Love In Butterfly Needles

Non-regressive

End of August

You know, there's a lot of stories here

August, sorrow or like to exclaim, feud.

It may be impossible to say that everything is fine.

Some moments of self almost uprooted, almost extinct shipwreck.

But, the next few moments there is a little hope and passion that comes. Imprisonment of the body, heart and prejudice of the situation.

You know, I got tired too!!!

*** Dena locked herself in the room, until the afternoon she was still asleep in her sleep. Mom tried to wake her up, knocking on the door but there was no answer at all. Worried what happened to her daughter, she tried to call Hasbi to come home soon. The sister who was from noon trying to contact her brother but never had an answer from his phone call, rushed home for fear of something happening to her brother .

" Sister Dena, open the door"

" You're okay, right?", Hasbi kept trying to knock on the door.

Dena blinked her eyes, looking at the clock on the wall of her room realizing nearly four hours she was asleep. Hasbi's voice woke him up, he walked lazily open the door of the room then again threw his body on the mattress.

" Kak Dena why, sick?", asked Hasbi while holding her sister's forehead trying to check.

Dena shook her head, but she did not want to look at her sister's face because she was still trying to hide her swollen face from crying.

But this little brother knew his older brother well, he knew there was something his older brother was hiding.

" Tell me what happened?", Hasbi pulled Dena's body, trying to turn Dena's face towards her.

" I'm just tired and need rest" Dena still dodged the pseudo-answer she offered.

" You know, I can even feel the lies in your voice even though I don't see your eyes" Hasbi said in her heart.

Dena was still silent, she was tired of hiding all her feelings all this time. He needs someone where he tells stories, where he feels whatever he faces.

Silent, the room was still silent without a sound. Hasbi was still sitting on the side of her sister's bed, deliberately giving her distance and space waiting for what her sister would do.

Finally there was also the sound of sobs, he scattered himself to hug his younger brother.

" I just want to cry, let me cry without you having to ask her cause", Dena hugged her sister even tighter.

Hasbi stroked her sister's soft hair, she even knew what made a person cry without any physical injuries on her body for one reason".

" Cry, brother, if it calms you down.."

"There is nothing wrong with tears, even a man who once cried because of feelings", Hasbi calmed her brother .

Satisfied he was crying in the arms of his younger brother, he asked Hasbi not to tell his mother anything. He ended his grief that afternoon with a promise to his sister that he would tell her about what made her cry.

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Dena took a few pills that he regularly consumed 2 months since he was convicted of kidney failure. Tonight was like night, usually he just spent time in his room, staring at the mobile phone screen but confused about what to do with his mobile phone. At first glance he still remembered how this morning he was presented with a bitter surprise from the silent man he loved.

Tomorrow is Dena's schedule to wash blood to the hospital, yesterday he was always eager to wait for a mandatory meeting with the green butterfly. But today it was not something he was waiting for. I want him to see no more of the man, not hate ... but avoiding not to meet with her according to Dena is the right choice so that her feelings that do not know themselves can be eliminated slowly.

" It's wrong for me to feel attracted just because he treats me well?", Dena sighed softly.

During this time he was too busy waiting for the meeting, until he forgot that the farewell always came without preparation.

Dena leaned her body, sitting in the corner of the bed hugging her knees. His head felt dizzy, the nausea that was late this rarely he felt now appeared again. He grabbed the medicine box on the table next to his bed, chugging several pills at the same time. The drug was routinely consumed for two months.

It turns out that yes, the heart and mind greatly affect health conditions.

He closed his eyes, hoping that the night would sleep well and forgot how complicated his life was right now. He was like sailing on the high seas, when he saw the dock to lean but it turned out his ship had sunk first.

" Hey, my man, how could I possibly hate you?"

Even when I'm hurt, I can still feel that I love you.

*** Saturday morning,

Dena packed a small bag that she used to take to the hospital, prepared some ampoules of medicine that would be injected finished washing the blood. Not to forget he brought a box of supplies that Mother had prepared for him. That morning his face was not as happy as yesterday when he was going to go to wash blood.

" Are you sick?", asked Mother when she saw her daughter's face that looked tangled .

" No ma'am, I'm fine", Dena looks still tidying up the equipment she'll be carrying

" I'm leaving ya ma'am, it's almost too late" Dena glanced at the watch on her wrist.

He kissed his mother's hand, took his leave and drove his vehicle lazily.

