I want to Find Him

CHAPTRE 3

"Yes!" Call her.

I turned my head and found the weight of a tall man in front of me. That man is Rain.

I spontaneously pushed him to the ground. He sat down and looked at me with guilt. I didn't want to help him at all because it was worth it. Rain rose from the ground. He also approached me.

"Han, I'm really sorry. I'm not-"

"God, Rain!" Amidst Rain's words. "I'm tired of everything you say. You used to promise to make your parents refer back. But, now what? You're happy with your new family." Tukasku.

I also ran away leaving Rain with a turbulent guilt in his chest. I kept running until I got home. Tiredness is not felt, because my heart is more focused on the wounds that are on him.

"Eh, why's Dek Hany?" Ask Kak Ina who found my condition very bad when I got home.

I looked into his eyes deeply. With tears that re-dropped I hugged Kak Ina, "Sister.. I miss Grandma." I said.

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The sunlight through the window woke me up. I got up from my sleeping position and started to lean on my pillow. I also dreamt for a while. And the moment last night crossed my head.

I also came back crying. The thing I expected as a nightmare was not a dream, but a bitter reality that I had to swallow. I love my grandmother very much. And on the one hand I can't prevent Grandpa's feelings for that woman.

I took a nice framed picture of Grandma on a lamp table. I also looked at her smiling face stiffly inside the small frame. Instantly all my memories with my grandmother were drawn before my eyes. And it can make me calmer.

The knock on the door from Ina managed to disperse all those memories. He called me slowly from behind the door. I got out of bed and opened the door for Ina.

"What's up, brother?" Ask me when Kak Ina's face appears behind the door.

"There's a guest, Deck." His word.

"Who, Brother?" I asked with curiosity.

"Just look at it for yourself. He's been waiting in the living room."

"Oh. Yes, it is then, brother. Tell the guest I'll be down in five minutes." I said.

"Ready, Deck!" Ina left me too.

Five minutes later, I went down to the living room. There was Rain sitting there talking to Ina. I approached him with an angry face.

"Eh, this is the Hany Deck." Said Brother Ina when he saw me present in the middle of their conversation. "Then Brother back then, yes, there's still work behind." Ina left us both in the living room.

I also sat in the chair that was once sat by Kak Ina. I stared at Rain's slightly changed face from the last time we met. Now he looks more mature.

"How are you doing now?" Rain asked nervously.

I snorted a little, "Rain just go straight, what's your purpose here?" I said without further ado.

"You know, right, that I've known you a long time. I know how shaken your heart was after last night. And I also know, you wouldn't come to school if you were like this. So then.. That's why I came here to say sorry to you." Clearly Rain with his guilty face.

"I forgive you. I realize I don't deserve to be angry with you." My word.

Rain smiled, "Thank you Han, I feel calm now. Here I bring souvenirs from Thailand." Rain also gave a totebag that had been lying on the table.

I also accept it. "Thank you, Rain." Say it with a smile.

Rain returned my smile, "Yes the same."

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^^^ A few weeks later..^^^

I daydreamed while looking at my shoes that I had been shaking. My mind feels so fucked. Honestly, this has nothing to do with what happened that night. Because about it already covered Rain with sweet memories from him.

I was thinking about Rain. Since his departure a week ago I have missed him a lot. Honestly, I'm starting to like it. Astagfirulhalazim!!

I shake my head while closing my eyes. Trying not to think about Rain anymore. If he keeps going he can drive me crazy. How could I possibly fall in love with her, if she were still my enemy?

Not wanting to think about Rain, I decided to look at the clock on the wall. Five minutes of chemistry lesson time will be up. I immediately left the cafeteria and ran to class. I was a little sluggish when I almost got to class. However, when I got to the classroom door, everyone shouted out my name.

"What's wrong?"

I looked up at the teacher's desk. There was Bu Mega and my Grandfather who were looking at me seriously. I'm confused as to what to do now. For the third time I've been caught unplugging at the Chemistry clock.

"Yes! Come to my office now!" Said Grandpa firmly.

I just follow his orders. At least I'm sure Grandfather won't scold me seriously.

Arriving at the headmaster's office, I was surprised to see the figure of Brother Fatha there. He sat in one of the chairs facing Grandpa's desk. He smiled at me too. I just replied with a little smile.

Grandpa sat in his chair. He also started putting on a serious face.

"Fatha, this is my grandson Hany. He likes to unplug in the Chemistry hours and has a problem with that lesson. He's even always remedial when it replicates and gets a zero." Obviously Grandpa on Sister Fatha. Grandfather managed to make me very embarrassed in front of Brother Fatha.

"So, you want me to teach Hany a chemistry lesson?" Ask Brother Fatha who managed to surprise me.

Whahuh? Brother Fatha is my private teacher? Sure enough, I could be a trending topic later in school.

"Duh, Grandpa what the fuck, anyway! I can learn by myself. No need for a private tutor." Tukasku.

"No way, you have to learn chemistry with Fatha!"

Grandfather insisted on his decision. Yes, yes, what to do. He was the principal and I was a student. Even if I'm told to clean the toilet, I have to.

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