I want to Find Him

CHAPTRE 5

All night I thought of Rain's words. My insight was completely opened up because of her words last night.

Last night I was thinking about the chemistry. Shame, worry, and lack of confidence are all mixed up. I want to study chemistry. Because I'm sure I won't be able to study alone. And I desperately need an expert.

If I hire a private teacher outside it will save a lot of money, while I do not want to bother Mother. And the only way I can only hope is for Brother Fatha who will teach me willingly.

But how do I say it, huh? I have rejected my grandfather's offer.

I also gathered the courage to come to meet Brother Fatha. Anyway, I have to meet him to ask for his help. I still remember what he said yesterday that he would always be there to help me. And I'm sure he won't resist my wish on this one. Because this is also his wish.

I felt a bit nervous as I passed through the twelve grade IPA corridor. I never went through here alone before. Because this corridor is filled by the students of class twelve IPA during the second break. And that's only natural. It even happens to every underclassman who feels sorry for his upperclassman.

I just chose to keep walking while looking down. Ignoring every pair of eyes that might now be staring at me. I continued walking until I finally reached her class, Brother Fatha.

Alhamdulillahot..

It turns out that Brother Fatha is in her class. He was hanging out with his friends who were telling stories. I approached them too.

"Assalamu'alaikum!" I said as my distance was somewhat closer to the group.

They're looking. Then answer my greetings.

Brother Fatha looks surprised to see my presence. Maybe he couldn't believe there was a younger brother so bravely coming to his class.

"Sister Fatha. Can we talk? There's something I want to talk about." I said in a somewhat clumsy tone.

Brother Fatha was a little jolted, "Oh, can." He got out of his place and approached me. "What's wrong?"

I looked at my friends who were excited to see the two of us.

"We don't talk here."

Brother Fatha understood.

We also chose a rather crowded but safe place to chat. And that place is the cafe in front of our school.

"No problem, Han, if we're here?" Ask Brother Fatha who looks worried.

"Remain, Brother. We used to, really, come here at school." My word.

"We? We who?"

"Me and my friends."

"Ooh.." Sahut flat. "Then what did Hany want to say until Brother was invited here?"

"It's about the chemical's less, brother." My word. "Now I intend to study chemistry." Put me on Brother Fatha.

"Yes, then good dong, Han!" He said excitedly. "Then, what's the problem?"

I lowered my head and said, "The problem is that I need Big Brother to teach me. Is Brother Fatha still willing to help me?"

He also laughed. Now I'm really embarrassed. I should have thought of a situation like this. It's really embarrassing.

Hearing those words I immediately raised my head and looked at Brother Fatha.

"Really, Sis?" I asked with spirit.

He also nodded.

"Thank you, yes, brother! When do we start learning?"

"When you're always ready." Said with a smile.

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After the Isha prayer is the time of my appointment with Sister Fatha. We will study at the cafe in front of the school where we met this afternoon. I just got delivered by my dad.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Dad. I'm saying yes!" I said while greeting my father.

"Student learning, yes! I'll pick you up at 9:30."

"Yes, Dad." I went to the cafe door.

Arriving inside I immediately found Brother Fatha who was sitting in the place last day we sat. I approached him too.

"Have to sit at the table 'number 6' continues, Brother?" I joke.

"Huh-ha. Ja. You'll get dizzy later on Brother if Brother moves place." Said Brother Fatha.

"It won't be so hard, brother. Going around five times is sure to."

"Huh-ha. You can just." Fatha laughed too.

While chatting, I also took out my study tools from the bag. I sucked her up on the table like I was on my desk.

"The arrangement is very neat. Like an office desk, Han." Said Brother Fatha.

"He-he. I'm used to being a gini, brother. Let's learn it more comfortably." My word.

"O-oh." His speech. Suddenly, Brother Fatha seemed to remember something. "Why, by the way, did Hany change her mind so quickly? Yesterday, right, Hany really does not want less?" Ask Brother Fatha.

"Heem.. I think I got it, huh. That's why it changes so quickly." I tease Brother Fatha.

"It's true, yes, can you guide? Tell me the trick, dong, let Brother get guidance too." The reply.

"He he he.. I actually got some good advice from someone. He said, I shouldn't make a lot of people sad just because I hate someone. And that advice managed to make me aware of my stupidity all along. That's why I'm determined to start fixing all the mistakes I've made." I said feelingly.

Brother Fatha was stunned for a while. Maybe he was moved to hear my not so good words.

"Can't we start learning?" My toot.

"Come, let's get started!"

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