Love Makes Me Crazy

14. Lost Control

'I tried hard to hold myself back from talking to her while she was in my arms earlier as we chatted. But now I have to push myself to forget all this and prove to myself that I have no experience of any of this. This will all affect my attitude towards him anyway.'

'I don't want him to always be friendly to me anymore. He'll only spend a few days with me. After that he will go his own way and I will also continue my own life. He has his own life and I have a different life and in life, we will never meet again'

Steven was still speaking in his heart.

After that he said, "this all must have happened because of last night's dream. However I got a deeper feeling and I also got a lot of sexual energy that I got from that dream and that dream also made me feel excessive. But in my heart I felt that I could not resist my desires. I said everything and I did all of it because of the foundation of love. I felt that the love he had was really created for me in every part of me in that dream."

"Why did I so easily tell her that in the corner of my heart, I loved her and also said I regret every day that I spent away from her. Why can I ask him to promise me that he won't leave me? Why do I think that my life is meaningless without her?"

"In that dream, I felt like everything was so real with everything I did with him and every word I said to him. But, how could a man get such a feeling just in a dream for a woman he knew in just 1 day? What's wrong with me? Why does my heart hurt every time I remember all that?"

Willa called Steven from the bathroom.

"Come on Steven, I've prepared you a hot bath. Hurry up, before your breakfast gets cold." Willa said as she walked out of the bathroom.

Willa accidentally bumped into Steven when Steven himself was about to get into the bathroom. Their eyes met, and Willa said, looking into Steven's eyes.

"Do you want me to rub your back and massage your shoulders in the bathroom like I did before? Usually a massage on your shoulders can make you feel better. You seem to be having nightmares and your skin looks so pale. By massaging you, it will relax you and feel better." Willa.

Steven looked at Willa sharply as he spoke to himself.

'Oh my God, I couldn't help myself and he just went into the bathroom doing all that. It won't make me feel better, it will tempt me. Oh my God, I can't breathe properly now after hearing his words. What would happen if she came in the bathroom with me, God help me.'

Suddenly Willa started crying loudly and said, "don't look at me like that. I know I forgot myself. I'm worried about you and I'm crossing the line again. But you don't know how hard it is for me to treat you as a stranger after you and I have been together. But I promise you that I will never forget who I am again."

Steven then held Willa's face with his hand and drew closer to Willa's lips as they stared at each other and Willa's tears fell down her cheeks.

Then Steven drew his lips closer to Willa's lips and began to kiss Willa so deeply and passionately as if he was about to break Willa's mouth and talk back to himself.

Then Steven kissed Willa deeper and deeper. At the same time, she held Willa's waist tightly with both hands and Willa also kissed back.

Willa spoke to himself again.

'Oh my God, he kissed me again without any pity. And this is the second time he's tried to comfort me by kissing me. However, the feeling of pity within him was progress. It proves that he still cares about me. But I don't see any of this as sympathy for me. I saw all of this on the basis of his love and I couldn't help but kiss him always. I have to stop crying because it will make her feel more sorry for me.'

All the time she'll feel that I'm interfering with her and she'll try to keep me away from her life. I don't want that to happen. What's wrong with me. I need to get stronger and hold myself back. Or at the end of the day, I'll never see him again.

Suddenly Steven coiled his arms around Willa's waist, raising Willa to put her on the table in the room.

Willa again spoke to herself as Steven lifted her body to the table.

'Oh my God, things are getting more complicated. If I let him do this to me before he could remember me, he could feel regret later. And because of all this, he could have hated me instead of loving me. I'm not gonna let any of this happen.'

Suddenly Steven put Willa's body on the table.

Steven drew himself closer to Willa's neck and at the same time, Willa brought her lips closer to Steven's ear and began to whisper.

"Steven calm down, look at me! I've stopped crying. You don't have to force yourself to comfort me anymore."

Steven said in his heart.

'Oh my God, I lost control of myself again when I saw her tears. I feel like he's disappointed and that's what makes my heart feel so sick. Then I started kissing her unconsciously. Actually, what's wrong with me? I should be able to hold myself back. If I keep acting like this, I'll ruin him instead of helping him. But after I had that dream that felt so real, it made my attitude like this to him. As of now, I cannot accept all these feelings. Where I felt the dream made me lose my mind and lose my own heart.'

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