Love In Butterfly Needles

Male remorse

The morning that giggled after the rain last night, I missed him who once stirred up souls.

Somehow how's it going? I want to say hello but will it be answered with affection?

For leaving I have left wounds for him.

Is there any time left? When you used to carve laughter together in the twilight sky, after a dark night you have passed quiet by yourself.

My desire to go back to meet, feel again the warm embrace that you once gave.Even the smell of your body is still clear in memory.

Or it will just be a memory that I will never forget, because when I think of all of us :

You are the most beautiful person I have ever found.

*** Hasbi put together a long poem that only she can poach right in her mind . Today, August 14th should be a historic day in his life. Yes, today should be her wedding day with Amira if only she hadn't resigned their marriage.

He scratched his head that was not itchy, staring at the photo in his mobile gallery full of the face of the girl he still loved.

" Where are you now Amira?", sighed Hasbi.

It's not that Hasbi isn't trying to meet Amira, trying once again to fight for their relationship. However it seems Amira accidentally disappeared from her life. All of Hasbi's social media accounts have been blocked, many times Hasbi has tried to contact via mobile but is still inactive.

Hasbi was determined to come to Amira's house, but the door of her house was always closed like an uninhabited. The last way Hasbi did, waiting for Amira's work at her office but nil he did not find Amira out of the office building until all the employees had gone home. He asked Indri, Amira's co-worker at the office. But the information he got from Indri that his former lover had resigned from the Company where he worked one week ago. Indri also said that if he did not know where Amira was at this time, Amira resigned suddenly and never told him anything if now he was where.

The man felt almost desperate, he knew he had made a big mistake that was difficult for Amira to accept. However, if only he would understand a little of my reason, maybe he is still my lover, Hasbi regretted.

In fact, if he wants to wait it will not be long because at this time Hasbi saw Kak Dena has started to show a lot of progress in his health. His body weight has started to increase, does not look thin dry again like a month ago . His pale face now looks refreshed, Kak Dena who was difficult to sleep at night is now starting to be able to regulate his sleep time. And most importantly, his older brother was already back excited about his day.

He always looks happy, a lot of talk about his new experience during the dialysis. Especially if you have told me about Mas Adam, his brother was always enthusiastic. Isn't this all a good start for sister dena. A good start for her can make sure her brother is fine and can refocus with his wedding plans. But it's too late, there's no sweet plan if the woman he loves doesn't know where the jungle is.

Father and Mother prefer to be quiet and do not ask much more how his relationship with Amira. Only Dena who occasionally still trying to find out about Amira, Hasbi did not want to make her brother always feel guilty, in front of Dena he pretended to encourage her by saying "Have it been brother, brother, maybe we are not yet a match. I've been mengikhlasi this farewell and hope someday I find a better replacement", the sentence he uttered with a full shiver of pain because it felt impossible for there to be a woman who could replace Amira in his heart.

*** Hasbi is still staring at Amira's photo on her phone, even she still keeps the photo five years ago during their first date in the afternoon at a lake on the edge of town. He recalled how their first accidental encounter was while watching a movie in a movie theater. Many memories of sweet memories are still stored in Hasbi's memory, "Amira, maybe you're the same as me? still remember all the twists we've been through?".

Time still showing at 20:00 . Hasbi feels bored every night just spending time by daydreaming in her room, she decides to go to her sister's room. Talking to Dena is a fun thing for her. He knocked on the door of Kak Dena's room, from inside the room was heard telling him to come in .

" Dena's sister hasn't slept yet, hasbi asked

" Not yet, sister again try to send an email to some company that you heard there is a job vacancy info", replied Dena casually .

" What??? sister Dena want to apply for a job?? Hasbi was shocked to hear her sister's answer just now.

" Yes, sister is bored no activity at all. Besides the condition of the body is now much better"..

" But brother.", Hasbi hesitantly continued his sentence, afraid of making his sister offended.

" Eehhh.I mean Hasbi is not so kak, Hasbi is only worried about the health of kajak.fearing Kak Dena tired later even why why.

Dena smiled at her sister's worries, "sister can actually be more sick if every day just sleeps and does not have busyness".

This time Hasbi relented with her sister's opinion, because she could understand how saturated her at home alone without working while she knew Kak Dena had been a career woman and hard worker.

" Why aren't you sleeping?" asked Dena.

" Not yet sleepy brother"

" hehehe hasn't been drowsy because someone misses someone?", Dena teases her sister.

Hearing the word Hasbi miss even had an idea to discuss about Mas Adam.

" Kak Dena herself how, did you ever miss someone?", Hasbi asked back.

Dena laughed at her sister's question, you want to know if it's just a distraction? said Dena.

" His two, hehehe.", now it was Hasbi's turn to laugh.

Finally that night, Dena told me a lot about a longing. He began to open up a little with his younger brother about someone who later made him learn about a taste called love. Although he did not clearly say who someone was, but Hasbi long before his brother told me he even knew who the man he meant.

While Hasbi was comfortably starting to share a bit of the unease that she was craving later on. To her sister, she finally admitted how much she missed Amira's presence. How he regretted this separation, of course, the regret of a man who had failed to maintain the relationship he had fought not with a short time .

Dena could feel how her younger brother was feeling, even though she herself had never experienced that name of her heartbreak. So far her relationship with Mas Adam is fine, although there is no status what and Mas Adam still considers her as a sister . But at least he can still see Mas Adam, still communicate every day even though only through short messages or phone calls just talking trivial things . As for Hasbi, he did not even have the slightest gap to preach with Amira at this time.

" It's all because you worry too much about me" Dena said again with guilt .

Hasbi asked Dena to stop blaming herself. He hugged his sister, whispering that he was sure that Kak Dena would be happy one day, "tell me sister, if there is a man who dares to hurt your heart".

Dena's glassy eyes heard her sister's words, she realized how Hasbi was trying to protect her. Dena whispered back to Hasbi.. " If you want, I'll introduce you to two nurses who are single and no less beautiful than Amira", Dena seduces her sister with a joke that arrives just present in her head. Of course he meant Risma and Baras, female nurses in the Hemodialysis room.

Hasbi randomized her sister's hair, inwardly muttering "It's enough that you're in love with a hemodialysis nurse, don't take me".

But once again, the soul mate God has prepared for us we cannot guess. Who would have thought that later even Hasbi who was crazy crazy about one of the names that her sister mentioned earlier.

" Take care of your regrets, all you need to do is keep on abusing yourself and not make the same mistake the second time", it was Dena's message before Hasbi finally got sleepy and went back to her room to drop her body and sleep asleep with thousands of regrets that she still keeps.

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Announcement :

Hi all loyal readers "love in the butterfly needle", awaited yes next episode later tonight. Now the author again schedule a dialysis.. God willing, the author updates again tonight