ...
Worse in the dark of the night
No more smiles
No more happiness
Just good memories
And a little despair in the heart
Julia was standing alone on the porch of her house. The last memory of Karel smiling for her is still very vividly imprinted in her memory.
Yes ... That morning Karel gave her last smile to Julia. After that it was like a dream that Julia herself did not want to remember anymore.
The night after Karel's funeral, Julia accidentally wants to stay in her own home. Everyone who wanted to accompany him was expelled.
He just wants to be alone, a friend. Not because she is strong, but Julia wants to get used to being alone without depending on others.
Papa Mama is very worried about Julia's condition, but they can not do anything because they believe Julia must be strong to face everything.
Julia always strengthens herself when remembering the fruits of her love with Karel. A very valuable relic of Karel.
Julia believes time will heal her grief at the loss of Karel, her beloved husband.
A week has passed since Karel died. Almost every day if Julia had time, she always visited the tomb of Karel. He told me everything he did that day.
Julia has left for work as usual. He must be strong for his heart. His friends always entertain and invite Julia to eat together or just a walk in the mall, to eliminate the sadness and loneliness that Julia feels.
When she gets home, Julia feels lonely that she has not felt. Moreover, this house is quite large with 2 floors.
After thinking about it carefully, Julia finally wants to move back to her old house when she married Ben first.
The house that used to be not too big and also closer to the office and home of his parents. If he lives in his house now, he continues to feel sadness because in every room there is a shadow of Karel.
Julia won't sell this house and will rent it out. It may be a strange decision for others, but Julia realizes that life has to go on. He will always remember Karel in his heart and soul.
One afternoon on her way home from work, Julia was surprised to see Irfan waiting for her.
"Julia, how are you?" ask Irfan.
"I'm good, Irfan. What's looking for me?" Julia asked back.
"Jul, do you have time? I want to say something" said Irfan.
"All right."
Julia takes Irfan to the park behind her office.
"What's up, Fan?" ask Julia curiously.
"I'm sorry, Jul. After Karel's funeral day, I have to take care of my work out of town so I can't keep you company."
"Haha ... It's okay, Fan. I'm fine now, there's always someone with me" Julia said as she stroked her stomach, feeling a tiny baby growing inside her stomach.
Irfan smiled at Julia, he was relieved to see Julia turned out to be a strong woman. All this time he was very worried about Julia, but it turns out his worry disappeared when he saw Julia lived her days stoicly.
"Jul, I just want to give this to you. Sorry to be late, because I was in a hurry to leave" Irfan said, handing over Karel's phone and a mail envelope.
Julia accepted it, strengthening her heart. He does not want to cry at this time. Being forced into a smile on his lips, he had to be strong.
"Thank you, Fan," said Julia gulped her saliva, it was hard to say.
"Oiya, there's a Karel bag in my car. It contained clothes while Karel was living in my house" Irfan continued.
"Thank you, Fan. All this time have been taking care of Karel," said Julia Lirih. I don't feel the tears she was holding out.
"Jul, can I take you home?" Irfan offers to see Julia back sad.
"No need, Fan. I'm doing fine. Oiya, next week I plan to move back to my old house." Julia switched the conversation.
"May I help you?"
"Thank you, Fan. I'm happy to accept it" Julia said.
Irfan looked at Julia's face in front of him. He knew that Julia was sad to see Karel's legacy. She understands that Julia wants to move house and doesn't want to ask why. He will always support Julia's decision.
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Back home, Julia quickly charged Karel's cell phone. He was eager to see the memories of the photo or whatever it was in Karel's phone.
Long Julia just looked at a white envelope in front of her. The letter that Karel left for him.
Unable to open it, Julia put it in the drawer.
That night Julia ate alone, watching television alone and because she was bored, she opened her cell phone.
There was a message from Theo.
hello Jul, how are you doing now? I know all about you who just lost your husband. I'm sorry I couldn't come with you, now I'm abroad. My in-laws are sick and now he is critical. I don't know when I'll be back yet. (Theo)
Julia replies that she is fine and says if family is the main one.
Julia turned back her memory of Theo. He was even happy if Theo returned to his wife. Shouldn't it be like that? He took a deep breath, praying that Theo and his family would be protected by God.
It was night, Julia finally got into her bed ready to sleep because tomorrow had to go to work.
I don't know why he couldn't sleep. Time and time again just turning his body. He always remembered a letter from Karel which he had not yet opened.
Finally Julia went downstairs and walked into Karel's study, where she put the letter in a drawer.
Julia took the letter and sat down at Karel's desk. With trembling hands, Julia finally tore the edges of the letter carefully.
To my dear wife, Julia.
My dear Julia,
Before reading this, promise not to cry. Okay?!
Julia, I was sorry to not tell you about my pain. Not because I don't trust you, but I just don't want to make you sad and cry because of me. I can't bear to.
I'm sorry I didn't fight enough against my pain because I knew that by the time I arrived. The disease had spread throughout my body, so I was already unable to fight it.
If you read this letter, I'm healed and I don't feel pain anymore. Don't be sad because of me.
Keep living life even if I can't be with you.
Find my replacement to accompany you to old age. I'm just looking and just want to see you happy.
Our memories will always be imprinted in my heart and heart.
Look at your life with a smile. I will always see you from here.
I always loved you Julia ...
(Carel)
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