Love Makes Me Crazy

15. Apologize

Steven kept talking to himself.

'I tried to get my words out, but I couldn't get them all out. Do I have to run to get all the words out of my mind?'

'So far, I don't know why I've always lost control of myself and kept kissing her? What reason should I tell him to prove to him that that was the reason that got me to kiss him earlier. If I don't know what the reason is, how can I face him?'

Suddenly Steven said to Willa.

"I'm sorry."

Then he went back to talking to himself, 'I'm sorry? Is that a word that should come out of my mouth? Then what exactly am I supposed to say?'

Suddenly Willa coiled both hands around Steven's neck. Looking into Steven's eyes, he said as he sat down on the table.

"I'm sorry for what? If you don't know the reason for what, then let me tell you this. You are the most precious treasure of my life. Giving me a kiss, it's not something you should say as an apology. Feeling close to you, feeling the warmth of your lips and your touch is the dream I have wanted most of my life. I'm actually the one who should apologize to you. I am the one who always bothers you with my feelings and my tears. From now on, I won't bother you anymore with my tears." Willa smiled at Steven.

Steven was about to speak, suddenly Willa touched Steven's nose with her own nose and said, "don't make a face that looks guilty like this again. I hate to see your adorable face grieving, I want to see your smiling face every day."

Then Willa gave a quick kiss to Steven's lips and said, "i kissed you. Now we're even. So don't be sad like this anymore."

Suddenly Steven smiled.

Willa got excited, returned Steven's smile and said as she smiled and looked into Steven's eyes.

"Yes, when you smile, I feel like the sun is starting to shine and the world is starting to glow. Once before the world was filled with darkness because your light illuminated my life. So I beg you never again to show a sad face and always show a smile on your face, because the sadness on your face makes my heart hurt. You are the most precious treasure of my life."

Boom up!!!

Suddenly Steven instantly pulled Willa in his arms so tightly, without him noticing.

"Steven you must hurry. It's 07:30 in the morning. You're running late, take a shower and let's have breakfast." Willa.

"Of course, no problem. As you wish." Reply Steven.

Just as Steven was about to release Willa from his arms, he suddenly held Willa's hand and said sadly.

"Your hands look so thin, especially when you beat the bars with your hands for hours yesterday. Is your hand still hurting?"

Willa smiled and said, "i've told you before. Things like this can't hurt me." Then Willa again said, "the real pain is here." Willa smiled with a fake smile and pointed at her heart.

Steven felt sorry for Willa. Willa held Steven's hands and Steven turned and said to Steven.

Steven spoke to himself as he walked into the bathroom.

'Thank God, the words he said made me realize this time. I almost kissed both hands.'

Then Steven went inside the bathroom and Willa went towards the closet looking right and left to convince herself that no one had seen him. Willa then takes out Steven's clothes and kisses Steven's clothes with the intention of smelling Steven's body.

Willa then breathed deeply again and again, with her eyes getting wet. Then he spoke to himself.

'Oh my God, I miss him a lot.'

Then he went back to smelling Steven's body again and again and spoke back to himself with tears starting to fall on his cheeks.

'When can I be with him as husband and wife? I had to pretend to be strong, but there was a lot of pain and fear inside me. Treating him as a stranger, slowly killing myself.'

'Until when do we have to be like this? I tried to hold myself firmly from him. Every time I see him, I want to run towards him, get him in my arms and never let go of him again. I feel if someone takes my soul from inside my body. How can we be two different people when before we were a fused body. I'm tired of trying to hold myself back. I was so desperate, wanting to feel the warmth from his body.'

'We did kiss and I thought it would make me feel better. But all of that makes me feel worse. The more he kisses me, the more I miss him. I never thought this would happen to me one day. And this makes me feel so sad.'

Steven suddenly came out of the bathroom. She had finished her bath and she saw Willa as Willa was kissing her clothes and talking loudly to herself and crying.

Willa looked surprised looking at Steven. She quickly wiped her tears and gave Steven clothes then said,

"Here you go, here's your clothes. You can change your clothes now." Willa said with a smile to hide the sadness behind her smile.

"What's Willa? Why are you crying?" Ask Steven.

"I'm not crying. Who told you that?" Ask Willa back.

"But your eyes are filled with tears." Reply Steven.

"You mean these tears? It's nothing. I just need a glass of water. There's something in my eyes, and that's what makes my eyes water. I'll take the water for my eyes." Willa.

"Yes, you have to do that." Reply Steven.

After Willa picked up a glass of water, Steven spoke to himself.

'I'm the only one to blame here. I've done all this to him. I'm not helping him, but I'm hurting him even more. I know he's trying to hold on now. But what can I do for her? He wants to get me and I want to get him so strong. At the same time, I knew very well that I would marry another woman after these few days, and would leave her alone.'

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