LOVE THE SINNER GIRL

KARMAS

RUBY

Leaving Jenny wasn't my original plan. I didn't want to escape but I wanted to calm myself down for a moment before I faced the storm ahead. Maybe I'm not brave enough to face it.

Jennys.

He is young and promising. He is caring and loving. I know he suffered too. The more reason he doesn't deserve someone like me. He is special and he deserves someone special. I'm far from special. Nothing special to me.

Maybe, if I had known about this a long time ago, we would have a better chance of being together. I can't say he was a total mistake. Honestly, he opened my eyes to a lot of things. He does. I'm grateful for that.

My eyes were full of tears as I drove home. My hand gripped the envelope I received from my friend Daniel. I never imagined that something like this could happen to me. Is it karma because of my past sins or the karma of my infidelity?

Angering. Embarrassed. Hatreds. Fearful. That betrayal.

All entered at the same time. I feel like I could kill someone tonight. Suppressing my emotions, even though I've lost most of it, I try my best to be polite and calm.

Getting into the house I bought for what I call family was heavy. I held my breath and let go to reduce all the mixed emotions I was carrying. It hard. But I'm already here and I don't want to be that weakling anymore who just turns a blind eye to what's going on

Pull Ketrin into upstairs rooms so the kids don't get bothered by our quarrel. Holding her hand firmly, I pushed her away and I saw how shocked her face was. Then I placed the envelope on his chest as I tried my best not to punch him.

I glared at him, gritted my teeth against raising my voice, and frightened Leo and Irene.  His entire body trembled with his hands as he read the document. I could see her eyes swell up from crying a lot. How could she cry?

"You and Sean are disgusting!! You're back in a conspiracy with Sean to hide all that from me. How dare you!! You told me that Leo was mine? Butwhat? What?!! Leo is the son of Daniel, my friend whom you have trapped so as not to expose your rot. Oh my God, Ketrin! How can you do this to me?! After I saved you and your family from shame first, three lives were lost because I helped your family and was too blind to love you son of a bitch. Is this what you did to me? After I love you? I turned into a murderer and a coward because of you!!"

I heard Ketrin crying. He slumped around my feet. He sobs. She is a great actress. "Ruby, please? Let me explain, please? I swear, I didn't know Leo wasn't yours. I just found out when-"

"Shut up!!" I screamed with tears falling from my eyes. "Whatever, you're still wiping it! How dare you look me in the eye every night saying that you love me! How dare you sleep next to me but your head is somewhere else? How dare you!"

"Ruby... Wasn't... Please..."

"It's a Paternity Scam. Know ye? I can easily throw you behind bars!" Ruby's knees suddenly weakened as she sat on the sofa not having the strength to continue. His anger was overwhelming and he felt as if he did not have the strength to control his emotions.

My chest was claustrophobic as I thought of every word. I want to curse. I wanted to let him feel how he made me look stupid like those years. Turning my back from her, she wrapped her hands around my waist. "Ruby please don't leave me.Please? Our kids. They will suffer. My shame belongs to them. Please don't do this to me. I promise I'll fix it."

I laughed cynically. "Did it cross your mind when you did those bad things? have you ever thought about Irene and Leo while making us look stupid for years? To entertain them? For the consequences of your actions? Really true?"

"I-I"

"So quiet! You don't care! You don't care about anyone but yourself! You even took the rights of Leo's biological father and let me father your son from another man. Makes me believe he's mine. I don't, I don't regret giving her my last name, but I'm sorry to give you my last name. I regret marrying you. I regret every day I spent loving you!"

Kerin's eyes widened to hear all the painful words coming out of my mouth. Uniting herself, she smiled mockingly as she looked at me.

"And now? You're going to Jenny? How dare you insult me like that when you also have sex*ks with other people! Have you ever thought about your children while doing that? How dare you speak as if I am the only evil one here. "

I ruffled my hair with my fingers, trying hard not to physically hurt Ketrin. "I knew you'd say that. I know you will blame me for the mistakes I made but you, for five years, did not even realize your mistake. Goddamnit! Now I trust Daniel even more when he says he was framed. I said that he was unlucky to deal with such a woman who was none other than you.”

Ketrin suddenly laughed, "Don't defend the man because obviously, he and Jenny are working together to get revenge on me. She likes Jenny and all she wants is to destroy me. If he's really your best friend, he'll tell you the truth. But he fooled you! Jenny's just a goddamn jala*ng teasing you and Daniel for her to take advantage of."

I closed my eyes and asked myself again, do I really deserve to feel anger towards the person who wronged me? "Ketrin, what Jenny and I did was wrong. I'm aware of that. If he and Daniel work together for revenge, do I really have the right to be angry? Daniel didn't tell me because you had manipulated his fucking state. If this is my karma for cheating, so be it. What I did for you and my children took away my right to be angry at anyone. It's as if I don't have the right to express the pain inside me and you know? That sucks. And stop calling Jenny like that, as if you weren't jala*ng for years. I don't want to see you, I don't want to hear your voice, I hate everything about you. That's all I can feel right now. And I'm sorry."

I heard Ketrin call my name a few times. I wept. I heard him screaming in frustration and despair. But I'm not looking back. I walked out of my house with all the weight and anger in my heart.

Staying away from the woman who wasted half the life I gave her was a relief. For the first time in my life, I did the right thing. Something brave. Something for myself.

I saw my watch. At 6 am.

When I got out of my house, someone I didn't expect was right in front of my gate, talking to Daniel who seemed much more aware but whose expression was furious. I am still ashamed to meet Daniel. But that person, my stomach was nauseous when I saw her.When we met eyes, I tried my best to hold back my emotions to not step on her mouth right now. He was the one I considered a friend before I knew all this and I hated seeing him.

" Can we talk?" Sean's voice was as calm as ever even though the look on his face was clearly panicked.

I just nodded.