I want to Find Him

CHAPTRE 12

The atmosphere of excitement radiated wide in the middle of the dining room of Grandpa's house. A joking throw rang out from the mouths of Grandpa and Dad who replied to each other. Me, Mommy, Ms. Mega, and one of our guests just laughed looking at those who did not stop arguing. While enjoying dinner, we got carried away that night.

Every now and then I looked towards Rain who was facing the seat with me. He looks like he's got carried away like the others. I focused on food that I could barely eat.

I volunteered to wash the dishes after we finished dinner. I pleaded as an apology for not helping them cook. Initially Bu Mega did not allow it, because the dirty dishes were very much. However, after Rain asked permission to help me, he agreed.

Rain and I had to stay in the kitchen longer to clean up those dirty dishes. While the parents have already gone to the family room. We split the tasks so that our work is quickly completed. I scrubbed the dishes with soap, and Rain rinsed the dishes.

During the dish washing activity, we were silent. Me and even Rain don't talk to each other. I would love to talk to her, but I feel confused about what to start with. I don't want to look nervous in front of Rain.

The task of washing dishes was done. But we still haven't spoken. I don't know why Rain looks different. Usually, every time he met me he would have greeted me first without any hesitation. But, it's been a few hours, yet Rain doesn't want to talk to me at all. I'm tired of just being quiet like this.

"I want to go home!" Throw me out when they're busy telling stories.

They stopped talking and their eyes were directed at me. Not to forget Rain who also did the same. "Well, how come, go home, Han? We're, just been here a minute. Rarely, we go to Grandpa's house. This also happened to welcome Rain's return," said Mother who disagreed with my wishes.

I also turned to Rain who looked strange with the restless waves he showed. And it made me even more angry to see him. "Tomorrow morning I have to go to school, Bun. And I also have a PR that I have to collect tomorrow morning," I said for an excuse. "If you're the same Mother, you still want to be here, no problem. I can go home alone," I continued.

I stood up and picked up my bag on the chair. Then, walk regardless of the call of Father and Mother that prevents me from leaving. If you think I'm selfish. Indeed, until now I still maintain that nature.

Suddenly a soft touch of hand grabbed my hand that had a rougher texture than Rain's. He took me out of the house, not back to our family. I just followed where he took me. And stop when he stops.

He let go of his grip violently when we were outside the house. He looked angry to the point that his breathing sounded irregular. He turned his face and said, "Do you always want to make a bad impression when I come home?" I got carried away with the emotion of hearing Rain's question.

Rain was seen nailing in his place. He looked at me for a few seconds then turned his gaze to the other direction. Whereas I chose to turn my gaze towards the grass that looks alkaline by dewdrops.

After a few minutes Rain said, "I'm sorry." I also looked towards him. "Hany, I'm sorry for not greeting you as usual. I was nervous when I heard you were coming here. And my confidence collapsed when I saw you a few months ago." Rain looked me in the eye even deeper. "Hany, I missed you!" She directly grabbed me with her warm embrace.

I was just glued to silence in the middle of the warm Rain's embrace. I couldn't do anything at the time. My heart was pounding and I was sure Rain could feel his throb. I really wouldn't have expected him to hold me that tight.

I felt my tears dripping down my heated cheeks. Even a few feathers might fall on the back of Rain's shirt. I don't know why the tears were flowing so fast. I don't know why I cry either.

Rain took off his embrace when it hit me. He looked at my face wet with tears. He wiped my tears with his palms and said, "Why are you crying?" I just kept sobbing like a Kindergarten kid who had just been jahili by his friends. And Rain is my kindergarten teacher trying to calm her students down.

After my cry was a bit broken, Rain also invited me to go to the cafe to fix my broken mood. He said, if we go back inside the house it's not a good idea and it won't make me smile like I am today.

Rain bought me my favorite cup of cappuccino. He knows I like cappuccinos. He also almost knows all about me even my dirty hobbies that often eavesdrop on him he knows.

I never thought he would remember anything about me. Studied me like I was studying chemistry. Even Rain knows me better than I do. Whether because we used to be together a lot or he was deliberately trying to understand me, I don't know. He was obviously someone who was very attentive to me.

We talked for a long time. After the night was late, we decided to go home. As before, we walked down the street on foot. But the distance we traveled was further than before. Fortunately, our city knew no day or night. So, we didn't feel lonely down the streets in the middle of the night.

We arrived at my house after about thirty minutes of walking. When we arrived, my father's car entered the yard. Seeing us sitting on the terrace, Father and Mother immediately got out of the car. They also asked about our situation. Then, after knowing we were okay, they looked calm. I asked Dad to take Rain home. After watching them leave, Mother and I entered the house to rest.

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