Love In Butterfly Needles

Dena's Decision

Nether pellet feels heavy

Tears are soaring

Mutual

The coldest thing to do is throw a bullet

It spilled!

Netra blush

Letting tears flow

Wipe the pain getting worse

***Today 1 day after Dena's return from the hospital, since then she just locked herself in the room.Doing all her activities in the room. Sometimes Kak Anjani or Hasbi in between their busy lives, took the time to accompany Dena.

Trying to tell a lot of things to divert Dena's grief.

Still remembered in Dena's head the debate two days ago at the Hospital, after the Doctor came out of the room, Ayah called Kak Anjani and Hasbi to come to the hospital immediately.

Hasbi who was busy with her work at the office, without thinking again immediately headed to the hospital. Dad's voice on the phone sounded serious, making Hasbi think her brother was in a bad state.

Sis Anjani and Hasbi hugged Dena after hearing Dad tell her what had happened to her second child.Kak Anjani kissed her sister's soft cheeks wet with tears. While Hasbi clasped Dena's hand tightly, cheering her on and hinting that everything would be fine.

" Wait let alone well, why did Dad not persuade Kak Dena to immediately wash the blood?" insist Hasbi

I nodded in disapproval

"We'll find an alternative first" Dad replied

"Alternative?" what if something happens to you is it the same with sister Dena?" sergeant Hasbi with a high tone

Mom pulls Dad's arm, looks on with pity approving Hasbi's words. From the beginning, I had agreed with the act of dialysis recommended by the doctor, but I still can not seem to accept all the solutions given by the doctor.

"Don't rush to make a decision, because once Dena does the dialysis it means her whole life has to depend on that action"firm Dad to Mom while staring hard at Hasbi who still urged Dad to make a decision immediately.

"But yeah, it's a matter of life" Hasbi still insisted on his stance

Brother Anjani who had been silent came to talk

"I agree with Dad, for now we just take Dena home to rest at home while we look for other alternatives" said Anjani

Mother glanced at Dena, looking from earlier she just silently heard the debate that was in front of her

"You yourself how's boy?" " Are you ready to do some dialysis?" because no matter how all the decisions are in your hands, you're going to live them."All of us here can only give you a good, bad opinion that you yourself must decide"..

Ahhh Mother is indeed the wisest person... Dena looked at her mother's eyes for a long time.

"Did it hurt?" ask Dena

The mother is unable to answer, once again gently rubbing her child's shoulder.

" Do what you think is best right now, son"...

Hasbi simply fell silent, unable to deny Dena's decision. Let me first understand how the process of washing the blood, said Dena to Hasbi who looked disappointed because her brother preferred not to follow the doctor's advice.

That day, Dad signed a forced discharge letter from the hospital and signed a letter denying Hemodialysis's actions. Dena felt her body slightly powered after the blood transfusion, she was more determined to get out of the hospital and chose to rest at home.

**** Dena reached for her phone which she barely touched for 3 days, she noticed there were many incoming messages and missed voice calls filled her call log. Of course it's all from coworkers, its limitations, and everything related to the Company .

Lazily Dena opened the incoming message and did not intend to reply. " It must be all confusion", thought Dena.because to this day Dena has not given any news to a single co-worker, HRD or his superiors.

"I have to make a decision" muttered Dena. Since it was impossible for him to return to the Capital in this state of him, after all, his family would not allow him to return to work.

Dena started typing messages on her phone with the recipient's name Bu Sania.

" Good afternoon ma'am, I just want to tell you that starting today I resigned from the Company because of something that I can not explain, I will immediately send the Resign application letter to the HRD section,thank you. Then Dena deactivated her phone, because she knew the chatty woman would immediately call her because she would not be satisfied for him to read the resignation message from Dena without elaborating the reasons in detail.

"I'm sorry". said dena in heart

"I'm sorry if it all happened once it arrived" there's nothing I can defend anymore for my career..

Leaving the dream in the Capital is not an easy thing for Dena, considering that she started from scratch without the help of anyone trying to migrate to the capital,now he has to give up one dream in his life.

"It's a good thing I don't have many friends there" Dena thought

Otherwise, he will be troubled to answer the question of what is happening to him, why suddenly disappeared.

"Ahhhh there is also a good thing that turns out not to have many friends"....

There have been many decisions that have been made by Dena, refusing to take any hemodialysis action, resigning from the company where she works, deciding not to return to the capital. Buried all the dreams he had been waking up all this time. And the no less important decision he took that day was "stop dreaming to find the man he hoped for", for Dena there would be no man who would accept a sick woman like her..

Lord.my heart has crumbled...

"Life is sometimes unfair, so get used to yourself Den" said Dena..

Dena could only sigh long

"Lord, expand my patience. Let everything go as the owner of life does.Do not ever force yourself to look perfect, because something forced all of it will never end well.

"Yes Rabb, if desire is rain, then I am a traveler who has no place to house all desires"

"Yes Rabb, if hope is rain, then I am the hope of the river that is flooded by flash floods to burst its banks"

The prayer was at the end of pale lips that had lost a smile ...