I want to Find Him

CHAPTRE 22

^^^Jakarta,^^^

^^^ Seven years later..^^^

I woke up from my sleep. It was the same dream as before. I rubbed my hands to my face to my head. I stayed in that position for a few seconds, and took my hand off when something came to my brain. My gaze turned to a table beside the entrance. On the table there are many archives arranged neatly in boxes. And on the bottom there are some small drawers that are tightly closed.

I approached the table too. Then examine the row of drawers below it. I wanted to open it, but my hands felt heavy to lift. I'm trying to muster up the courage to open one of those drawers. And get ready to see something inside. I raised my hand which was filled with cold sweat. So heavy and stiff. However, finally the hand managed to hold the handle of the drawer.

My hand managed to pull the handle of the drawer until the box came out in half. Inside there is a thick book wrapped in the dominant white color. Above the cover is the title, KIMIA. I took the book from inside the drawer. Then he stared at her for a long time until he turned over the cover of the book. On the first page was a book I did not want to read anymore. But I miss reading it so much. Clear thread also managed to escape from my eyes. I closed the book and hugged it tightly.

I peeked back at the drawer. It also has a flash drive containing a gift video from Rain. I grabbed the little thing and connected it to my laptop. Instantly I felt that I was going back to my High School. I was with Rain and Sister Fatha. I miss them. Especially Rain. If only time could turn, I would help Rain persuade her mother to go with her. But it's too late. Rain has disappeared somewhere. I was almost desperate to find him.

Rains.. Are you still on earth?

I rubbed my watering eyes again. "It's been.. Already, Han. You need to focus on the present. And throw all about Rain for now." I tried to amuse myself. I put those two precious things back in their place. I also grabbed some maps arranged in the corner of my work desk. Then start checking them one by one.

Now I've been working at a company owned by Fajri's extended family. I got a position as a coordinator of the company's product creation research center and became a marketing manager. Really not young to get the position at this young age without any help from inside. Fajri family-owned company is engaged in the production of cosmetics and products that we usually use everyday. And Fajri got a position as a young CEO at the request of his father. Really, this family is really very rich.

My office door opened suddenly. And that surprised me. A reddish-brown haired girl appeared from there. In a hurry he came to me.

"Han, you already know that our departure schedule to Bangkok in mapanin?" Nora asked in panic.

"It was told to Fajri yesterday." My answer.

"So you already know. How come, don't you tell me? We're leaving the day after Han.. There's still a lot of things to prepare."

"You just calm down. Everything's done, all right." I said. "This. I signed everything. You drive, yeah, to Fajri's room."

Nora looked at me with a face of sympathy. He took all the files on my desk.

"Thank you, Han. You shouldn't have to do everything. It's all my job as your secretary."

I smiled too. "It's okay, Nor. Anyway, this is our project. It shouldn't be either, you know it all."

"He he's.. Yes, that is it. I'll take this first, yes, to Mr. Fajri's room."

"Yes, please."

Nora turned around to leave my office. Suddenly I remembered something I wanted to tell Nora.

"Nor!" Call me.

He turned to face me. "What's wrong?"

"Ep.. Tell Fajri that I'm not going to work tomorrow."

"Where are you going, Han?"

"Sir Fatha just returned to Indonesia yesterday. Now he has arrived in Pekanbaru. So, I have to follow him." I said.

"Thank you, Nora. See you the day after tomorrow."

"Yes, Han. See you soon."

I watched Nora leave my study. After he disappeared from my sight, I began to hurry and prepare to go home. I tidied up everything on the desk, picked up the bag and was ready to go. Suddenly I stopped my steps. I turned towards the drawer where I kept the book from Rain. I want to take the book with me. After a moment of thought, I finally decided to bring the book home.

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A few hours later I landed at the Sultan Syarif Kasim II Pekanbaru Airport. I was immediately greeted by Brother Fatha who I think was waiting for me. She smiled sweetly at me who was walking towards her. I hugged her when we were close. He returned my embrace tightly. "I miss Big Brother" I said softly. He stroked my head gently. "Sister too" he replied.

Not long after we spent time at the airport, we immediately continued our journey to where we came from. A thousand memories. Where all the stories are there. Especially Rain. When I was at home, it felt like Rain was by my side. He has long since disappeared.

I looked at the face of Brother Fatha who was seriously driving the car. He's so handsome. Much better looking than before. The line of the face of his maturity gives an interesting impression of its own. His firm jaw made him look even more charismatic.

Brother Fatha turned towards me. Maybe he realized I was watching him. "What's wrong?" Ask Brother Fatha.

I smiled as well, shaking my head.

"Then, why is Hany staring at Brother?" Ask Brother Fatha curiously.

"It's not okay if a girl stares at a guy's face."

Fatha smiled too. "Yes.. Can, anyway. Especially the handsome guy like a Korean movie star." Gurau Brother Fatha.

"Totally self-confident.." I said while pushing Fatha's shoulder. He also chuckles.

I looked back at the wet road. Yes, it is raining outside, but there are still many vehicles that are still passing along the road. I turned towards the building of figures lined up on the side of the road. I do this so as not to get bored. Suddenly, I felt a warm feeling in my right hand. Brother Fatha held my hand. I also looked towards him. He remains focused on the streets. I also tried to take my hand out of his grasp. However, he was clutching it even more tightly.

"It has to be like this? We'll crash, you know!"

"Belvin. What matters is that we die together" said Brother Fatha.

I smiled in amazement at Brother Fatha. I didn't expect that a Brother Fatha could joke like that. Yep.. I know that ever since we dated, she almost always made me laugh. Even on the outside, he doesn't look like a comedian. We hardly ever fight. Even when our relationship was beset by conflict we tried to persuade each other.

Sister Fatha can be said to be almost perfect as a couple. He was gentle, not grumpy, pushy, clever, and also quite handsome. You already know all that. However, even so I still felt not completely comfortable with him. Maybe because my heart is still flying around looking for a missing figure. When I was with Brother Fatha only my body was beside her, but my soul floated somewhere. Sometimes he would ask, "Han, are you still with me?" Then, that's when I woke up and replied, "Yes. I'm still with Brother."

It's still raining out there. The atmosphere is almost empty. The sun was almost drowned. And all I felt was the warm grip of Brother Fatha's hand.

"Huh.." Lirih Brother Fatha.

"Hmmm.."

"I really love you" said Brother Fatha softly.

I smiled and replied, "I too."

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