I want to Find Him

CHAPTER 37: FLASHBACK 2

I froze when I saw the face of the man who looked so angry. My tongue was gone for a moment. I can't react to anything.

Fatha's sister appeared from behind me. He immediately grabbed my shoulder while staring hard at Rain.

"What's Rain you came here for?" Ask Brother Fatha.

Rain just stared intently at the two of us. Then, he suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me into his arms.

"I'll take Hany home." Reveal it in a flat tone.

The surprised sister Fatha immediately put on an unhappy expression.

"What do you mean? She's my future wife so don't take my fiance away." Brother Fatha pulled me back into her arms.

"Listen Fatha! Hany doesn't love you completely, so you don't force her will to choose you." Rain spoke firmly.

Brother Fatha let go of his embrace from my body and took a step forward.

"Do you know what you are about love? You even married a girl you didn't love. Isn't that also called coercion?" Reply Brother Fatha.

I who heard the debate of the two men instantly trembled. My face warmed up and tears began to settle in my eyes. I never thought this would happen. Where Brother Fatha and Rain will fight because of me.

Rain was silent for a moment because he heard the words of Brother Fatha. He realized that what Fatha said was very true. He forced himself to marry Carsy which ultimately made everyone suffer. He suddenly said a word that surprised me, "I'm going to divorce Carsy and marry Hany." Reveal Rain.

Plakk!

One slap successfully landed on one of Rain's cheeks. My hand staggered weakly after successfully slapping it. It happened reflexively without me noticing. My blood boiled when I heard that painful sentence glide smoothly from Rain's mouth.

Rain held onto her cheek which was now flushed. The pain in the cheek was no more painful than his heart when he saw the woman he loved choosing with another man. He couldn't react when he saw me being claustrophobic with tears.

"Only the brengs3k man says such a fleeting thing!" My scream.

"I'm not the woman you think I am. I'm not a woman who wants to ruin other people's homes for my own happiness." My next.

Fatha tried to calm me down. I was still angry with Rain.

"I didn't expect you to be a cruel man because of past love. Even your blind heart cannot see the sincerity of others!"

"Dear, calm yourself." Say Brother Fatha softly.

"Carsy loves you so much, Rain! Try to look at her and forget me. I'll get married soon and please accept my wish for the last time," I hang my words.

Rain just looked at me like he was resigned to the situation.

"Please don't disturb my life anymore.."

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The day just passed by, not feeling the day we were waiting for had finally come. Today is the wedding day for me and Brother Fatha. I was very nervous when the word kabul was read.

Mother took my hand. She also becomes nervous when she realizes her only child will soon be someone's wife. Mother also often cries lately. Whether it's a sad cry or a haru cry I don't know. Looks like both.

The word echoed throughout the room. I who was in the room with Mother and some friends immediately smiled happily. After that we prayed together.

I was also escorted by Mother and a girl to the place of kabul ijab. I sat down next to Brother Fatha with a little embarrassment. I didn't think I was officially hers now.

I shook my husband's hand and he kissed me on the forehead. My tears were shed for a moment because I was so moved.

After the Ijab kabul event was over, the guests began to rush home because the day was also late. We welcome our guests and thank them for their presence. After the guests had left, we also decided to go home to prepare for the reception the next day.

When he had just left the building after changing clothes, suddenly Carsy came up to me in a hurry. She cried in fear and held both of my hands. We who were there were immediately amazed to see the reaction of Carsy.

"Please me, Han.." she said.

"What's up, Carsy? Why do you look scared?" I also asked who panicked.

"Rain's.." Carsy is sobbing.

"Why Rain?" I asked to panic when I saw the frightened Carsy. My mind was starting to become unsettled.

"It looks like Rain tried to kill himself in the room and it's been almost half an hour that he hasn't responded to us calling him from the outside." Carsy.

Instantly my body became weak. I used to feel tired, but that's not what made me run out of energy the most. Imagining the worst thing that had happened in that room made me feel like fainting. Without thinking, I immediately ran away from Carsy and Sister Fatha and our families who were there. I ran while voicing Rain's name in my heart.

Immediately I snatched a taxi around the hotel and asked the driver to immediately drive towards Bu Mega's house.

I feel so fucked up on the way. I can't imagine that tomorrow on my happy day I'll see Rain's funeral at the same time. I feel so guilty.

When I arrived in front of Bu Mega's house I immediately ran to Rain's room door. I immediately shouted to Rain to open the door.

"Rain, please open the door! I'm so worried about you." Shouted me from behind the door.

However, the door also did not open until Brother Fatha and the others arrived and broke down the door.

When the door opened, I broke straight into the room. There was Rain lying on the floor with his body stiff and his mouth full of foam. Beside him was a bottle that could be expected to be poison. Rain had attempted suicide by drinking a bottle of poison.

I ran hugging Rain's stiff body. I screamed hysterically to ask someone to save Rain. Fatha immediately called an ambulance. Shortly thereafter, the hospital staff arrived.

I saw Carsy who wasn't hysterical from me. He sobbed while escorting Rain's body into the ambulance. I also took care of Rain in the ambulance and Brother Fatha who had been following me.

From earlier I voiced a sad sentence that made my tears not stop coming out.

'Oh Allah do not take him first, I have not been able to see him go..'

Maybe God is testing me for making a fatal mistake. I know I have many sins. Why did Rain end his life? Totally selfish.

During the trip to the hospital I just cried while holding Rain's cold hands. My heart was very anxious to see the man now lying in the ward. I fear the worst will happen to him. And if that happens I will never forgive myself.

'Rain hold..'

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