Love In Butterfly Needles

Let me die

The rain had just finished ending his dance over the earth, the smell of damp and wet ground was still sharply smelled in Dena's nose. This morning he had a little energy just to walk to the porch of the house, trying to find a little sunshine that was still embarrassed to show itself after the rain. Almost all day Dena just spend her time lying in bed, even just to take a shower, Dena must be helped by her mother

This morning, Dad promised to take her somewhere. Alternative medicine, Dad said.

Dena was ready, that morning she still looks beautiful even though with a pale face and a thinner body.

The car that Dad drove drove drove towards the district city, Dad estimated the trip this time took almost 1 hour . Dena, who was sitting in the back seat with her mother, laid her head on her shoulder, cradling the black cardigan she wore with a floral scarf to warm her neck. If he is not in a sick condition it will definitely look sweet looking at him.

They arrived at a place, precisely a house that was transformed into a place of alternative medicine practice. Some of the patients sat waiting to enter the room.

"What kind of treatment is this, ma'am?" ask dena to her mother

Mother only pointed to a small signpost in front of the entrance of the room, because mother was also the first new to this place.

" Alternative Medicine Reflection Massage Mr. Semar", as Dena read

Dena pulled his father's arm

"Dad sure you brought me here?" said Dena hesitates, because the disease he suffered is very serious, how could it be just this way.

"Daddy recommended to my coworkers to come here, because there are many chronic diseases that are cured undergoing treatment here"..

"Later you will also be given herbs to drink" explained Father

"Gleekkkbw"... Dena swallowed her saliva, imagining she should drink the potion while the medicine from the doctor alone was enough that she should drink every day of her

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Dena patiently undergo this treatment, every two days Dena must come to this alternative medicine place. Sometimes Hasbi or Kak Anjani who deliver it when Dad is not able to leave his office business.

"I'm troubling you too much" Dena said to Hasbi as she accompanied her sister.

Hasbi hugged her sister, stating she didn't mind a single bit for it.

Dena could only pray every day, hoping for a big change with this alternative treatment.

Humans are always mistaken, they even raise their hands high up to the sky, loud voices are not infrequently accompanied by crying in the hope of what they ask the Maha to reverse the situation granted. In fact, the God they thought was far above the sky was closer than the neck vein and very well know the voice of the heart.

***Nearly 1 month after Dena's return from the hospital and the doctor's verdict on her illness, the,Dena still routinely undergoes alternative medicine at the place of Mr. Semar although sometimes on the way even he just rolled weakly asleep in the back seat. No good changes were occurring in his body, the more uncontrollable the pain he felt.

The potion was still routinely he drank, but Dena's body felt the effects are getting worse. Two days ago Dena came to the lab to get a blood sample to find out how her kidneys are functioning. Results showed higher levels of creatinine and urea than one month ago in hospital. This is not a good sign for Dena's health, her kidney function is only 5 percent currently based on blood test results

Dena began to look difficult to breathe, the feeling of heat in her body became increasingly. Nausea vomit do not be asked, in 1 day it is not counted again he went in and out of the bathroom .

Hasbi began to protest and object to her father's decision to bring Dena to alternative medicine.

"Look well, the condition of brother Dena. The potion will only accumulate more poison in the body of Kak Dena" Hasbi raised a protest on his father.

That night, when Father, Mother, Hasbi and Anjani's sister were in Dena's room. Helping to calm Dena and trying to do everything possible to reduce her pain, that's when Dena arrived like a person who lost control, more precisely like a person possessed

Dena yelled a scream, thrashing her butt, what she said was not clearly audible, she screamed hysterically hitting her own body.

He screamed saying "LET ME DIE"

"LET ME DIE"

"LET ME DIE"

Hasbi and Dad tried to hold his hand so as not to continue to hurt himself, because the energy he had was not enough to fight finally he drooped weakly, crashing on the mattress with a bent position.

He fainted...

All panic, trying to check the pulse.

Before long her eyes blinked, opening slightly. Nanar looked at his surroundings in turn .Her tiny lips still softly said "LET ME DIE" while her eyes closed again.

Brother Anjani and Mother cried hugging Dena, did not expect she could turn this drastic even though before her Dena could still smile a little asking her mother to get water to drink.

"Remember what the doctor said?" if the poison is too high can get to the brain that can make Dena lose consciousness, said the mother to Dad.

Looks like Dad feels guilty, down rubbing his forehead. "Maybe you have to make that decision" Father said.

Hasbi approached the bed, ordering Mother and Brother Anjani to shift. He carried a pale thin body in front of him..

"Let this time you hate me for opposing Dad" But sorry, I have to take Brother Dena to the hospital"

"Please, lower your ego" Hasbi said

That night, the car driven by Hasbi drove through the streets of Pangkalpinang city that is slow and quiet at hours like this.

Dad finally relented, so he could not bear to risk the life of his son who was almost dying to endure pain.

Along the way, his words were increasingly raved. I want to die, I want to die...

And he heard her say a name "Mas Adam", many times Dena repeated that name. Anjani and Hasbi looked at each other, asking who Dena mentioned. It must be someone who means a lot to him..

Anjani opens her sister's phone, typing in contact with the search name "ADAM"...

But even Anjani did not find any contact stored with Adam's name. Anjani thought that contacting someone named Adam could calm her sister down a bit to encourage her.

But.... NAUGHT..

Dena just keeps saying "Let ME DIE".....