Arriving at the doorstep of the Room Hemodialysis Dena stopped her steps, sighing deeply as if preparing herself how she should behave if meeting the man. He walked to his place at the end of the room, Mas Adam who had prepared some equipment at the place where Dena greeted him politely as he always did.

" Morning Dena..."

" Are you sick?"

" Why is your face wrinkled and you didn't give me a smile this morning?", Mas Adam still asked with his joke hoping that Dena would smile like usual.

" I'm not feeling well" Dena replied briefly expressionlessly.

" Why, you have a fever?", Adam put his palms on Dena's head and neck.

Dena actually wanted to brush off Mas Adam's hand, but it felt like her feelings were still too deep to let the man touch her, enjoying every touch that the man gave.

" Ahhh, you hypocrite, you are indeed a true loser Dena, you want to hate that man, you want to hate that man, but look how you enjoy the warm touch of the hand that may not be considered meaningful to the man", Dena railed against herself.

" Come, stop all your good treatment" the line just came out of Dena's mouth.

Adam scrunched his forehead, bewildered by this change in the attitude of the woman before him. But he was silent, not responding to Dena's hardship because he knew how the emotional condition of the patient's kidney failure. He can understand, maybe Dena is having personal problems so he does not want to talk.

" Luke, could you handle me today?", the idea of saying that was a reflex when he saw Luke passing by in front of him.

Adam with a calm face as usual hinted to Luke to fulfill Dena's request.

Adam returned to his seat, seemingly continuing his busy life as if he did not consider Dena's strange behavior today to him. Dena was getting annoyed by it, she really hoped that the man would ask her why she behaved like this, she said,but in fact the man ignored or rather did not realize Dena who had put on a face full of anger.

" Have Den, forget it, Adam.. You will only let yourself be much more hurt if you keep hoping for it" Luke said, inserting a butterfly needle in Dena's arm.

" I haven't given up" Dena said

" Don't be blinded by Den's feelings, you know he's a married man, why don't you try to open your heart to me who's still alone hehehe", Luke still did not aggressively seduce the woman in front of him

Dena lazily responded to Luke's joke.

" You know Mas Adam's wife?", asked Dena to investigate.

" My suggestion is, you better not know him more deeply if you don't want to go deeper and swallow the disappointment" Luke was serious about his words.

" But I've come a long way with my feelings, I can't stop here" Dena showed her selfishness at the time.

" It's your right Den, you're entitled to decide whatever steps you're going to take"

" But you saw for yourself that he even had a child" Luke was still trying to resuscitate Dena.

" Yes, I know"

" But I want to have it my way".

Luke shook his head as if to say "whatever", he stuck a second butterfly needle in Dena's skin accompanied by a small groan from his lips .

" I stay yes, if you need help call me" said Lukas and immediately returned to his seat.

Four hours passed by Dena with a pouting face, hoping Mas Adam came to him to just ask if he had eaten? But apparently the man was busy with his work, and was occasionally seen calling and replying to someone's message on his cell phone .

" Ciihhh he must have called his wife", Dena rebuked his annoyance to herself.

Asking how strange he was, he was angry at the man who had contacted his wife without realizing he had no position in her heart.

" You still allow me to pull out this butterfly right?", Mas Adam approached Dena after hearing the engine alarm sound signifying the four-hour time was over.

Dena just silently did not answer, half of her heart wanted to refuse but the other half was still excited waiting for the man to be in a very close distance to her.

As usual, this man still with his warm face unraveled the smile that Dena had always been waiting for.

" You have to rest enough Den, don't think too much so that your health condition continues to be stable", Mas Adam still gives his attention to Dena.

How can this woman stay away from this man, if only with a little attention he has re-emerged.

" It seems I need to take you to lunch together again yes, let you eat and get excited", Mas Adam said that interspersed with a small laugh.

" Hey...how can you keep giving me that gap to move forward with my feelings? You've got a wife, but you can't awkwardly be alone with me" Dena said in her heart.

" But wait, this is what I want to be close to this man and make him fall in love with me" Dena's half-hearted heart wooed me to keep approaching him.

" How about this afternoon I take you to one of my favorite places"

" You can tell me all your problems, I'll be a good listener" said Mas Adam.

Look how this guy didn't even give Dena the distance to step back.

Dena finally re-dissolved with her feelings, letting the man continue to be close to her.

" Alright, take me wherever you want" Dena replied with a winning grin.

Over there, Lukas shook his head at how these two people had started their wrong steps.