Dew Heart Traces

Waiting for Miracles

I opened my eyes, my head was still heavy. I saw Bik Nah already covered her eyes as if she had been crying for a long time.

“I why, Bik?”

“Mother passed out long ago. I'm worried once.”

“What's the father, Bik?”

Bik Nah was silent while hiccuping with rushing tears. It's still clear I heard the name Bintang was the victim of the accident this afternoon.

“Bapak treated where, Bik?”

“In the meantime Ms. Nania here to pick up Mom, Ms. Nania took care of Mr. used to be new here.”

“No, Bik! we are also taking a taxi. I don't want to wait long.”

Just as I was moving, Nania had already come to pick me up, so I didn't have to go alone.

When we got to the hospital, I ran straight to the ICU room where the Bintang was in intensive care.

“Bapak has been operated directly, Mom, earlier. It is impossible to wait for family to come. You must have immediate action,” Nania explained.

Several times I asked Bintang to use the driver if going anywhere so that if tired he can rest in the car without having to focus on driving alone.

“Mom can enter later after one hour,” said the nurse who came out of the room. Can I wait that long to be around him.

“Yes Allah, please my husband,” I ask the Lord in a raucous voice.

An hour felt so long, I could no longer wait too long.

“Please let me in, Sus! I beg.” I groaned with a voice that was almost broken by tears.

He finally let me in, even though I couldn't touch him first.

“Soo, banguuun! Don't do this! I have to what if you don't wake up.” I cried unhappily by closing my mouth so as not to be too noisy, holding back my sobs.

He was shaking, so bad was the accident that my husband's body was gone. Why do I shudder when I see her whole body filled with bandages. What happened, God?

“I want to explain the situation Mr, Ma'am,” said the doctor who handles Bintang.

“Iya, Doc.”

“The accident that occurred, made your abdomen rupture and experienced severe bleeding, although we have done surgery to prevent bleeding even worse, but it all depends on the miracle, Mom. Hopefully you can go through his critical period.”

My feet were limp as if they were not standing in place. Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight I heard the information the doctor gave me. I should how?

Nania was only able to hold me back from falling. I squeezed my stomach, did I still have the chance to tell him that he was going to be a father to the child I just knew was already in my womb?

“Darling, ask God for Papa's healing, Son!” I muttered speaking to my fetus.

“Mother is pregnant?” tanya Nania simultaneously with Bik Nah.

“Yes Allah, Bu.” Bik Nah has no power to hold back her crying anymore.

Nania hugged me while crying as she pleased. “Father will soon wake up, Mom. He will definitely be strong for the sake of his baby, the child that you have dreamed of so far.”

Hearing Nania's words, made me fall to sit on the floor crying. Let me give you this good news, Star.

For days I waited for the Star to come to its senses from its coma. I didn't want to leave her so that when she realized I was the one she saw first.

The longest wait I have ever felt, even the wait to meet my life partner is not the same as when I waited for a one-time miracle from God for me. The Star consciousness.

“Iang, you don't want to wake up? I want to tell you that in my stomach now there is our baby candidate.” I tried to talk to the stars, whether he heard it or not. I stroked his hand which was still attached to the infusion hoses.

“You know, honey, I found out I was pregnant the day you promised to come home soon. But it turns out I got you here lying down without being able to talk to me.”

I watched from behind the glass door of ICU Bik Nah waving her hand as if calling me to come out.

“What's Bik?”

“Mother called the same doctor to her room.”

I immediately rushed to the doctor's room after I asked Bik Nah to standby guarding the Stars.

“The condition of the Father is getting better even though he is not aware, so it is likely that today we will move the Father to the usual care room, but remain in intensive monitoring until the Father can regain consciousness. I hope you can be patient to wait ya.”

“Aalhamdulillah's. Thank you very much, Doc.”

The news makes me happy. I just need to pray more and more for the Stars to come to their senses.

Every time I hide behind a worn-out curtain

I was always unable to close it perfectly

Why did you come when I was lifeless

I can walk but not walk

I can smile like a robot

I can be what the world wants me to be

But my heart is not in its place

Because my life is not mine

It had been almost a month the Star had not yet come to its senses, as if she was asleep, a long rest. His physical condition is still under treatment, the injuries that hit his entire body have also begun to improve.

What makes him not aware of his long sleep? But I already knew that he actually heard my every chatter when I talked to him.

According to the obstetrician, my gestational age has entered the second trimester which is four months running. Because my age is no longer young, so my pregnancy has risks, so I have to be able to take extra care of my body and fetus. Every day I watch the stars.

I also have permission to take a sabbatical from work, the company is very understanding of my situation, and because it was during work I never took a leave at all so when I asked for a leave of absence permit, when I asked for a leave of absence, no one objected.

Bik Nah also faithfully paced to meet my daily needs while keeping the Stars. I am grateful to have people who have always been faithful to help me, including the members of the Star who are already deft to take care of office affairs even though the Star is not directly involved.

Bintang is indeed a reliable entrepreneur in building his team for even precarious circumstances. Every day Nania also reported the state of the office that was running fine during the Bintang illness.

Because of that, I finally know a little about the Star company. He was a hardworking man all this time so when he was sick, he didn't need to worry much about his business that had been running as he had designed so far.

I feel a tremendous nausea, just realized not yet breakfast and at this time Bik Nah I ask not to come, because this morning Orange will go home so that there are people who welcome him at home. Jingga loved Bintang so much that she regularly visited Bintang every week in the hospital.

Orange already knew that he would soon have a sister, which he had long dreamed of as well even though he would get it when he was a teenager. She once said that she was not ashamed of having a baby sister when she was already in a gray uniform. It's better than being a lonely child.

I asked a nurse to take care of my husband during my breakfast in the hospital cafeteria, however I should not be selfish with my fetus. I have to keep his nutritional intake up at all times.

As I was casually chewing my breakfast, right in front of my eyes, I saw a figure I would never forget.

“Mas Danial,” I said inwardly.

What is he doing here, in this hospital and why should I meet in a place rarely visited by common people who have no interest at all. He also saw me, we could no longer avoid especially me who was chewing food that had not been exhausted. It's impossible for me to just leave.