I want to Find Him

CHAPTRE 23

We got home just in time for Magrib. We are welcomed by Father and Mother who have been waiting for our arrival. I and Brother Fatha got out of the car and immediately greeted my parents. Mother hugged me too. He stroked my back and said, "Welcome, baby." I just returned his embrace without being able to say anything. I really miss my family. After that, we went into the house. Sister Fatha also came with us, because Mother said that she had prepared food for dinner.

At the dinner table we throw each other stories. I was asked to tell you about my work that you said "Traveler Girl". I am also happy to share my work experience.

After I told you, it is now the turn of Brother Fatha. Dad also began to ask questions like a journalist who was interviewing famous businessmen.

" How is your job now?" Ask Dad.

"Alhamdulillah, Well, everything is good" replied Brother Fatha.

"Thank God, then. I'm happy, too" continued Dad.

"Oh yeah, Mommy listen, you guys open a new company branch again, yes, in Jakarta?" Tymphal Mommy.

"Yes, Bun. Papi wants me to be independent now."

"Oh.. Nice that. Means Mommy can dong, plant shares there.." Me and Dad chuckled.

"Yes Bun. Pray that everything will be smooth" said Brother Fatha with a smile.

After dinner, Fatha went home soon. I'm driving her to the front door. And wait until the car is out of my sight. I closed the door and went to my room. My room hasn't changed since I left six months ago. Even the alarm clock I put on the bed did not move at all. I don't think my room was ever entered by Mother at all. My sheets just feel dusty. And the ceiling of my star-filled room is now almost covered with cobwebs.

I turned my eyes to the study table in the corner of the room. I approached the table too. The shelves are still filled with my high school books. And some stationery is still there. I grabbed a picture frame at the end of the table. In that frame is my picture with Rain. I looked at Rain's happy smile. My tears come every time I see this photo. Because this was the last time before he disappeared. I kept watching the photo. Until all my views began to fade.

I just woke up when the dawn of the Adhan was reverberating. I found myself asleep on the carpet hugging my picture frame with Rain. I don't know why I fell asleep on the carpet last night.

Today I plan to visit Grandpa's house. I got there just as Grandpa was coming home. I called him when he entered the house. I approached him immediately too. He looked surprised, but very happy. He hugged me very tightly.

"When do you come home?" Ask Grandpa.

"Yesterday, Cake," I replied.

"Yes, let's go in!"

I was immediately greeted by Mega when I got inside. He hugged me with happiness. He was often happy when he saw me. Because he said if I see me his longing for Rain can be treated.

I was eaten by Grandpa and Bu Mega. Like Mom and Dad, they asked me to tell them about my work. We also took turns telling each other. And it feels so good to be able to laugh together in this sad home.

As usual, I'll help Ms. Mega wash the dishes after we finish our meal. On the sidelines of these activities, we often tell stories or sometimes gossip. But this time he only fell silent after I said that tomorrow I will go to Bangkok.

"Mother take it easy, I'll try to find Rain in between my work" I said.

He sounded like he was breathing slowly. "This is how many times Hany has. You have been there often. You have even been traveling around Thailand. And how is the result? Rain is nowhere," said Bu Mega in an annoyed tone.

"But I can't give up. Mom told me that." I tried to convince him back.

Mega stopped her work. Then she hugged me and cried.

"Mothers.. Why are you crying?" My toot.

He also tried to calm himself. Then she wiped her tears.

"I feel so guilty Hany. To Rain and to you."

"I? What's wrong mom? You're not wrong, same as me."

"No, Hany, I was wrong. Mother made Rain go away. And because of your mother's mistake, you're sad that you lost Rain. And now, I feel desperate. I felt like I'd never see Rain again." Mom Mega is crying again.

I'm sorry to see Mega Ma'am. I hugged him and tried to calm him down.

"No, really, Mom. Mother is not wrong. Mother's choice is the best choice. If I had been with Rain then maybe I would have been more angry with Mom. Because Mom would make my Grandpa sad. But I chose to stay here and accompany Grandpa until now. I'm so grateful for that. And about Rain, I promised Mom that I'd take Rain home. Mother do'ain me yes, may I succeed." Mega smiled back. I wiped her tears with my fingers.

After our work was done, we also chatted in front of the house while enjoying the booze that had just been picked by Grandpa. It does not feel like time just passes because it is too busy chatting. Until the time of Ashar. We also decided to pray together. After the Ashar prayer I went home.

On the way, I had a chat with Brother Fatha. He said that later tonight he wanted to take me to eat at the cafe in front of the school where we often hang out first. He said he wanted to reminisce. I just smiled and read Whatsapp from him.

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Highlights of the car lights are clearly visible when entering the yard of my house. And it must be Brother Fatha. He got out of the car with a bouquet of flowers. I smiled when he approached me. And received the flowers he gave.

"Sok romantic, deh," I said.

Brother Fatha just smiled.

"You leaving now?" Take me.

Brother Fatha nodded. He also asked me to get in the car. After that, we also left.

I feel like I went back seven years. Where I'm the fool always spending time with smart people who help me with advertising. However, now the fool is a little clever and the clever man is no longer my helper, but my lover. We sat at table number six, where we used to live. And I think we're really going to reminisce.

The waiter brought us two plates of food and drinks. We also enjoyed the food the waiter served. I finished first than Brother Fatha. While waiting for him, I decided to look around this cafe again. I remember the times I was with my friends. Even at Rain's birthday party that day.

"Han, what do you see?" Asked Sister Fatha when she realized I noticed something.

"none. Just looking around, "I replied.

"I'm not happy to be here again with you Han."

"I'm also Brother."

Brother Fatha was silent for a moment. Then he looked at me seriously.

"Han, you know, that Brother loves you very much" he said.

I was confused as to why he said that. " Yes, I know Brother."

" What about you, Han. Do you really love your sister?" Ask Brother Fatha.

"Why does my sister ask that? You know I really love you."

"You know Han, why am I coming home?"

"Not Brother wants to take care of the new company Brother in Jakarta."

Brother Fatha paused for a moment and turned her face away for a moment. "You're wrong, Han. That's not my goal to go home," he said.

"Continue..?" I'm curious now.

"I want to tell you something." Fatha took my hand. " We're not teenagers anymore Han, we're adults. We need to determine the direction of our relationship. We can't just stay here" said Brother Fatha.

"Then.." Overshipped.

Fatha took out a small box from her pocket. He opened the box too. And I was surprised to see a sparkling ring in the box.

"I'm going to propose to you, Han. You want to live with me forever?"

I could not believe that Brother Fatha would propose to me. My tears are dripping because I am happy. I can't say anything right now. All I want is for the ring to be attached to my finger tonight.

"I know, this is not the right place to propose to you. But I want to do it here, Han. Because this place is our place of memory. And I want this place to always be our favorite place from the past until later."

I was still silent and heard the words that Brother Fatha said. My tongue feels too weak to talk. I'm very happy.

"Ha.. You want to, right?" Ask Brother Fatha again.

My tears are flowing too. I'm sure everyone here is watching us. Brother Fatha also looked panicked at my reaction. He also tried to calm me.

"What's wrong with you, Han? How crying?"

"I cry because I'm so happy, brother. I feel like this is all a dream. It feels like just yesterday we sat studying here and now we're getting married. Is this a dream, brother?" I said while crying haru.

"It's not a dream, Han. You deserve to be happy." Brother Fatha also put the ring to my ring finger.

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