Dew Heart Traces

Surprise

Almost six months we officially became husband and wife, nothing changed from the stars even he once said the more he loved me, the more he wanted to make me happy. I had never been able to return his words when he said his love. I didn't want to lie to her, I was just waiting for God to convince me of all that was still in my heart.

I waited until my heart was pure for the Stars. I hope I'm not too late to do that

Today I am not in good shape, my body feels like it was hit by dozens of people. I was also not eager to work, Star was very sensitive to my mood changes.

“What's up, Honey?”

“Entahlah .. today it looks like I want to be home only.”

“You sick?”

“No, just feeling sore all over my body.”

“You want me to massage?”

“Aih, ntar you are late to the office. I think it might be because of my tiredness because yesterday I did a lot of work.”

“You rest at home, I'll be home early today so I can accompany.”

He kissed my forehead still lying on the bed. I want to drive him to the front. However, he prevented me.

I saw the back of the man who loved me so much. Why does my heart feel sad? .

“Iaaang ..,” call me. I don't know where I have the strength to call him dear. A call I never made even after almost a year of marriage.

“Whataa? Try repeating again, Honey,” said Bintang spontaneously turned his body. I shook my head not to support him. There is shame if it is repeated again..

“Come once again, please!” She was really begging but I was so stubborn as to support her.

“I'm sad look at your back.” I sulk like a child.

You know, the Star is there any way to make me laugh, he walked backwards towards the exit of our room.

“Hahahaaa ..”

Allah is All-Good and gave my life the man of the heavens. He was sent from heaven for a life that was not always beautiful. If I hadn't gone through the past, I probably wouldn't have met the Stars. Oh ... for the first time I'm grateful my life was so dark to get to the arms of the Stars. That was my wonderful husband. He never complained about me, even the little things he might not like about me.

The Star's mind was just how I could be happy, she just wanted to show me her happy being loved. Life is beautiful even with all its pain. He always thought life was like a rainbow. Because rainbows are beautiful because they are colorful, they are beautiful because they appear after the rain waters the earth.

If life is about liking, then it is not beautiful. We will greatly appreciate happiness when we have experienced misfortune or sadness. We will be able to see the slightest light if we are in a dark place. Imagine if we were always in a bright place, then the starlight would not look beautiful. Even the moonlight we never thought existed.

Those beautiful words the stars always say when we're alone. Thank God for all the life you have designed for me.

“But want to macakin what?” ask Bik Nah when I get into my room.

“Again lazy eating Bik. I don't know why my body feels crumpled.”

“Hmm, When was the last period?”

“Means Well what?” I remember the last time I came to the moon.

“Try Ibuk check the date.”

I may be pregnant when I am 43 years old. It doesn't make sense, but I feel like this month I haven't had a period at all. I used to think I was late for the moon because I was tired. It used to be like that too.

The words Bik Nah I can't get out of my mind. I finally asked Bik Nah to buy a pregnancy test at the pharmacy. Just make sure without expecting anything.

I still remember the orange color of twilight, whenever I remembered the moments where I always waited in my solitude. What will my thoughts be like? There is no answer other than nature giving many examples of changing seasons and the like.

“Am I in a long dream, O God? I don't want to wake up if this is how happy it feels.”

I was stuck and couldn't move my body. Is there a fetus in my womb right now? When I was no longer young? What other wonderful gift would you like to give me, O God? Could this self so much you give such a great gift?

“Star, yes Allah. Is this a gift for that amazing guy?” I said with trembling lips.

The plan is I don't want to tell Bintang first before I confirm it to the gynecologist.

I saw the clock on the wall, already showing at six in the afternoon. Why did Bintang not come home until this hour when he promised to go home sooner. It is not usual for him to do something that is contrary to his principles. He didn't tell me anything either.

It wouldn't be wise for me to call him first to ask him why he hasn't come home yet. I don't want to be spoiled and childish.

My heart is not calm, the night is getting late, but the stars have not told me whereabouts. I forced myself to call him. Ringing but not lifted. I tried many times, nil. I'm freaking out, what's up with the stars? I tried to call Nania her secretary.

“Loh you came home before four in the afternoon, Mom,” replied Nania.

“You sure?”

“Iya, Mom. Father said Mother was less healthy so all the work that afternoon was pending tomorrow.”

“Yes Allah. Try asking others who know you have a sudden need.”

“But you never were, Mom. He always informs me even suddenly.”

“Yauda Nia's. Please check all office children yes to find the whereabouts of Mr.”

“Good, Bu.”

My mind's screwed up, what's the Star doing so he's like this? do I have to call the police?

“Bu.” Nania called.

“How?”

“Handphone I missed in the office, the office security guard checked into the room Father and found it.”

“Yes Allah. Try checking all hospitals yes.”

I had to ask Nania to check into all the hospitals. I pray that the stars are not found there.

I can't hold back my tears anymore. I can't wait any longer, I have to act and call the police.

“Hallo, can anyone help?”

“Sorry, sir, are there any reports of traffic accidents in the period of fourpm to date?” This is the police station I don't know how I've been calling.

“Oh yes, Mom. About five in the afternoon there was an SUV accident driven by a man about forty years old. We have contacted the address listed on the identity of the victim but no one is connected.”

With my heart pounding I asked the name of the victim of the accident.

“Who is the victim's name, sir?”

“Star Laxmana Earth.”