Love In Butterfly Needles

Promises on the Beach of Memories

Women are creatures composed of complex molecular molecules. His mouth said it didn't want to, but his heart said it wanted to . Therefore, someone must simplify it. Whose that? The patient man.

How not, yesterday a full day Dena spent just to cry and want to hate the man. But look, this afternoon he was already in a slow-moving car driven by Mas Adam.

Dena leaves her car at the hospital, Mas Adam will drive her back later to the hospital after he takes Dena to his favorite place. Dena sent a short message to Mom and Hasbi, so as not to worry about waiting for her to come home a little late. Dena said she had lunch with another patient after dialysis.

" Where are we going" asked Dena, still confused as to where the man would take her.

" To a place that makes your face no longer tangle hehehe", Mas Adam teased Dena.

Dena poked slowly on Mas Adam's arm, then her face met with red considering his behavior this morning who was indifferent to the man.

They were almost at the place where Mas Adam was going.

" Hhmmm, apparently this beach is your favorite place", muttered Dena in heart.

The beach is located not far from the city, it is a destination for the surrounding community to tour just enjoy young coconut ice.

Adam took Dena down from the car, leading Dena to sit on a beachside bench under the trees.

" Would you like to eat there?", asked Mas Adam, pointing to a seafood restaurant located not far from where they were sitting.

Dena shook her head "I'm not hungry, I ate the food that Mom prepared".

" Hhmm. well then I order you a sweet tea yes, I order a young coconut ice"

" But you don't try to drink coconut water" said Mas Adam considering how dangerous it is for kidney failure patients to drink young coconut water that is high in potassium. Although there are some patients with hypocalium conditions are still safe to consume young coconut .

Dena obeyed whatever Mas Adam said, every word that came out of this man's mouth felt like a King's word to be obeyed .

" Well, I promised you I'd be a good listener to you. Now let's tell you what kind of problem you're having", Mas Adam started to open the conversation .

Dena looked at the man who was sitting next to her, her heart screaming asking God what he should do. He did not want to be honest about his feelings, because no matter how selfish he was he was not ready this man knew his feelings and then began to move away in order to maintain a heart.

" Do you have a problem with your family?", Mas Adam asked again because he was waiting for Dena who did not say a word.

"No, my family's fine"

" Is there a problem with your health?"

" Not really, even though I felt pain with my body I was used to all that pain" Dena replied in a quivering tone as if saying look how strong I have been so far.

" What made you act weird this morning to me, didn't I tell you that I thought of you as my own sister so don't hide anything from me" Adam looked into Dena's eyes.

" Yet again your gaze made me a commoner"

" And for the umpteenth time you still say think of me like your sister" Dena continued to protest hearing that in her heart.

Long Dena fell silent, then finally she decided to make a sound.

" Well, Adam, do you believe that I said that at my age I was the first time I fell in love?"

Mas Adam smiled, ruffled Dena's hair and said

" believe it, and it's not impossible because I'm sure you're a woman who's so heartily made a choice".

Dena continued her story

" When I was sentenced to kidney failure, I felt I had no reason to live".

" But the presence of a man in my life made me find a little hope and a passion to be healthy"

" I fell in love with that man, but I didn't dare say to him", Dena was finally able to say a little about how she felt about this man even though she was still hiding who he meant.

" Why don't you say, isn't the emancipation of women still valid today.hehehe" Mas Adam responded with his joke.

" Because I'm a loser" Dena answered briefly. Then he fell silent again looking for the right sentence to continue his words.

" Anyone wants to accept a sick woman like me anyway, I think I know myself enough" Dena replied with a quivering half-crying tone.

" Why do you say that?"

" You're a beautiful woman, a great woman and you deserve to fight for your love" Mas Adam cheered Dena, one more hand playing Dena's fine hair and tucking it in her ear.

Dena hated her treatment like this, although there was a part in her heart that craved the physical touch of this man.

Look how Dena was like being given hope by this man. " Can you make everything light, silent which means a gesture or hate which is a condition", Dena curses this man with her love. "You even kept infiltrating my heart with all your treatment".

" Do you think that I deserve to fight for a married man?, Dena asked without daring to look into the man's eyes .

