Dew Heart Traces

Thank You For Loving

Nothing has changed from the house I once lived in before marriage after moving into the house that the Stars gave me.

Orange would rather we move here again so that I would not be too sad to remember the Star. It may be true, but my heart is also reluctant to leave many of my memories with the Stars in our house.

The middle way I can move back and forth to adjust my psychic state, after all the distance is not too far even close.

I intend to resign from my job, I want to go around the world just spend time freely without any bond of responsibility. Actually I used to have aspirations if my age had reached 45 years I would have retired early from the company.

Of course, when the orange is big and ready to live independently at that time. My intentions have been conveyed to JIngga and he does not forbid at all. Nania can already count on me to replace the position of Star to take care of the company.

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I brush off love

Saying I can't carve a new wound

Tired of dreaming

Dreams with me that are still stubborn

Then she slipped without me noticing

Not him, but me

Who have lost and given up since the beginning

What do my tears mean now?

The pain that may never go away

Losing him is so meaningful

Now I'm lost

Because the stars have gone from my sky

Shine a more worthy heart

Of me, who is only a blind man

Go away, let me here

With my heart closed again

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Huhai gust of wind, tell me about that there is my miss is a sin too? I just want to know, if it's okay, I miss him so much. My body seemed to just move following the footsteps of the miss who was lost. Seeing his path was already dark without any more Stars accompanying him.

How will you get to your destination?

Whisper to him there is a heart that has lost and admitted wrong. Is it too late to make up for it? I was more and more downcast knowing there was a tired fragment that was now scattered. How else could I gather them together?

No one gave an answer, is everything now silent? Just give me a little lamp so I know where I am now.

“Halloo, Mum.” Nania's voice was called.

“Ticket mom can already issue whenever mom is ready.”

Looks like I should start preparing for all my long journey. I plan to start from Turkey. Countries we've wanted to visit together.

“You can come here later afternoon?”

“Can, Mom. Anytime mom need anything Nania ready 24 hours.”

Nania is an incredible star relic. He once said that Bintang always sends a message to all his teams in the company if my interests are the most important. No one doubts the love of the stars to me.

That night I gathered everyone together to talk about the most important thing. Without waiting for long, they all came. Nania and all the Star trust team in the office, Bik Nah also Orange.

I expressed my intention to start a long journey next week. I put an orange on Bik Nah, the office on Nania. I firmly believe they are the ones God sent to accompany me in joy and sorrow. They are my family now, so whatever concerns my life they are the most important thing I tell you.

I saw them all smiling full haru. I'm sure their hearts are raging like mine, losing such a precious person will never be easy. There are no words that can comfort a lost person, for time will accompany him until our tears are eroded and diminished.

“I'm sorry for always making you sad and tired,” I said ending our meeting.

“Mother don't forget to be happy there huh. Don't worry about who is here, let us all take care of it,” replied Nania while wiping her tears.

“So will also take care of Bibik as well as possible, Mom,” replied Bik Nah.

“Mama do not have to think too much about Orange, now Orange is big. Orange just want Mama happy and soon recover from everything.”

“Iya, Darling. Mama promised all of you. My mother will be happy for all who love me. After Mama has healed from these wounds, Mama will go home and become a new person.”

We all hugged each other.

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Dear Mas Danial's

Forgive me for not being able to thank you for everything Mas did for the Stars and all of us. Thank you for being the man who has ever meant so much in my life. I was very lucky with the scenario God gave me because that way I met my wonderful husband.

I've never hated you at all, Mom. Even by loving you I learned many things that I cannot mention one-on-one.

Let me seek happiness in the path I am now on. I didn't expect the Stars to leave me to you, Mas. Ahhh .. whether his heart is made of what so that it is able to do something that must be contrary to his conscience. However, I knew she was so because she did not want me to be alone anymore in this world. He forgot that he had given me everything so I would never feel alone. I just miss him a lot right now and it's a gift I have to accept.

I promise you, Mas. I'll be as happy as I used to be I promise you to be happy without you.

Thank you for your love for me. I am a very lucky woman to be loved by both of you. But my heart is only one. My body is only one. My life is only once, so I can't share it with two people.

And my choice was my husband Star. Let him who will always have life and me arrive in heaven later.

Mas, be happy with Ma'am Hana, he must love you very much too. Forget about me like a gust of wind you can't hold.

I will continue my life without being a burden to others. My happiness is my own business not anyone's responsibility. Even the Stars are just ordinary humans who have limited ability to make me happy. If he could, then he wouldn't have left me in the world so soon.

Bismillah Mas's. Pray that I can be a person who always matures from every story that God gave in my life. Be it happiness and the pill.

Goodbye to my old dream.

~Grab