Love In Butterfly Needles

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I want to love you

as the poets

who often fucks with poetry

I want to love you

just like the sufis

it is often good to be close to Him

I want to love you

as the philosophers

often do not fall asleep because of questions

I want to love you

as are smokers

which often destroys the lungs

I want to love you

not as who

I want to love you in my own way.

Do you know how I love you?

In the most difficult way, but must...

" Yes.steadfastly let you go with her".

Adam daydreamed lying in his room that afternoon, he had just arrived home after a day of wandering around watching the several business outlets he had pioneered .

So far everything has gone smoothly, although sometimes there is a longing for the world that 9 years ago he wrestled but he must leave for the sake of forgetting someone.

But it seems that his efforts were in vain, because until now he still missed the woman.

Women who have even chosen to marry other men.

He grabbed a bouquet of flowers, on the nightstand next to his bed. He kissed the flower, then hugged it because it was the only memory he had.

Of course it should be a painful memory, because it will only remind her of the woman's marriage.

But naively, he had to make the bouquet as a sweet memory that he had to keep.

His phone rang, a message from Laras.

" Well, Adam, can we meet tomorrow?"

" But Adam could come to the Hemodialysis Room, there's something I want to give you".

" Portage from Sister Dena".

Adam was excited to hear Laras pronounce his sister-in-law's name.

He actually did not want to see the hemodialysis room again because he wanted to leave everything that had happened there.

But his heart could not refuse to know what Dena wanted to put on him. He replied to a message from Laras.

" All right, I'll be there tomorrow. Thank you Ras".

Baras then replied again.

" Ok Mas Adam, don't reply to my message again because I'm at home. I'm afraid my husband read it".

It's like people who are having an affair they just send a message.

Laras is afraid that if he gets caught by Hasbi, he's finished .

Adam let out a long sigh, thinking back to the woman. I can't wait for tomorrow, even though he didn't meet Dena.

" Dena, after releasing you, it turns out there's one more phase that's more difficult.. That's your curiosity".

****

Wednesday Morning

Adam stepped foot in the hallway of the 2nd floor hospital that he used to pass for 9 years every morning.

From a distance the sound of the once familiar machine alarm in his ears had already been heard.

Of course there are many memories in this hemodialysis room, but the most inherent memories are only memories that are only briefly with the woman.

Adam opens the door to the room, to the nurse's desk looking for Laras.

Risma who first saw Adam immediately screamed calling his name.

" Mas Adam.", the sound of Risma's screams made all those in the room turn their heads.

Laras and Lukas also approached the former senior.

They hugged each other and missed.

" How are you Luke?"

" What as long as we don't meet you've got a lover, hehehe", Adam teases Luke

Lukas scratched his head.

" I'm too handsome Mas, so the standard to be my lover is above average. At least like Dena, hahaha", Lukas chuckled.

" Ahh, you mention that name again", Adam's mind.

" Ciihh, just let go of your playboy title and replace it with a karatan singles title", Laras said and greeted with laughter Risma.

" Look at you guys, I'll bring a woman I'll introduce as my lover".

" Oh yeah, what's going on here?" asked Risma.

" I have a little business with Laras".

" Our barrel speaks there" Adam pointed to a long bench in front of the hemodialysis room.

He was uncomfortable talking about Dena's problem in front of Risma and Luke.

Adam and Baras came out of the room.

" Well, Adam, I have something for Adam. This is from Sister Dena, she asked me to give her to Mas Adam", Laras gave the silver necklace to Mas Adam.

" Thank you Ras, give my thanks to Dena", Adam received the necklace and put it in his pocket.

" Sister Dena said this by him in return for the butterfly brooch that Mas Adam gave at that time".

" Laras, how's Dena doing?", Adam tried to find out about the woman.

" Good Mas, Kak Dena is not working now, we just returned from Bali".

" Hasbi and I went to Bali for a week with Kak dena and Adrian on their honeymoon".

Adam's face bowed lethargic, hearing Laras say that Dena had just had her honeymoon with Adrian.

" Did he know I was meeting you today?"

" Hmm, I haven't said that to Sister Dena Mas. This morning, he went to the hospital. Today is Wednesday, Kak Dena schedule blood washing" said Laras.

" Yes Ras, give my regards to Dena yes. I think I should go home now".

" Okay Adam, I will tell you".

" Oh yes Mas, the butterfly brooch that I gave to Kak Dena always wear".

" So early this morning I saw him wearing it, it looked like Kak Dena liked the brooch", Laras wanted to comfort Mas Adam because he knew Mas Adam still kept disappointed.

" Thank God Race if Dena likes it, I know she'll be attracted to butterflies".

Adam then reentered the Hemodialysis Room, bidding on Luke and Risma.

He also took the time to greet one by one patients in the room who had been familiar with him for many years.

Still their faces were full of staring at this shady man.

They want to have a long conversation with a warm man who is always open to listening to all complaints of patients.

But baby, Adam can't stay there for long. His chest ached every time he looked at the bed at the end of it, which reminded him of the moment when he always landed a butterfly needle on the woman's arm.

Coming home from the hospital Adam went straight to his house.

The first thing he did when he got home was to observe the necklace that Dena gave him.

He observed a long silver necklace with a Balinese pendant. Behind the pendant was engraved the initials of the letter "D ".

Adam rubbed the engraving of the letter, grasped it and then he put it around his neck.

" Dena, I'll always wear it".

" I don't understand what you mean by giving a necklace with your initials on this necklace"

" Do you still love me, do you want your name to live on in my heart?".

Adam grabs his cell phone, looking for Dena's name.

He was eager to hear the woman's voice, intending to call her without saying anything. Just hear Dena say Hello or good day.

But that intention he undoes, he is self-aware of Dena's current status. The woman has become the wife of the man.

Why love is this complicated, they used to be hindered by the status of Adam who already has a wife. And now they are hindered by the status of Dena who already has a husband.

You never know what it's like to be forced to leave

when the heart wants to stay together.

You never know what it's like to cry in self-blame for still holding on to feelings.

You never know my pain when I ask God to take away your name

in my heart and memory.

That's a lie, all it takes

get used to.

Unfortunately now I have been forced, but not accustomed .

Understand what the pain is like?

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