Adam was silent, for a moment looking for what sentence he should give to Dena. He took a long breath, though,

" If that guy also put his feelings on you, why not? you're obligated to fight for it"

" But if that guy doesn't return your feelings, you better back off regularly".

" It is not in religion that we justify the name polygamy" said Mas Adam briefly.

Silence again, now they both fell silent like each of them lost a word. Silence, only the sound of waves pounding on the beach. A glass of sweet tea and young coconuts were already in front of them. But the two still didn't touch her at all.

" What if it happened to Mas Adam?", Dena finally said breaking the silence between them.

The man did not rush to answer, he imagined the face of Lisa and Juna son just his puppet. She knew how the mother of her child was a patient woman, who was willing to leave her career to take care of their own children. It would be unfair if he returned the woman's devotion with a betrayal.

" No one knows the heart of man, because God can turn back at any time"

" Even now I say I won't be polygamous, but I never know how my heart will be"

" God can leave me one more heart to love", again Mas Adam always with a calm face answer all questions Dena, making Dena more helpless with the attitude he had.

" If love is true, there cannot be two names in the same heart" Dena tried to break what Mas Adam said just now .

" Here you go, let's drink your sweet tea.we've made a lot of noise later your throat is dry, hehehe" , Adam threw a joke to divert the conversation because he didn't know what to answer .

Dena stirred the stirring glass of drink that had almost finished its contents, Mas Adam seemed to reply to the message on his cellphone .

" Wife Mas Adam yes", Dena asked but her heart held back jealousy.

Adam nodded in agreement.

" Did he know that Mas Adam was going with me?" ask Dena again .

" Of course you know" Mas Adam chuckled at Dena's question.

" Why can you tell your wife you're with another woman" Dena swerved .

" Let's relax, my wife knows that I already think of you like my sister" Mas Adam tried to straighten out.

Dena pouted, again she had to accept as what she was considered by the man.

" O Adam, you said this place was also one of your favorite places"

" Tell me, is this also where your memories are with someone you once called your ex-lover, who turned out to be your wife?", Dena was curious about the reason Mas Adam brought her here.

He had prepared an ear for an answer that could have set his flames on fire in jealousy.

" You want to know why I did all this to you?" the man brought his face closer to Dena's ear .

A split second Dena felt her nerve like she was about to escape because she held a deep desire for this man.

Dena nodded, looking gently at the warm face beside her. Dena hopes that something that will be in the story of this man is a clue to the direction that will lead where he should step.

" Three years ago I lost my only sister", Mas Adam began to open the story.

" I'm sorry for that" Dena said in her condolences

Adam continues his story,

" This place, this beach is always a place that he routinely visits if his heart is not okay"

She's the same age as you, she's beautiful and a jolly girl"

" He was sentenced to enter cerebral hemispheres one year before his departure"

But what makes me still not let go is because he did not die of his illness, but he chose to end his life by downing poison out of despair and deep disappointment towards the man he loved", Mas Adam rubbed his red nose, he seemed to be holding his sadness when he told that.

Dena just kept quiet, tried to look around and get into the feelings of this man. Until he understood why all this time this man always paid attention to her, protecting her.

" When I first saw you enter the hemodialysis room, I immediately remembered my sister's late home."

" And that's when I promised in my heart I'd always make sure you were okay".

" I don't want you to lose hope, despair at all the trials you face" Mas Adam's voice sounded heavier .

Dena felt touched by what this man said, he was a really nice guy.

God, do I have to consider this man just as my older brother? While the bud buds of my feelings grow more fertile, I can no longer prune even though now I already know he is a married man.

" Dena, promise me you'll never lose your spirit"

" Please promise me you'll never do the same thing that my sister Tania did", Adam raised his pinky and asked Dena to do the same as a form of promise that the woman must fulfill.

Dena's eyes glazed with glass, nodding and carving a promise in the heart for the sake of this man he will continue to be eager to live the day until God says "come back, you are no longer worthy on earth".

" We've been here a long time, let's go home...My wife and son are waiting for me"..

Dena can not afford to be jealous, can not also feel to give up the two of the time that has ended today. Then he could only step up, letting this man go where he was abandoning his feelings