Love Makes Me Crazy

26. Expressing Feelings

Everyone who was on set, looked seriously staring at the scene that Willa and Steven were displaying.

"Please don't cry like this. I don't deserve all these cries. By looking at your tears, it makes my heart feel so hurt." Said Steven who continued to look at Willa's face with love.

"Even if you wipe my tears, it won't heal the wounds inside me." Reply Willa.

At that moment Steven looked surprised and looked at Willa sharply and at the same time he continued to wipe Willa's tears.

"Don't look at me like that. I just thought that I was the only one who loved you. But after you came to me, I knew that your love was really already inside me and was fused with my breath and also my soul for a very long time, until you became all part of me.”

"Then I changed. The more days pass for me, the more I fall in love with you. As I breathe with your love, the more air I breathe to breathe, the more your love enters into me. Sometimes I think it takes a million hearts to feel all the love I have for you."

"You're my only world and my only place to take refuge. I wish I could hide inside you so that you wouldn't be able to get any injuries, because I would never be able to live in this world without you. It is very difficult for me to live in this world without you in it. I need you so much."

"Because without you beside me, I became blind. I can't see the path I've walked in this life without you. I am the weakest person in the world. Weaker than you ever imagined. Without you, I am nothing, nothing at all. Being next to you makes me stronger and makes me breathe to get back to life."

"Only with you can I bring back everything that was lost in me and so is my life. In this world, without you, I always feel hungry. Without you everything that's happened in my life is less when you're away from me."

"However getting away from you makes me very hurt, injuring my soul in the worst possible way and even killing me slowly. I have no one but you. I feel safe when I'm with you. As long as you are with me, I will never fear anything in this world. The one thing I'm most afraid of is losing you. So, I'm so scared of losing you again."

"All I want is you, just you. I don't want to face another day on my own without your love. You are my owner. I belong to no one but you. I'm your prisoner, so don't walk away from me for a second. Your place is just by my side."

"I can only live wherever you are near me. So can you let me live? Bring me closer to you in your arms, which is the safest place for me."

Suddenly Steven took Willa into his arms. He pulled Willa closer towards him gently, then rubbed Willa's back.

Steven then looked into Willa's eyes eagerly and said,

"All the words of love that exist in this world will never be enough to express how I value you. There are some things that we can only feel and if we say them with words from the lips, it will make the meaning disappear. Only body language can say and express love. Because love cannot be explained by words."

"But, there's only one thing I can say that you're my only desire, my feeling, you're my only one. My place is where you are. One minute with you, that's a million years without you."

Steven's words could then make Willa's tears stop. Willa was unable to say anything while Steven's chin was at the top of his head. Steven's hand clasped him tightly.

Then Willa said, "please don't leave me again."

Steven said, "i'll never leave you again. I promise you. From this moment onwards, I will always keep you near me. We will be two hearts beating together. From today onwards you cannot walk alone. My heart will be your refuge and my embrace will be your home."

Willa looked into Steven's eyes, trying to get into Steven's soul with those brown eyes. Steven also stared at her with a gasp of breath and glared at her eyes that showed love, wanted to protect, care for her affection, patience and respect for Willa.

Willa's heart began to beat faster. He stood up with a feeling of passion running from within his chest and increasingly into the deepest recesses of his heart.

Suddenly Steven curled one arm around Willa's waist. It then pulled Willa closer than ever on her body, holding Willa's head from behind gently. He leaned closer to Willa's lips, looked in Willa's eyes with love and desire and said,

"i can see clearly how your desire to continue with me from within your eyes. But I'm far more eager and impatient than you are to have you."

Then Steven's hand touched Willa's neck and head, rubbed Willa's neck into Willa's hair, then down towards Willa's shoulder and then on her hand. It made Willa's heart beat faster. Then he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

At that time Steven's mind was empty and in this world it was as if there was no one else but him and Willa. Then suddenly his lips immediately touched Willa's lips.

After Steven touched Willa's lips, Willa felt as if everything had exploded. The storm suddenly seemed to come rumbling in his heart.

Willa was so hungry that she opened her mouth and began to return Steven's kiss.

Steven then held Willa's face with both hands, while Willa held Steven's arm and squeezed it so tightly.

The rough taste of Steven's thin beard feels scratching while making Willa's cheek tickle. Willa held Steven's head as if she didn't want Steven to let go of his kiss.

Willa's lips were busy returning a passionate kiss given Steven. They seemed to want to swallow each other, and made the kiss feel even more intense. At that moment, Steven's breath felt so warm to Willa's face.

The people around the set seemed to be crying and also clapping for them and saying, "although in fact the scene had completely changed. But the scene was much better than the previous one."

Steven's assistant then said, "cut, cut, cut, cut..."

But Steven and Willa continued their kiss, as neither heard anyone else's voice. Nor did they hear the people clapping for them.

Back then, both of them were completely as if they existed in the world of the two of them and they were completely separated from the outside world.

Then one of the assistants shouted very loudly, "Steven, we've said cut hundreds of times until now. But you're not listening to us, what's wrong with you?"

Suddenly Willa began to listen to them, so she pushed Steven gently while she herself seemed to be blushing with embarrassment.

Then Steven began to rub his lips gently because it was so wet from the kiss. Steven then turned his head to look at all of them, towards the people around them while grilling Willa's hands very tightly.

Steven was standing with his heart racing and head a little dizzy because he had just done something so fantastic, sensational and never-ending. A kiss that makes him forget where he is and even who he is today.

Willa and Steven split up. Even in their hearts, they hope that they will never be separated.

Although Willa's body was separated from Steven's body, their minds, souls and hearts were both, not yet separated completely.

Everything Steven did was just standing there for a long time staring at Willa, with love, passion and affection.

At the same time Willa looked blushing. He seemed to be breathing with difficulty looking down, biting his lips because he knew that Steven was staring at him.

"Steven, Steven, Steven.... What's wrong with you? Do you feel less well? Do you want us to bring a doctor for you?" Steven's assistant told him but Steven still didn't answer them all.

Then Willa knew that if she remained standing in front of Steven, the man would continue to look at her and Willa felt that she would cause trouble for Steven as well as for his work.

So Willa was about to tell Steven, but Steven asked him first.

"What's Willa?" Ask Steven.

"Master I'm sorry. I feel less healthy. I want to go to the dressing room first and with your permission, I'll wait for you in the car until you finish your work here. I'm sorry sir, for disappointing you and all the documents and items you need, I left them on your desk at this location." Willa said, continuing to look down with her breath sounding heavy.

Steven didn't know what to say. So she starts to stick out her arms in order to pull Willa into her arms, but Willa can feel it where Steven is going to hug her. So Willa walked away quickly.

"Do you want me to bring a doctor for you?" Steven Said.

"It's not too bad sir, see you later after your work is done sir." Willa.

"See you later Willa." Steven said with a sad looking face.

Then Willa left and headed to the bathroom.

As she walked into the bathroom, she opened the water tap and she said to herself loudly as her breathing felt so heavy.

"He burned me with his fire. I know very well that none of this will be able to put out the fire, except from him alone. But all I can do now is flush my face with cold water. Then all the fire I felt all over my body would be extinguished and everything would be better later. I hope so." Willa.

Then Willa looked at herself in the mirror and went back to talking to herself.

"What's wrong with you Willa? You gotta get up. Even though you're actually telling her your true feelings, it's just acting to her. Do not give yourself false hope. Do you want to hurt yourself by seeing that hope perish before your own eyes? He doesn't remember you yet, because if he remembers the real you, he'll keep you in his arms and face all these worlds by telling them all the truth that you're his wife."

Then Willa hit both cheeks with her hands very hard and she spoke to herself very loudly again.

"I'll force you to get up before it's too late. You give all the words and feelings you've kept inside you until she remembers you and tells the world that you're her."

Suddenly the bathroom door was knocked.

Willa turned around looking surprised then she heard Steven's voice whispering.

"Willa, are you in there? I really wanted to talk to you about something very important before you left Willa."

Without wasting any time, Willa went straight out of the bathroom. After that, when he was outside Steven immediately pulled his hand and took him to a room that was close to the bathroom.

Without a word Steven immediately hugged Willa and put his chin on the top of Willa's head, then Willa asked him as Steven's heart was beating so fast.

"What's up Steven? Why are you hugging me so tightly?"

"Willa, after finishing my work I don't have time to talk to you because then I'll go straight back to the company. There's something very important for me to do. After that I will return home to change clothes before I get on the plane.

Actually I really wanted to talk to you about that important thing. But I have to go to my papa's place. I wanted to ask him about something first. After that I will tell you the important thing. When I get back, I promise you that we'll talk together."

Willa held onto the clothes Steven was wearing with both of her hands from the front, and then looked towards Steven's eyes with a pleading look in her eyes as she was in Steven's arms and said,

"Please Steven, don't leave me with such questions. What important things do you want to say to me?"

Suddenly one of the assistants called Steven out of the room.

"Steven are you inside? We're gonna start filming. So we need you there, can you go faster?"

Then Steven said to his assistant, "alright, just wait there. I'll be here soon."

"As your orders sir." Reply Steven's assistant.

Suddenly Steven kissed Willa with passion and then he said, "I have to go now. Don't worry, everything will be fine. But I can't tell you everything until I meet my papa first. Then I'll tell you everything after I get back. Just give me some time, please."

Willa sighed deeply and said with a sad face, "alright, I won't force you. I'll wait until you get back Steven."

Steven smiled at Willa rubbing Willa's back and then kissed Willa's forehead and said, "until I see Willa."

Willa returned Steven's smile and said, "until I see Steven."

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